LOVE FOR ALEXA

Chapters 1. Weddings

Alexa POV

marriage is a sacred bond that should only be done once in a lifetime, for it is as severe as the trials I face in this marriage I keep trying to survive, there were two children among us if asked if I was happy, the answer was that I was unhappy because from the beginning I knew that I was just a substitute bride who replaced my twin brother to marry my husband's Arga mas. But unfortunately, on their wedding day Alina left the Arga mas before their marriage contract began so I had to replace Alina to marry the Arga mas to keep our family's good name. But just the day after our wedding we heard the news that Alina had a single accident where the car driven by Aline actually fell into the abyss and until now Alina's body has not been found because the car went into the river below the ravine where Alina's car fell. Since then there has been no happy word in my life, mas Arga at all times always said that I was only a surrogate wife and would never get her love. I may be too stupid to stick with this marriage, I'm too stupid to love a man who never loved me.

until after 5 years of marriage, Alina suddenly entered into the life of Arga mas, she even returned with a pair of twins with her and said that it was the son of Arga mas. My heart was broken when I heard that but I could not do anything. I realized that until now in my heart Arga still enthroned the name Alina. Especially now that Alina is bringing back Arga's son and what makes me even more sick is when Arga mas said he would marry Alina after the DNA tests of both of Alina's children came out. at first I was confused how Alina could come back with a state of fine whereas at that time I saw Alina's car was badly damaged, but Alina said she managed to survive because there were people who managed to save her after being dragged by the river. at that time his condition was quite alarming because his entire body was covered in wounds but lucky he managed to survive even though he had amnesia for the last 5 years and his memory only recovered a month ago which is why he was new back after 5 years of disappearing.

1 Week after the DNA test came out and proved that the two children were Arga's children, I felt like god was again testing me with trials that made me sometimes want to give up. But I have always survived at least for my twin sons, Revano Alenzio Putra and Devano Adelio Putra, the two sons for which I have survived.

The day after the DNA test came out, I had to bear witness to my husband's second marriage with my twin sister Alina. Me and Alina are twins but you are not identical twins, and what disappointed me the most was that my whole family even supported this marriage, starting from in-laws, brother-in-law to both my parents and my two brothers. My mother even said plainly that I should have let Arga and Alina get married because they are a couple who love each other but unfortunately had to separate because of an accident 5 years ago and now they are it should have been back together especially with the presence of their two twins.

My father said that I should not be a selfish wife because it hinders my husband's happiness, but which wife would his husband willingly share. Not only me but all women will not be willing to share their love with other women.

I could only bear all my pain at the moment, I continued to tightly hug my two sons and told them that everything would be fine.well, I was sure, what else can I do besides comfort my two sons at this time. I can see the disappointment in the eyes of my two sons.

"Everything will be fine, papa will still love Revan and Vano even though now you also have another child from where Alina is." I said with a sad look in my eyes looking at the faces of my two sons.

"Tante is not my mom, my mom is just my mom." Devano replied while wiping away my tears. It hurts my heart to see this scarred look from my son. since childhood he had always expected love from his father but unfortunately his father never considered them to exist in this world and now their father has another child with another woman. I could see the hurtful gazes of my son every time they looked at their father accompanying the other child playing. I know they get jealous whenever they see their father rubbing their brother's head while they never get that kind of treatment from their father. But I can do nothing but be quiet.

"No, baby, now Alina's mommy's wife papa means now she's both your mama." I can see their eyes glazed over at me. I know that they don't even know that they can accept all of this. But I can what?

"ma emang papa Ever love ya same vano and bang Revan? if dear why all this time papa always hit the vano and bang Revan? papa is also always the law of vano and bang Revan in the warehouse and is not in love sometimes vano fear because in the warehouse there are many cockroaches, vano is also afraid there are demons' because the warehouse is very dark. papa is also always angry in vano and bang Revan, vano sama bang Revan also often really see papa anurain mama even to hit mama too. Ma does papa emang love the same vano, bang Revan is also the same mama? why the head of the vano is never smeared with papa kayak Anaya and Kak Arkan. why mama's forehead is never frowned upon as papa while Aunt Alina is always frowned upon as papa even though it is Aunt Alina is not his wife papa ma." Devano replied with tears that had wetted his cheeks, while my eldest son Revano just silently looked at his sister with a sad look. My heart felt like it was slashed with a sharp knife hearing the curses of my second son.

Now I feel like an evil mother to my two sons because I am unable to bring happiness to both of them. Should I give up this time and leave everything behind. But I have not been able to leave the Arga mas, I still love the Arga mas. I hope the Arga mas can change and learn to love me as much as he loves Alina. I wish he could love my two sons just as much as he loves Alina's two children.

"Ma do you want to live threesome with brother Revan and Vano? Abang promise ma will always take care of mom and sister as well.we live all three yes ma. Brother and sister is okay do not have papa ma. You are not strong if you have to be hit by papa. It hurts a lot, ma." Revano said with teary eyes looking at me.

"vano is also tired if you have to be hit continuously papa. vano is not strong ma, especially if you have to be locked in the warehouse again vano afraid ma." continued Devano.

I could only silently look at my two sons, I could not decide everything else I did not have the money to start a new life with my two sons.

"God what should I do now?" My mind screamed at the wounded look of my two hearts, and suddenly I heard the word SAH from those who also witnessed the marriage of my husband and brother today. My tears were spilling at their happiness, my heart was screaming in pain.

"God strengthen me in the face of all these trials." I prayed in my heart as I continued to look at the scene full of laughter.

Just today, I realized that no matter how much effort I made for the Arga mas it meant nothing. no matter how much love I have for my husband I will never get back for that love because forever love is only for Alina.

I should have never agreed to replace Alina married mas Arga. I should have run away when both my parents forced me to marry mas Arga. But I was too stupid and weak.