Love Sebas Angan
Know Yourself
This morning I prepared the material that I will teach my students is to know the songs of the region in Indonesia. I walked in the hallway holding a bag containing my laptop and my textbook. Before I got to class I was intercepted by a tall, handsome man in white.
"Hi Bu Andin "Sapa Ibn with friendly.
"Yes, Ibnu" I replied with a sigh.
"You need to know " Ask Ibn.
"Yes "I answered judes.
"OK later go home to school I wait at the gate Yes Bu Andin " said Ibnu.
"Well sir" I replied.
I don't know why now I feel awkward around Ibnu. Though he had nothing wrong with me, whether my little heart was jealous when Jeni took Ibnu yesterday. I need to focus on teaching first.
I got to the front of the class and fixed the emotions of my soul.
"Good morning, Mother" Sapaku
"Good morning ma'am "Answer all my disciples.
"Let's start learning today by praying according to each other's beliefs".
I said while looking at all my students.
Although I am a Muslim myself but my students have different beliefs there are Muslims, Christians and Buddhists but we still respect each other.
"Well all the students of Mother soon we will welcome the Independence Day of the Republic of Indonesia, therefore we must prepare to enliven it" said I .
"What should we prepare Mom" asked one of my students.
"Mental and ability because the school will hold a competition singing Indonesian regional songs that will later represent our school at the regional level" he explained with enthusiasm.
"Well, I'm a groggy mom" said one of my students.
"The important thing is to be confident and dare to try" I said encouragingly.
"Well mother will call according to absent yes, let's be fair, don't fuss when her friend sings let's listen to each other's appearances. My speech.
" Good Mom" I said to all my students.
I called one by one the names of my students from the letters of the alphabet beginning to end. They sang regional songs from Sabang and Merauke. I sat down while listening and judging which one would later be sent for this Class representative race.
My teaching hours today are over but I cannot go home because of this school regulation even though the teaching hours are over all teachers must go home together at 15:00 WIB. Sometimes it was unavoidable overtime that I had to go home in the afternoon really exhausting days when it happened.
I walked out of the classroom and returned to the teacher room enjoying the breeze decorated with the sound of birds joking with their partners, suppose it was me.
"Busy not going to school? Ask Mila.
"Not Mila where are you going" I replied.
"You can invite you to buy me a gift" said Mila.
"What an exclamation it seems but not today tomorrow just how about I have an appointment with someone else" I said disinclined.
"Ehm ok if I see you tomorrow" said Mila with a smile.
Mila bought gifts for whom tumben is rarely willing to sacrifice for others. I check the calendar on my phone first there is usually a birthday reminder of the person closest to me. Oh my God, it's two days away from Oki's birthday why I didn't realize. I packed everything in the closet and prepared to go home.
From a distance, a black car awaits its passengers. My feelings were not good when I walked towards the school gate somehow my soul thrashed when I saw the incident at that time.
"Please enter Ndin" said Ibnu while opening the car door for me.
"No need to call my mother again if it feels awkward outside the school" said Ibnu while turning the steering wheel of his car.
I tried to organize my feelings to look like I didn't know anything about what happened yesterday in front of Ibn.
"Ah just relax "My answer while nyeleneh.
"We ngadem bentar first yuk long ago we did not eat together, calm later we while talking about the problem of work really"
"Okay but don't be long yes, later afraid to go home late " said I.
"Let it be quiet that I will drive you to the door of the house I am ready to be your personal driver" said Ibnu.
We entered a restaurant in a Mall not far from where I was waiting for an angkot on my usual day.
"Sweet spicy squid same tea screwdriver" I said casually.
"Two yes brother" said Ibnu to the waiter of the restaurant.
"Kok you follow the same menu message as well" I said annoyed.
"Learn from equating favorite foods first before equating other things" said Ibn teasing me.
"Lebay you, oh yes how said bu kepsek so no singing competition between classes" said I started the conversation so as not to stiff.
