Love Because ...

La Tahzan

"My permission yes, mo go first huh?” rara said they were talking in Tia's office.

“Where are you? same hello?”

“Apartment amak.”

“You what?” tia asked sewot, annoyed Rara was still dealing with the Bagas family.

“There should I finish.”

“Gue tagged.” Rara nodded in agreement Tia went with her.

Actually Rara does not want Tia to come, but surely Tia will force and make it difficult for Rara to leave.

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Rara presses the elevator button to Bagas' amakya apartment. There was Ranti who was on standby waiting in front of the door.

“Ngapain the child?” tia asked annoyed.

“Gue has made an agreement with him, we want to talk to each other, Ranti wants to change her attitude to be a good wife for Bagas. He needs my help to persuade amak.”

“Kok loe want anyway?”

“Color I want Bagas happy.”

Rara's words made Tia speechless. How can you help people who have hurt them? Tia is grateful to have a good sodara, even if it is not a sodara. 

“Ra may you get better love from Bagas.” said Tia encouraged her, Rara smiled and agreed to do'a Tia in heart.

Tia rang the bell of the apartment shortly Amak opened the door.

“Rara?” sapa bu Hasiah immediately held Rara's hand and quickly hugged her." Amak kangen same you son.”

Seeing the closeness of Hasiah and Rara, making Ranti envious. There was a trace of regret in her heart, why could her mother-in-law be this close to another woman.

Masu Hasiah is shocked to see Ranti coming with Rara. He looked at Ranti like a frightened person.

“Amak we can enter?” sahut Rara softly.

“Mari-mari please.” haggard Hasiah confusion on Ranti and Rara looks ordinary, why Ranti's attitude on Rara is not as rude as she thinks. Masu Hasiah sitting next to Rara did not let go of Rara's hand holding her tightly because she was afraid of Ranti.

“Amak, Rara is here to take Ranti amak. He wanted to apologize to Amak and Mila for all this time he did to amak, Mila and Bagas. He wants to save his household amak.” explained Rara.

“But Rara, Bagas love is with you?”

“Amak what Bagas felt wrong amak, the person he should love was his wife, Ranti.”

“Rara but Ranti ..” suddenly Ranti squabbled sitting below holding the arm of Hasiah bu.

“Mak, Ranti apologized mak, Ranti admitted wrong mak, Ranti did not want to part with Bagas, please mak forgive Ranti's attitude all this time.” cut Ranti sobbed begging.

“Not all this time you want to divorce Bagas Ranti? you always insult us not as level as you.” said bu Hasiah crying, feeling hurt for what Ranti has done to her family.

“Iya amak, Ranti acknowledges all Ranti amak's mistakes, it used to be amak, now Ranti realizes Ranti is in love with Bagas amak. Ranti doesn't want to lose her. Please tell Bagas not to divorce Ranti amak.” Ranti cried and begged Amak to make Bu Hasiah's heart full of pity on her daughter-in-law.

“Amak?” sahut Rara's. “Amak a mother, definitely do not want to see her child's household destroyed, amak should give a chance to Ranti. Ranti promises will change amak, if amak do not believe, amak can tell Mila to stay in Bagas, let Mila be a witness to the change of Ranti.” persuaded Rara to amak.

“That can't be Rara, let alone stay together to see it Mila didn't want.” said bu Hasiah.

“Let's let Rara talk to Mila, as long as Amak wants to give a chance to Ranti and persuade Bagas not to divorce Ranti.”

Ms. Hasiah nodded in agreement, Rara's words were right, as a mother she did not want to see her child's household destroyed.

“Makasih amak.” said Ranti directly hugged Hasiah bu, with open Hasiah bu hugged Ranti back.

Ms. Hasoah was pleased, all this time her Lord answered her prayers, so that her daughter-in-law's heart would be open to receive Bagas. She was happy she led Ranti's hand to sit beside her, Hasiah's mother wiped Ranti's tears. Ranti hugged him back thanking him because Hasiah was glad to accept it.

“Amak then Rara came home?”

Ms. Hasiah nodded, she hugged Rara.

“May Allah Subhanallohuataa’la give the best soul mate for Rara.” do'a amak accompany it.

“Aaamiiin, thanks amak, come Ti?” Rara and Tia stood up they went towards the exit.

“Wait!” ranti's voice stopped Rara and Tia's steps.

“Hopefully this is useful for you, once again thank you.” said Ranti smiling.

“This..?”

“This is not money or check, this is an object, and God willing is useful for you.”ujar Ranti, Rara smiled accepting it. 

