Love To Anaya Caroline

CHAPTER 5 Anaya practice of love

"DEAR DIARY

I don't know what I'm feeling right now, but the first time I saw her ,I felt something strange with my heart.His eyes made me feel as if I was drifting in a mystery adventure that made me feel comfortable .

For the first time I am not looking for perfect happiness, because right now it seems like all of that is happening in the absence of a setting process .

My heart was beating so fast when I was around him, I don't know what this feeling is called.

Or is this called first sight love? I don't know if I fell in love with him or even hoped to be the owner of his heart.

Yes maybe it was just a dream, but even if it was just a dream, I was not even willing to wake up from that beautiful dream.

Or too naive if I say it's inappropriate to want it.

Loving her is a joy unto me, even in every prayer I say her name hoping God will grant my prayer .

Thinking about it makes me feel drunk kepayang, flying into the sky around the beautiful rainbow colors until the pent-up feeling more and more day makes my chest feel tight.

If only there were a clinic that could neutralize the heart of a person who is in love ,then I will go to the clinic with the cost of the public line.Because I am sure BPJS will not guarantee treatment for myself who is in love drunk.

If Alan only knew about my love and this feeling that the more stifling this chest, maybe this chest would feel loose, he said,but I don't wish more because sincere love doesn't have to be rewarded.

I💟 Alan

#Anaya caroline😍

This is the nature of Anaya .He always describes all his feelings through the words he said in his diary.Karna sometimes reveals all the uneg-uneg in the diary book is safer than having to tell someone who can someday uncover the secret us .

"Done."

Anaya said with a smile looking at the diary she just wrote.

then he put the diary back into the bag that he always carried wherever he went.Then he went into his blanket and began to close his eyes to sleep in the cradle of his beautiful dreams.

**Anaya leaves for office.

Once in the office he immediately took out the file from his bag and began to work on it one by one carefully.

While in the other room Alan got a call from someone.

"Well, what's wrong Olan, I'm busy, just talk as necessary if there's anything important, otherwise I'll turn off the phone" Alan said .

"Eits wait a minute, relax dong.I just want to tell you that he said at the GO event in Bali later that Keysa will come, he will come home from Newdelhi to attend the event, he said,he said he wanted to surprise you for your success by opening a new branch office" Olan said.

"Ah seriously? you're not lying, are you?"ask Alan back.

"Yes, he sent a message to my phone, he asked what color you like, I keep answering if you like pink aka pink" Olan replied

"What's?crazy fuck !is your sister the girl who loves pink?"alan was upset

"Where do I know what color you like, at that time I again hold the pink roses in the garden of the house, I've just said the color pink to the case ,"Olan.

"Basic stupid!but yes it is , provided that from Keysa I would be happy to accept it." said Alan slightly smiled and then immediately turned off his phone.

He pacing back and forth in his room between restless yet happy.Keysa is Alan's pent-up love since sitting in college. But he did not dare to reveal it.Until finally Keysa left for newdelhi .And he never communicated with Alan again. Alan while thinking of finding a way .

"Well, I know maybe I can practice first, but with whom?"

alan said talking to himself while thinking of looking for the name of the person who will be made as Keysa lies.Let's meet Keysa later he was not groggy anymore.

"Oh, how is this? Keysa is back, this time I will dare to reveal it, but how ?"said Alan.

"Anaya, old Si Anaya, I'll call her to my room."

alan said steadily while pressing the office phone button in front of him .

"Anaya, help my room now ."

alan said and hung up.

a few moments later Anaya knocked on the door.

Tok tok tok tok

"Yes, come in."

Alan immediately stood up to welcome Anaya's arrival and closed the door of his room.

"Anaya, I want to tell you something."

alan said while holding Anaya's shoulder and looking into Anaya's eyes with a sure hope.

"Yes sir, you're talking."

anaya said with nervousness.

"Nay.., right now, I want to express my feelings to someone who cares about me, who can understand my feelings, and love me sincerely for what I am not because of the material that I have,and I I chose you because I'm sure you're the only woman I need right now, maybe our meeting's still around for corn 'bout ,but that sincere love doesn't require a time limit on how long I've known you, enough for me just to feel at ease and feel your sincere love.I love you..."

alan said as he touched Anaya's smooth cheeks, to reassure her that her words were steady.

"Dag dig dug's...

Anaya's heart almost sounded Alan because the distance between them is currently only 1 cm.Because Alan began to approach his face towards Anaya's face until Alan's nose almost touched Anaya's nose. Anaya almost dissolved in the sweetness of the word.she felt as if she was still dreaming.In her pinch her hand as if she made sure that she was not dreaming.

anaya said in her heart.

"How's Nay? "asked Alan

"What how sir?"

said Anaya pretending.

"My acting was like James Reid's romantic past?I'll say the word later at the GO event in Bali to Keysa."

Said Alan smiling sweetly and walking towards the window of his room.

Hearing Alan's words as soon as Anaya's heart was broken to pieces .He had thought the words Alan said to himself.It turns out for keysa.Tasasa he wanted to cry but he still tried hard and tried to smile to cover his pain.

"Well romantic words sir, surely Keysa will be happy and will be the happiest woman later on the show."

Anaya told Alan .

Though in his heart he was deeply hurt by Alan's attitude which made him an experimental material.

"Sir if there are others, I want to return to my room because my work is still piling up sir."

said Anaya trying to dodge, so that he did not get more crowded because of his broken heart at this time.

"Oh please,"

alan said with an innocent face.Then Anaya entered his room with tears. Stevan sees Anaya shedding her tears.

"loh, why are you, kok nangis?"

ask Alan.

"CK..ah ..I'm not crying, here's my eyes glittering."

reply Anaya while wiping her tears.

"Seriously you're okay?, Alan's father isn't mad at you, is he?"

"yes anyway why is Mr. Alan angry with me?, you have nothing."

anaya said while hiding her feelings.

It was a painful day for Anaya .He did not expect that his heart would be hurt that much, but despite the fact that he still keeps his love deep to Alan .

The day has changed .The sunlight that had given a hope has now changed with the night that was greeted by darkness,like Anaya's current mood.But he was only able to express his feelings through a series of words he said in his diary.He began to write a series of words with a pen that danced on his paper and dripped water his eye.

***dear diary

It was as if this body was tired of walking down an erratic direction

Even time doesn't give me a thousand seconds

To try to maintain this pent-up feeling.

Even this leg is reluctant

To step

because the more I pursue your love

you're getting further and further away.

In silence I still miss you and want you

But why do you even make me an experiment to express your feelings.

This chest pain

Until it made me

Loss of control to breathe

Because that wound you said cut my heart as sharp as razor and left a gaping wound.

If only I could run from this reality.

I had hoped

And put a sincere love for you t

But your love is for the other.

God, if he was just a dream to me, I would be willing not to be good from that dream.

because I was scared when I woke up

The morning mentor will welcome me

With the pain of losing you. 😭😭😭

#Anaya Caroline's.