Love Under The School Bench

the dark past

" do you want to leave something?" I walked behind the bookshelf looking for a good title and according to the task the teacher gave to our group.I was in charge of finding a reference book. I go to this bookstore a lot, I pick up a book that I think is appropriate and put it on the cashier's desk

" no. hurry home when you get the book you're looking for there's something I want to talk about" sister sounds serious.

" all right. I'll be right back." I closed the phone.The mood of the bookstore was pretty quiet.maybe it wasn't school holidays yet.

krieeeet.heard the door open. suddenly we turned towards the door. azka stood in front of the door and her gaze fell on me.

"oh..your order book hasn't come yet.do you want to find another book first?" the owner of the bookstore sounds familiar it seems azka often come to this bookstore.

" i see first" Azka also went to the bookcase that lined the row.

" this is it?" ask the bookstore owner to throw my page.

" do you have another title like this? I need one more book but I don't have time to look for it I'm hunting." The owner of the store started thinking for a moment.

" oh there's. on the top of shelf no three"

without much question I also headed in the direction directed by the owner of the bookstore was quite high also located. at the very top there is a stacked book like it was a book that was deliberately separated to be moved but the owner had not had time. I started to tiptoe to take the book and arrived .....

brukkkk stacked books fell and almost hit me. I was a little surprised.luckily someone pulled my hand

" thank you.." I'm not done yet thanking Azka looking at me with a strange look.

" dumb" after saying that sentence he immediately left without turning his head.I was still stunned to not believe what I heard.he was very cold. what the girls liked about the cold person seemed to be. I think they were blind.

" are you okay?" the shop owner asked me, looking worried.

" i'm fine" I helped the bookstore owner pick up the book and took the book I took to the cashier.

I hurried home after buying the book.The one on my mind right now is brother.His voice sounded anxious I was afraid something happened to him.

"sister..what's up? did something happen? " i still have trouble managing my breath that gasps for running.

sister Viona let out a long sigh.she sat me in the chair "eat first. after the new meal we talk" I was confused.I was very worried but she instead told me to eat.

" no brother I'm not hungry.let's just talk. "I'm getting impatient.

" it's not really that important." Viona looked at me I was still waiting for him to finish his sentence.

" sister there's a sudden campus activity and has to go away for a week." brother sounded doubtful

" i'm fine anyway sister. I'm used to being alone here anyway. Brother don't have to worry I'll take care of myself."

old sister looked at me." I was still worried. Therefore you should go back to mother's house first for a while. later after brother returns you can go home."

what does that mean. I don't want to go back to that house.the house that makes me feel short of breath.I always feel guilty to my father when I live there.

" i don't want to!" I replied with a sigh. Brother breathed a long sigh.

" didn't you say you have to open your heart.would you keep thinking about the past? do you think I'd be happy to know this attitude of yours?"

I know. but the past is too hard to lose. I don't accept mom's new life.I just feel guilty to dad when calling someone else my dad. when I was at my mom's house I always remembered the memories of when I was there, and it made me angry.

" well sister. I follow your opinion. "I give in. I don't want to always make my sister worry.sister Viona hugged me from behind the chair.

" you must get closer to them. That way you will understand that you are not alone.they are also our family."

" yes I understand" I replied resignedly. Brother is indeed wiser than me. He understands more about life.Since then he does not cry when father is gone. he just stood staring at the body of the father and sat still as if he had lost half his soul.he understood that as the eldest he had to take care of me and the mother. and when the mother decides to move on with her life she respects the mother's decision and accepts it.

I lay my body on the bed looking at my father's pen. This was my father's last birthday present before he died.

I was nine years old.the age at which we would be able to remember every incident.that day was my birthday.he suddenly got an urgent phone call from his office. mom approached my dad and wondered what was going on.

" i have to go to the office. there is a pretty serious problem" said my father worriedly.

" erika forgive me dad yes. dad can't celebrate your birthday." he said feeling guilty.I didn't say what I was just pouting and disappointed.

" erika .kan there is a mother and sister viona we will celebrate it very festively" mother tried to entertain me. I still remain silent while staring at the father with my gaze. dad sighed and started to bend me again.

" dad promised before sundown I'd bring you a special gift how?" I also began to melt with father's persuasion.

"promise yes.." answered me softly. father nodded slowly.and began to leave in a hurry. I looked at the back of the father who began to move away. somehow I felt bad to see the departure of father. it was as if that back would never turn again.

I waited for my father's arrival in front of the house. I was getting impatient . I saw the clock several times. I should have gone home the sun was about to set. mother challenged me several times to bend me to come in and wait for father inside" did not want to." I answered tightly towards mother.

it was getting dark and tears were coming from my cheeks. "dad lied." I said softly. Mom looked down and wiped my tears "dear . Dad didn't mean to lie to you. the work must be very much. "enter comfort. mother arrived just mother's phone rang. mother looked at the phone . "this must be the father of the phone to give news. " my mother raised her voice so we could hear her clearly.

" hello." came the voice of a woman who spoke. Mother looked confused.

" are you the family of the owner of this phone? "

" i am his wife. Who is this.?" ask mom impatiently.

" oh sorry I just wanted to let you know that your husband had an accident and is now on his way to the hospital. "we were shocked at once. mom fell down for a while and immediately ran we followed her from behind.Our feelings are mixed while hoping that dad is okay.

we also arrived at the destination hospital a quarter of an hour later because of the crowded streets.seemed some people approached us tensely our feelings began to feel bad

" were you the one who called ? asked my mother worriedly. "yes" the man's face looked sad to see us. "where is my husband now? " mother began to be impatient.The man did not immediately answer. "sorry mom. your husband died while on the way." we cried broke. we didn't know this morning was the last time we were with Dad.

when we cried a little quietly the man handed us a small box.I also immediately understood that it was my birthday gift.I took it with trembling hands.Mom hugged me tightly. trying to incline me

" the victim held it very tightly.but continued to call an erika" the man's words made my tears break even more. and I started to feel dizzy and my eyes were twinkling with fireflies as soon as my body collapsed in my mother's arms.

" erika." sister's call broke my daydream.it was soon the dark dream ended.

" yes brother?" I asked while trying to wipe away the tears before my sister saw him.

" sister told mom and she said jordy would pick you up tomorrow. "

" yes .. alright." I said slowly and began to take a few items that I will bring tomorrow.

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