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The apartment inhabited by the Bagas family is luxurious, there are four elevator doors facing about six meters away. Tia pressed the elevator button on the right, they got into the elevator. When Tia pressed the ground button towards the parking lot to go home, the elevator door in front of her opened, there was Mila and Bagas.

“RARA!” shouts Bagas calling Rara, he immediately ran out. Tia frantically pressed the elevator button, hoping that the elevator door would quickly close.

“RARA WAIT!” yell Bagas again.

Rara could only look at Bagas running towards her with teary eyes. Then Rara ignored Bagas turning his face on Tia closed his eyes and the elevator door closed perfectly.

Bagas did not have time to hold the elevator door, he hit the elevator door pressing the elevator button hoping the elevator could open. The elevator is moving down. Bagas did not give up, he saw Mila still in the elevator and hold the elevator, Bagas immediately entered the elevator with Mila to the ground.

In the elevator, Rara wiped her tears.

“Loe is not papa?” ask Tia. Rara shook her head gesturing she was fine.

“Pas elevator door is open, we have to move quickly, definitely Bagas nyulus kami.” Rara nodded in agreement with Tia's instructions.

This edition of the chase makes Tia and Rara pound, quickly they get out of the elevator and run violently to the parking lot in the car.

‘Bismillah.’ said Tia turn on and stater her car.

“RARA STOP RARA!” shouts Bagas running towards Tia's car. Tia quickly planted the gas and sped out of the building. Bagas tried to run after him.

Rara sees Bagas running after his car and calls his name. He cried seeing it all, his heart felt pity. He was eager to stop his car and return to Bagas, but it was just wishful thinking. Rara held back her lust, and wept for Bagas who knelt down to give up chasing Tia's car from her rearview mirror.

It's not easy, it's not easy to leave someone we love. If possible, we write our destiny with our loved ones and end up happy ending. Deep wounds are a risk we must accept when choosing to leave them. But Allah is All-Seeing, All-Knowing, He is the best maker of the beautiful stories of His servants. The pain of losing a love for God is far better than keeping it. For God will replace better love, Love for His sake. Love for God.

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Adzan magrib reverberate, Rara and Tia pray together diimami bu Sriyantika. After the prayer, the three of them taught. Rara and Tia alternately read Surah Al Maidah verse per verse with their respective musyaf guided by Sriyantika as the teacher justifies their tajwid. Fifteen minutes before Isa, Ms. Sriyantika finished her studies. He slowly backed down and placed his mushaf on his brown table, then smiled at his two daughters, Tia and Pearl.

“Rara?” the soft voice of Sriyantika called out to her.

“Iya aunt?”

“Your parents must be proud of you dear, what you did last afternoon with Ranti is noble son.”

Rara smiled faintly at the praise of Sriyantika.

“Nduk love is one of the beautiful gifts of God, Islam views the love of fellow humans is a fitrah and reasonable.” he explained.

Ms. Sriyantika confirmed a little of her meeting and prepared to deliver her shia back.

“And Islam prohibits the abuse of love for things that are forbidden in religion. The desire to have what you feel in Bagas is love that is enveloped in lust, which can be bad. Auntie is glad you can hold back what you feel on Bagas." she said smiling proudly, silent for a moment.

"True love according to Islam is love that arises to achieve the pleasure of Allah, who wants to make it as a way for worship, therefore one should love Allah Subhanallohuwataa’la above all other love, because love is what will be able to fortify you from all acts prohibited by religion.”

Rara cried listening to her tantric shiar, Tia beside her stroked her shoulders. Bu Sriyantika approached him, holding his chin.

“La Tahzan, Innallaha Ma'ana” says bu Sriyantika lirih.

"Don't grieve Rara, God is with us always.”

Rara hugged Sriyantika. His shiar touched his heart, like giving Rara a weapon. The weapon to get rid of the boulder that had been pressing on his chest made him tight and sick. Now the large stone pressing down on his chest slowly disappeared, making him start to feel light. He was sincere about everything that happened in his life.

Adan Isya reverberated, Rara wiped her tears, they prepared to pray Isa congregation. After the prayer Rara solemnly recited the asthma of Allah, and he raised his hand parallel to his face, praying to his Lord.

"Allahuma ajurni fi mushibati wa alhlifli khaira minha, O Allah, reward me in my misfortune and give him a better substitute than him aaamiiin" said Rara praying lirih expectantly.

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Rara enters Tia's room, about to put her face down, seeing Ranti's brown envelope. He ripped off the top, inside was a 2R photo. Seen there is a photo of him, Bagas and his college friends lined up wearing campus alma mater. Behind the photo says 

Tania, Febby, Isti, Bagas, Andri, best friend forever.

STKIP SILIWANGI BANDUNG 2012.