Love Me Mas

PART 12'S

Mas Hasan packed my things, rushed home, Alhamdulillah qaddarullah today has been allowed to go home, despite coming home with scratches, screams of the night, blood flowing profusely, my stomach trampled, even though I came home with wounds, everything still sticks in my mind. I still hold the sorrow of nestapa, but it is okay Alhamdulillah Ibuk teach me to be grateful in any circumstances.

***

"Assalamualaikum" my voice shocked everyone, Budhe, Alin, my 2 nieces, their relatives smilingly welcomed me, I knew they were just pretending to be happy in front of me.

"Waalaikumsalam nduk" budhe immediately hugged me .

"No miscarriage is common, the proof was that budhe miscarried but Alhamdulillah, see now that her child is already a cage hahahaha"

"That's Mai, my friend is also that you are still young and beautiful, don't be sad" continued alin .

I just smiled, tried to be patient I was sure that later God would give me a fortune of education. But what about Mas Hasan?? his face was so gloomy, his eyes were like burden, his tears were about to fall, did he not love me anymore? because I'm neglectful to look after my baby? who would want to be offered this grief? who could lose what we lose? Oh Allah ..

***

"Dikk, what do you want to eat?" while tucking my forehead.

"Mboten Mas, still nauseous look at food"

I answered while bowing.

"I'm sorry Mai Mas..." I held back sobs.

"Mai know mas Hasan disappointed because our baby miscarried, Mai know Mas Hasan will not love Mai again like before, even Mai allow if Mas Hasan wants to marry again, Mai Ikhh...." I haven't finished talking Mas Hasan hugged me. He didn't say a word, only tears came out dripping on my shoulders this is the first time I've seen my husband as sad as this.

"Sikk I will not wish you anything that happens, this incident does not reduce the slightest love of Mas to you dikk,"

Here I began to realize, living in a household life is not only about being happy, but also being patient if it is overwritten with grief, maybe bitter at first, indeed, but look at bitter melon juice if you drink a glass that is bitter taste, but if mixed with water one pond, does it still taste bitter???? didn't you???

Such is life if our hearts are airy to be as bitter as any life will hardly be felt. I realized 25 years of my age that God has given me a tremendous favor that I do not deserve to complain about this disaster. Everyone tried to cover up finally revealed also I am not a perfect woman anymore, I can not have offspring but this is the destiny of God . I will make Mas hasan happy in my way, even though I have to sacrifice my happiness, even if I am combined.

I'm still flipping back looking for a book. What about the baby tube? can I take it this way? halal though? I went back to reading sentence by sentence.

The law of processing baby tubes in the interpretation as follows :

If the semen that is in the tube and that is inserted into the woman's womb is not a husband and wife's semen, then the law is haram.

If the semen in the tube is semen husband and wife, but how to remove it is not muhtarom , then the law is also illegal.

If the semen in the tube is semen of the husband and wife and how to remove it including muhtarom, and inserted into the womb of his own wife, then the law may be.

NB :

a. Mani muhtarom is a mani that comes out /removed in a way not prohibited by the shara', while mani non-muhtarom is other than the above.

Reference :

Hadith :

عن ابن عباس رضي الله عنه قال قال رسو ل الله صلى الله عليه وسلم ما من ذنب بعد الشرك اعظم من نطفة وضعها رجل في رحم لا يحل له.

Hikmah al tasyri' wa falsafatuhu juz 2 hl 25.

من كان يؤمن بالله واليوم الاخر فلا يسقين ماءه زرع اخيه.

Kanza al roghibin syarh minhaj al tholibin juz 4 hl 32.

ولو اتت بولد علم انه لبس منه مع امكان كونه منه لزمه نفيه لان ترك النفي يتضمن استلحاقه واستلحاق من ليس منه حرام.

Ibaroh supplement.

الحاصل ان المراد بالمني المحترم حال خروجه فقط على ما اعتقده م ر وان كان غير محترم حال الدخول وتجب العدة به اذا طلقت الزوجة قبل الوطء علي المعتمد خلافا لابن حجر لانه يعتبر ان يكون محترما في الحالين كما قرره شيخنا.

تحفة الحبيب شرح الخطيب 4 ص 37.

فائدة : لو استمنى الرجل منيه بيد امراته او امته جاز لانها محل استمتاعها.

كفاية الاخيار ج 1 ص 478.

It's too complicated, the only way is for me to get honey for my husband. But who?? Is Mas hasan ready too?? Did Sri? it feels impossible. Or Xan Xan? will he if he converts? did he not always tell if he was comfortable when near the Mosque He was also calm when he heard the chanting of the Holy Verses of the Qur'an.

***

I was still lying limp in Mas Hasan's lap, thinking about how I would tell him to remarry, so that we would have offspring.

"Bag.."

"Dalem dik"

"If Mai is taken by God first Mas Hasan will not marry again.."?

"I'm talking about what the hell is.it's booby here" while pinching my nose.

"Mas ... Can't Mai ask for something?"

"Effort to be asked, everything is yours"

"Emm thank you, then can I love what is mine to others..?"

"Dikkkk"

Mas Hasan hugged me tighter, I could barely hold back my tears. I love Mas hasan so much but how? I know exactly Mas hasan wants offspring, I'm not perfect not able to make him happy. I need Mas hasan's successor who will continue his fight.

But if I choose Xan Xan to be my honey, can I? Xan Xan the person I defend desperately, until I experience this deep sorrow will he occupy my position? Leaning on the same shoulder, being in the same embrace. What if it happens and I'm the one who gets dumped? I'm the one who's going to be wasted because I'm no longer a perfect woman. But fully dhohir and inner I want to make Mas Hasan happy. Oh my God, how should I. My heart is heartwarming, the painstaking scratches almost stick in my heart.