LOVE IS A CHOICE

Part 4's

January 05, 2020, at 07:00 pm

I've been thinking about this for six days, is this really the best way for me? And I don't know why there's still doubt tucked into the corner of my heart.

“But hmm. (sighs) there is no other choice, rice has become porridge” with a disappointed tone. I knew it was too late and I was where I was going to open a new page with him. Now I just need to be sincere.

“ ha what is the deck of zahra, rice has become porridge means?” ask a fairy who is decorating me

“ oh.aa.anu it. I just misspoke kak” replied me stuttering and stammering

“ yes already do not daydream yes, you should be happy this is your wedding day” said the fairy with twinkle eyes followed by a happy smile to see me

In my heart I murmured “ I do not understand this is my marriage or your marriage O fairies, so happy are you. But he knows nothing and he is also innocent in this thing”

I was also given various wedding trinkets that I myself do not know what this all means. Lapse for some time and I also have finished the groom-to-be or someone I do not know has come and will soon be my legal husband. I see everyone busy here and there preparing everything for the smoothness of this marriage, but another case with me who is busy arranging my heart. How depressing.

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In front of the ruler, the man named Abil began to say a sacred sentence in every marriage

“ I received the marriage of Princess Zahra bint Irwandi with gold weighing 50 grams and a set of prayer tools paid in cash” with abil said that

The heart began to tremble, the mind raging now I have become the wife of others and worse again the wife of the brother of the person I love. Although it never crossed my mind that the life I was living like this, but this is my marriage, a marriage that has been in sight. There is no happiness that envelops me only sorrow that continues to be said in this heart. Then he and I looked at each other and immediately threw away our eyes, he took my hand and began to put my ring finger in a gold ring with a little blue jewel on it and vice versa with me. After various wedding rituals have been undertaken with abil, kak, and the guests had gone home we both entered the room and of course were joined to each other and turned their backs as if I or he were a stranger who should not have started a conversation. And that night it seemed true that we had officially become a couple but our hearts were not tied to each other, even with her greeting I began to hesitate to do so.

“ ra “ call someone who is behind me and it is Abil's brother whose face even sounds similar to a knight. I was shocked and amazed by that nickname. He called me Ra. Isn't that the nickname dear to me and I always call him with ri. How could he know and even other people even my own mother always called me zahra but why she was different, and why she should be so oh really reminds me of the returning knight.

“ iyya” I replied while scrunching my forehead

“ you can sleep in bed, I will sleep in disofa” said kak abil while taking one pillow and storing it in a sofa. I could only nod because this was the choice I had at least, he still wanted to accept me for who I was.

I began to lie down on the bed as well as Abil's brother lying on the couch. After a few minutes I saw abil was asleep maybe he was tired following all kinds of complicated wedding processions. I look at his face that is similar to a knight, but his attitude is so inversely proportional, if the knight is humorous, funny, romantic and also a bit jaily while abil kak is more assertive, stiff and indifferent. After being satisfied to see the face of Abil that reminded me of the knight, my eyes began to weigh and slowly closed which meant I was already sleepy.

Adhan dawn has reverberated, I wake up and immediately take abudhu, finished from wc I glanced towards the sofa but abil kak is not there. But I must immediately go to the mosque which happens to be close to my house, and my mother has also called me

“ zahra let's go to the mosque son?” tannya

“ iyya bu “ suhutku

Arriving at the mosque we also immediately perform congregational dawn prayer, after our prayers also came out of the mosque, and I did not expect to see kak abil out of the mosque as well