Loving My Young Master

Expressing feelings

Kanaya sat pensively staring straight at the two lovebirds sitting on the garden chair not far from her. A girl who looked the same age as him was covering her face with both hands. Beside him a man in an ash-white uniform looked down with a bouquet of red roses. There was no conversation between them. I don't know when Kanaya arrived and noticed, they were already in a position of silence.

A few minutes later, Kanaya was still astonished to see the girl doing the same thing with her now shaken shoulders. While the man was still holding the flowers, he stood up and called. Sometimes he looks at the girl.

Sayup-sayup sounds crying. Understand the kanaya if the sound comes from it. The man held her shoulder, spoke and left her alone. After his departure, the girl came back crying. Out of curiosity, Kanaya ventured to approach him. With a slight hesitation, he took a seat next to the pink-clad girl.

" Can I be here? " ask kanaya.

Hearing another voice next to her, the girl opened her hands and turned her head. Looks both her beautiful eyes are swollen with a circle of tears that are still spilling over. He replied by nodding.

" May I know what makes you like this? " tanya kanaya lirih. So soft that his voice was carried away by the breeze, silent witnesses of their meeting in the park chair. But that voice was clearly heard by the girl who was still as unwilling. He was silent for a long time and tried to calm down. It turned out that his unstoppable emotions managed to provoke the attention of others. And that is Kanaya.

" If you have a problem I can help, yeah maybe a little or what can I do for you? " tawar kanaya's. The girl turned her head and rubbed the water that was still standing in both her eyes. He was a little touched to hear the offer of kanaya who wanted to help solve the problems he was facing.

" Do you have any friends? Close friend? " sanyanya. Kanaya nodded. Although a little surprised by the question he asked.

" Yes, there is, " replied Kanaya with a gaze to the blue sky. The question reminded him of Bella. Minutes later, Kanaya smiled. Bella the nosy one who likes to tease Hendi. Oh yeah, how's Hendi??

" Have he ever hurt you? Played you? Vilifying you? " ask again. Kanaya increasingly does not understand the direction of the girl's question that is still around with close friends. Kanaya tried to remember, now with her hands tapped on her right temple.

" Ever, " replied Kanaya. Yes, Bella once accidentally pushed him until his lips almost kissed the classroom floor. But because of the swiftness of Hendi who grabbed him, he was restrained by hugging the fat man's waist.

" Then have you ever been in love with someone? " ask again. Kanaya frowned, wanting to immediately shout mentioning Rufi. But it was stopped because it was very secret and sensitive. Kanaya nodded.

" Yes, "the Kanaya replied briefly. The girl returned with tears. Kanaya is surprised and tries to calm the girl beside her so as not to cry again.

" I fell in love with the man who was carrying a bouquet of red roses. But he. Kanaya listened carefully. His words hanging made him even more curious.

" He loves my best friend and they've had half a year of love" she said.

" Hu.hu...hu.." his cries broke.

Kanaya began to understand, hesitatingly daring to wipe the poor girl's back.

" I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. Emm. " said Kanaya confused. He feels very guilty.

" I had very close friends until I called them friends. With him I shared my grievances until the moment I fell in love with the man, "the story goes. She wiped away the tears that were dripping on her beautiful face violently.

" I was fascinated the first time I met him when I had a disaster" he continued. Kanaya listened carefully. He felt the girl's bliss. He remembered the first meeting with Rufi. Unintentionally, he compared himself.

" I got hit until my leg cracked. He helped me to the hospital, accompanied me every day, until now I can walk again, even with a crutches, "he added. Kanaya followed the direction of the girl's index finger. There are tools he told me about.

" I went to school again after I was healed. And how shocked it was to find him also a school with me. He was still being nice until I realized that I loved him so much because of his kindness. But I don't dare to express the feelings I harbor. I just told it to my best friend. And it turns out that they have been in a special relationship for a long time. You know what it's like? Here.." he said. His hand held his chest.

" It hurts, it hurts so much, "he said rahu. Kanaya felt pity, she did not distract him other than the girl. He's starting to get whipped again.

Loving someone in silence, hoping one day the idol will reciprocate his feelings. Absolutely impossible. It is the action that determines the success of a person in achieving goals. Until his best friend who managed to get the man's love. Now the girl's heart has been broken and betrayed by her best friend.

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If you love someone, don't wait for him to realize or know it himself, unless he has a high sensitivity. It is better to express it either by behavior or word. He will notice you and gradually adapt and love you slowly. But if he refuses, you can kill your love quickly without any curiosity in the end. Loving in silence is the same as inserting needles one by one until one day it will hurt if realized. Do you want to keep your pain without certainty?

That afternoon, Kanaya accidentally sat on the terrace. He intended to wait for Rufi's return. There was just busyness that he did to throw the saturation of waiting' . Starting from sweeping, watering, moving flowers from a broken pot until the patio chair is overlaid.

Not long after that, the motor stopped in front of the gate. Mang Didin opened it immediately. Rufi was still wearing a helmet advancing her motorcycle towards the garage with her two long footsteps. His beautiful face shines when Kanaya steals the view. But Rufi was not aware of the existence of the younger brother sitting on the porch with his eyes constantly on him. Maybe because of the effects of fatigue after almost a day on campus.

Rufi arrived at the garage, she stopped the corner and went down after making sure the bike was perfectly parked. As it was dark, he felt the location of the light switch near the door that led to the kitchen. Once the lights are on, how surprised. Kanaya stood looking at him seriously in the doorway. The fingers move in a circle forming a random circle in front of the chest.

" You surprised me, " Rufi said. After shuffling the top of his sister's head, he passed Kanaya who bit her lip slightly. The sentence that was about to slide was extremely pressing on him.

