Love Does Not Until

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Morning time..

"Huhh, it feels like today I'm really lazy to move," I said complaining.

This is what it feels like love clapping one hand, after all these years I have harbored feelings and finally just the pain I feel. Maybe if it was just pain I could still treat it, but now it is not just pain but disappointment. I was very disappointed after knowing the truth, I originally thought my love was reciprocated but on the contrary, I had misjudged her kindness and concern for me all along. How can I accept this reality 😭 my first love claps one hand. !!!!!!!! My heart screamed in pain, it felt like it wanted to run, run as far away as possible.

"That's Nia, move on! There's still a lot of other guys in the world,"

Still blankly staring at the room, my heart and mind couldn't stop thinking about everything. I couldn't accept the truth when I really loved him.

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" Sister," someone called from outside the room.

Like it was Sarah's voice, why was she looking for me so early?

"Yes, just get in the door lock,"

"sister why haven't you taken a shower yet, it's noon also not in college today?" ask sarah.

"No holiday today no college, so do you want to go?! Be careful" I said, answering.

"Ihh, what the hell, brother. Brother was already in search of the same mother, asked for breakfast. If yes, the shower holiday is very dirty indeed this hour is still lying down. Smell of tau," said sarah in an irritated tone.

"Yes my beautiful adek, said the same mother later this breakfast sister wants to take a shower first,"

Then Sarah walked out of my room and closed the door again and I immediately went to take a shower and breakfast.

"So, aren't you in college today?" Ask my mother.

"No ma'am, there's no class today. So today's not going to college, I want to be at home all you want to do the job,"

"Loh, I thought you went to college today so in front of Andri's son from earlier waiting for you," said the mother again.

"Huh (glow)... Andri here ma'am,"

I was a little surprised to hear that Andri was here, oh yeah I forgot to say last night that I didn't have class today so I didn't go to college.

"Emm, ma'am, I'm going ahead and I want to meet Andri first kasian she will be late, yesterday Nia forgot to say that today nia no class,"

I rushed the way forward to meet Andri, and Deg. Deg. Deg. Suddenly I felt the pain and disappointment reappear. Ah, how is this? What am I supposed to tell him? How explain? My tongue seems to be hard to say, when I see him sitting while playing his gadget, ahh calm down..

"Hmm, Andri?! Sorry for today," I haven't been able to continue my talk,

"Loh, Nia why you haven't changed clothes, quickly change later until late," Andri said to me.

"Sorry I didn't go to college today,"

"Lo's sick? Geez, why didn't you tell me last night" Andri said.

"How come I'm in good health, just no class today, sorry I forgot to talk to you last night,"

"Oh, I think you're sick so you don't go to college. About last night I hope you don't get mad, yeah,"

Andri.

"Yes, relax. Yes, you're leaving late, you know,"

"OK, see you" replied Andri briefly.

I try to be strong for my heart and feelings.

I have to accept the reality, this feeling has to be buried deep.

But can I eliminate this taste 😔

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