Loving You in My Way

CHAPTER 42

"What do you mean ?" asked Neera who did not understand Ayyub's intentions.

"I obey the will of mama and Vina because I know if I refuse then you will get the impact, you will be more depressed again because they will bestow all the mistakes on you" said Ayyub.

"How do you know all that ?"

"When I refused to go with Vina, I heard her scolding you and corner you, they said that you brainwashed me and had a bad influence on me" it was Ayyub who made Neera even more astonished.

"How is it possible." said Neera half-believingly.

"I'm sorry Neera, I can't be firm to defend you. I'm too stupid to choose between you and my mom. I can't love you, you are the person I love the most even I can sacrifice my life for you while mom is the one who fights my life giving birth to me, even she raised me with her hands" said Ayyub Lirih.

"Already Ayyub, I never asked you to choose between me and my mother, even I absolutely do not want if you do that. It is your responsibility as a boy to his mother. I've done everything that's happened, I'm so grateful that now I have triplets by my side" Neera said.

"Darling, are you still mad at my family ?"

"No, I'm not angry or vengeful at all. Maybe they love you too much" Neera explained.

"But why do you still not want to tell them about our son ?"

"I'm sorry Joub, I think you know that your family doesn't really want me. What if later they separate me from the triplets, really I can not afford to be separated with them, triplet is my life I can even do anything for them. Even worse if your family later denied their presence, I don't want them to get hurt so I can replace their wounds. I'm sorry, I can't risk it" Neera explained.

"All right, I understand. But can I hope someday you will allow me to bring them together ?" ask Ayyub carefully.

"Maybe, but not now. When things are better. They are too small to accept the reality of life" Neera said.

"What about us, are you really willing to accept me back ?" ask lirih Ayyub.

"You're still the father of my children" Neera said.

"Dear not, not as a father but as a husband and the only person you're leaning on, the man with the passion in your heart" Ayyub gently carried Neera's hands in his arms.

Neera was only bowed in response to the question that came out of Ayyub's mouth, not that he would not accept. Neera is just not sure that their relationship will work out without her blessing and she is also unwilling to give her three children false hope.

It would be easier if now they lost their father figure compared to after they were too long together but suddenly had to part for sure sad it would be doubled.

"Darling, can you accept me back in your life ?" ayyub asked, still holding Neera's hand.

"Joub.., I want to but..."

"Would we continue in such a situation. I may be alone but what about the kids" Neera said.

"Hey baby, listen to me first. I am still very and will continue to love you. Believe me baby, you're the only woman who will be my wife forever" Ayyub stared deeply at the chocolate bead.

"Ayyub, but whatever your reason does not mean you can be in a relationship with other women. Even though I love you but I can't accept this one, I better back off now because I'm afraid my children will be the victims" Neera explained.

"Darling, I'll finish it. You know I don't love him at all" Ayyub replied.

"But when ? Until he finds out that you have a child with me, until he instigates your family to hurt my son or until he wants us all to disappear again ?" exciting Neera.

"I understand, baby..."

"Yes, I know you understand. But you should also know that Vina is a reckless person. Even he was able to do anything for the sake of his obsession with you, you yourself said that he set you up and he also slandered me so that I had to leave at that time" Neera said.

"Please Ayyub.., I beg you. Let me be the one who is hurt, not my children. They are my life, my heart will be broken just seeing a scratch on their body. Let alone something more painful, I can't afford to" wring Neera.

"Darling, they're my kids too"

"No, no, no. If indeed you cannot guarantee for their safety or your presence here will pose a risk of them finding us, I beg Joub. I will prostrate at your feet asking that you let us alone. It would be best if you leave now before the triplets get too far to feel their father's presence. I promise to make sure they grow well without any shortage of one thing" said Neera, who had slumped down and prostrated herself at Ayyub's feet.

"Darling, do you hate me so much that you even do this to get me out of your life. Remember Neera you are still my wife and they are my flesh and blood. I deserve them" Ayyub pressed with tears.

"Ayyub, I'm sorry. I was wrong as a wife. Forgive me, but don't let this happen. Truly I can endure all the torments provided that they do not injure the triplets. I ask you, help me" Neera said still wailing and hugging Ayyub's feet.

Verily Ayyub could not bear to see his beloved sitting down, begging for mercy. Women who look strong and tough even though they are helpless when faced with this situation, let alone concerning children.

Ayyub realized he would never be able to rival Neera's love for triplets. But he had promised to devote everything he had to his little family. Ayyub loved Neera very much, but that does not mean his love is not great for triplets because it is two different types of love.

For now Ayyub chose to remain silent, but he would never let go of Neera and her three children after a long time apart.

"I'm sorry Neera, I can't. How could I leave my wife and children. I'm sorry, but I chose to be selfish this time" Ayyub broke up.

Neera was sitting limp under Ayyub's feet, she could no longer speak, even breathing heavily.

Slowly Ayyub brought Neera to his feet while holding her upper arms tightly. Ayyub sat Neera on his lap while tightly hugging the woman.

"Please, believe me. Don't go again, don't take them with you, if you keep insisting on taking me with you. I understand you love them so much, and I plus I can't afford to lose you anymore either. I can go crazy baby" said Ayyub while fondling his wife's head is still as hot as possible.