" I.i.m..liked..liked.." he said stifled. Nervousness that is still accompanied by a tight heartbeat makes the sentence left in the throat. Rufi stopped her steps without turning around. He was curious about the sentence that came out from his sister. Because he knew the sister was looking for or approaching him there must be something he wanted to convey. Whether it's a small to serious problem though.

" Likes you feet.." she said softly. Plong, his heart was greatly relieved. He was like spewing out a huge rock that stuck tightly inside him.

As a result the sentence made Rufi jerked until her feet were heavy to step. He was silent as hypnotized. Simple words that are now starting to be interpreted many meanings by him. He swallowed a heavy salivary.

" I like you, feet. Or...or...bu...no. Emmm...more precisely..I.....I...love you..." she explained nervously. Kanaya started to break out in cold sweat revealing that. Both of his legs were even preparing to slump due to weakly stepping on the earth. A simple sentence but makes himself feel like he's not. His densely packed body felt like a cotton swab ready to blow in the wind this second, very light.

Rufi was unable to say the word. He is tempted to hear the confession of Kanaya who loves him. The daughter he once hated for stealing the attention of his parents who now bear the title as his sister. This second has another taste for him? The taste felt and believed by Edwin. A clear sense was opposed by the papa. I heard Rianti calling his name. Without a second thought, Rufi rushed over to the woman who had given birth to her into the world without making a sound. Leaving the kanaya still standing looking facing the garage full of vehicles that are now lit bright lights.

Kanaya set her chest tight. Is it because of happiness or sadness? But his heart rate is starting to normal. He had to dare to look at his brother behind him. Facing the risk he will face between acceptance or rejection of the honest confession of his heart. He had to do it so that in case of rejection, he could try to forget Rufi his first love.

When I looked, how disappointed. Rufi is no more. His feet slumped to the floor. Next to his hand held tightly to the door, while others closed their mouths aware of his out-of- wits behavior, expressing love aka shooting his beautiful brother?

Oh what have I done? I declare love? Did Brother Rufi hear that? Or was I talking quietly? Stupid me?

Kanaya smacks her lips and condemns her folly that has expressed love? Something very taboo and inappropriate to do as a woman. But he felt a little relieved. His courage is very high.

Evening to pick up. Rianti drags Kanaya who is busy making housework in the room, so she wants to have dinner together. Until the tall girl was now sitting opposite Rufi who made her nervous half to death. The sweat soaked his temples and both of his eyelids hot with a heavy voice stifled with nervousness. He felt immeasurably embarrassed when he looked at Rufi. The man raised both his eyebrows and made him lose himself even more. Even so embarrassed, his hands shook holding a spoon. The revelation that he thought would make him sane instead made him even more chaotic when he met Rufi.

No kanaya! You can't be nervous. Rufi did not hear your confession of love. You need to calm down.

" Kanaya, aren't you hungry? " ask Rianti saw Kanaya continue to look down at the spoon without intending to use the tool according to its function. Kanaya just kept quiet because Rianti's question was swallowed awkwardly semeja with Rufi.

" Kanaya!! " call Rianti out loud. The girl looked quickly in surprise.

" Yes.yes..nyonya, "the answer is stamped. He stood up and nodded his head reverently with his body slightly bowed like a salute. Edwin smiled faintly at the kanaya acting unconsciously. Rufi realized the change.

Rianti pulled his wrist back and tried to resuscitate his out of control behavior. Kanaya. As he looked at Rufi who was looking down and smiling, he knew that her behavior was funny and strange. Kanaya sat back down. Now he was embarrassed half to death because of the ridiculousness he made.

" Fast eat and go to sleep. You must be exhausted to that point, " said Edwin. Kanaya nodded.

After spending his dinner, Kanaya said goodbye to immediately sleep. Half ran to his room. He did not realize if Rufi was following him. Just as the door was about to close it, Rufi's big hand held it. Both kanaya eyes are rounded.

" What's up, brother? " ask kanaya. Shame to attack him again. Rufi stepped into the pink room of her sister. And sit on the edge of the bed. Kanaya stepped up by dragging her heavy feet. She was very awkward to face Rufi after expressing her honesty of feeling. Suddenly amnesia strikes him. He forgot to continue his homework from school. He was stunned staring at his open book with the same supporting book above him.

Kanaya sits quietly trying to understand what she wants to do with her school book. His fingers touched the book and one held a pencil. Rufi actually made her forget everything in the blink of an eye.

What exactly am I going to do? Oh God give me back my memories. Why are all books open with stationery scattered? God help me......

Knowing that the younger brother was struggling to finish his homework, Rufi laid his body. Sighing roughly and staring at the sky of Kanaya's room. This situation is very hated. Kanaya.

" You're busy doing homework? Okay, finish it first. I'm gonna take a little nap. When you're done, wake me up. Later we ride the motorbike to buy martabak, "take Rufi without being agreed by Kanaya.

Strangely enough the usual solicitation was like a date for Kanaya. His heart was racing again and managed to silence him again?

Kanaya is still confused by all the stuff on her study desk until she decides to ask Bella over her cell phone.

Not long after, a subtle snoring sounded from the elder brother. The man looked exhausted. Realizing Rufi was asleep, Kanaya managed to gain control of herself. Now her homework has been completed even though she forgot. Diberanannya approached the perfect figure lying on his small bed. Kanaya sat on the floor satisfying her netra enjoying her brother's captivity. His chest was closed because both of his arms were burly the older brother who hugged himself. Kanaya's outstretched hand wanted to wipe the face of Innocent Rufi who was luring her was extremely strong. But it was held back when it had approached a few inches nearby. He pulled out the fingers again and dunked into his chest. His courage was defeated by his shame. The forehead is not so wide, the eyes are slightly sunken, the nose is raised with a firm jaw. Perfecters.