"It seems so the problem was that Bu Kepsek had called the Education Department about the technical implementation of regional singing competitions between schools" replied Ibnu with enthusiasm.
We talked and talked about work while waiting for the ordered menu to come.
"Wah nyampe nih eat first yuk" invite me.
"Okay "Absaid Ibnu while replying to the chat on his phone.
It seems like he was chatting with someone very familiar with him because of the way to type messages very quickly without thinking. Why am I curious about Ibnu's life. Remember Andin you are just a coworker no more than that.
Suddenly a woman wearing a pink mini dress with a black bag on her shoulder approached my desk.
"May come to eat do not sit here with you" said Jeni.
Almost the food in my mouth spilled onto the plate when I saw this long haired woman sitting next to Ibn. It turned out that this woman had contacted Ibnu through chat. I swallowed the food I almost vomited while drinking the tea screwdriver I ordered earlier. The happy atmosphere was stiff because of the presence of Jeni, it looks like Ibnu is uncomfortable with this situation.
"May you please Jen" I answered by pretending to smile.
"You two know each other" said Ibn almighty.
"We met yesterday during an event at the Mall" Jeni interrupted the conversation.
"Yes we just met yesterday "My answer was awkward.
"Good dong you guys copy know so do not need to know again" said Ibnu while laughing grimly.
" I went to the toilet" I said.
I walked to the toilet thinking of a way to disappear from this unwanted situation. I entered the women's toilet and fixed my makeup while thinking. My brain gave me instructions to contact Oki. I tried to chat Oki who knows a clock like this shif her. I waited for an answer accompanied by a feeling of uneasiness, did I call ya. My phone rang and I picked up the phone without looking at the phone screen.
"Hello, Assalamu'alaikum"
" Walaikumsalam, what chat I tumben kangen yes" replied Oki.
"No longer just need help, you're where" I said.
"OK good if you don't want to tell me, ask for help what princess" said Oki seduced me.
"Can you please pick me up to the Mall near the school no, already in the afternoon because fear later there will be no angkot this time aja" said me memelas.
"It just so happens that I have business near here, I wait across the road, it's hard to cross the traffic jam long ago" said Oki while half-screaming because of the noise of afternoon traffic hours the breadwinners came home to his house.
I came out of the toilet in a hurry and didn't want Oki to wait outside for a long time and let us go home to the shirt we had eaten.
"I went home first Ibnu, happened to have met you near the house" I said in a hurry.
"Kok really fast food I just arrived loh" said Jeni.
"Fear of the night until Jen's house" I said flatly.
"Nnnn.... Andean.... " Abn cried out to me as if he would not let me go home.
I walked at a fast pace and passed without listening to his call. Tears fell on my cheeks remembering the incident I just experienced. I arrived in front of the Mall seen Oki waving her hand hinting at her whereabouts on me. I looked left and right so I could cross safely.
Without further ado I rode Oki's big bike.
I was silent on the motorbike accompanied by the hustle and bustle of city traffic hearing tears that soaked the cheeks pouring endlessly. Oki who saw in the rearview of the motorbike was silent without saying a single word seemed to know what I was feeling right now. I got in front of the house and got off the bike.
" Thank you Oki, you have let me know today" I said lethargicly.
"It's okay to keep the spirit yes ndin if it's calm later the story yes" said Oki cheering me.
I walked up the stairs lethargic as if the heat of a year was lost to the rain of a day. I entered the house and said a greeting walking towards the refrigerator fetching drinking water while looking at the cell phone. Seen a message from the aunt that tonight is not coming home because there is a meeting outside the city. I was still sitting in the dining room chair holding a bottle of mineral water, my mind was in a state of chaos filled with anxious hearts as to why this should be happening to me. I'm just a simple woman who expects happiness to lean on the shoulder of a man who can accept me sincerely. Maybe because I was the plain judge the goodness of Ibn during excessive after a long time did not feel accompanied and understood.
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