Love And Medicine's
Guilt
- TOK TIK TOK
Time has shown at half-ten in the evening. There was only a clockwork sound in the hospital, which broke the silence of the night. In the ICU room, Gale was seen from earlier pacing in front of the door, occasionally He checked the clock in his hand, sometimes he rubbed his face, from there looks fear, from there, worry and worry are within him. The look is a little chaotic tonight, unlike He is usually neat, and fragrant. Now, her messy hair, the shirt that came out carelessly, with her hands rolled up, made her look pretty messed up.
It has been two nights waiting for Ajeng in the ICU room, since arriving in Yogyakarta two days ago. He faithfully waited there until he forgot to eat, bathe, and so on.
He was so worried about Ajeng's condition, it crossed his mind this would not happen if he more often heard the complaints of Ajeng on the phone. If He had picked up the phone that night, if He had taken more time to comfort Ajeng who was frustrated at the loss of his fiancee, surely Ajeng would not have acted very far as it is today.
Ajeng who lately is very fragile feeling, unable to withstand his own sadness. He had no friends to complain about, to tell him about his sadness because of heartbreak after being dumped by his fiancee who was very insolent.
On the other hand, deep inside Ajeng, He still loves Gale very much, He wants to return to Gale's embrace, because that's the only place where his heart is, where his heart feels safe and secure, where he feels comfortable, forced to refrain from frequent contact with Gale, because as far as Ajeng knows, since their last meeting in Belmondo, Gale already has Naava, his future life companion.
Many times lately Ajeng who tried to call Gale, just want to vent his loneliness and self, he hopes Gale will foster the spirit, confidence, and can restore his joy back. However, Ajeng did not get a good response from Gale himself, unlike what he expected. His phone is rarely picked up, even often he has trouble contacting him because Gale's phone is dead.
Really this time he was in a very difficult position, even his own mother could not be used as a place to lean. Her mother who continues to force Ajeng to repair the relationship by forgiving the brash man who has impregnated the boy. Ajeng hated Robi so much, so disappointed with his own Mother and Father, he also hated himself who broke off the relationship with Gale first, he said, He hates not being able to fight back and make decisions for his own happiness.
He who was in a state of turmoil, decided to jump from his bedroom window at midnight, he thought briefly at that time, what life is for again, if no one can understand him. Why live if his whole life will be spent with stress, marrying an irresponsible man! What would life be like if He could not marry the person He loved so much, even seeing her marry someone else. Ajeng was not able, he jumped from the second floor, on that night, his gratitude was immediately known by the servants (guardians of the palace) who guarded that night. Ajeng was immediately rushed to the hospital, and in the ICU this is where he is now.
***
For hours, no one came out of the ICU. Gale, very tired, leaned against the door of the ICU room with his face down. Beside him sat also a Caucasian, middle-aged woman who was also anxiously waiting for the waiting chair, She leaned on the shoulder of the man next to her, tears unceasingly falling from her eyes, both eyes, She cried until she hiccupped a few times. Yes, she is Ajeng's biological mother. His father, sitting next to his mother, only stroked his shoulders, occasionally wiped his tears, and hugged him.
"I won't forgive myself, if anything happens with Ajeng!! It's all my fault!!! Why did I introduce him to that brash guy! She is nothing more than trash!!," Ajeng's mother said to her husband in disappointment and anger. While the tears continued to flow, it was visible on her cheeks that were wet by tears. It seems very regretful to himself, because he had introduced Ajeng to Robi, the man who had cheated his daughter.
"You need to calm down! Everything's gonna be okay, ma'am. The doctor is fighting for Ajeng, we have to pray constantly" Ajeng's father told his wife.
While they both strengthen each other, Gale prefers to stay faithful waiting in front of the surgery door, the times the doctor or nurse comes out of the room, and the, he could get some news first, he thought. The fear that was within Gale really made him like a daze.
"The Ajeng family?," said the Doctor who came out of the ICU room suddenly
"I!! How, doc?," said Gale in quick response to the Doctor who had just asked
"Good news, Ajeng's condition has improved, sir. He began to awaken and opened his eyes. He also had time to call several names continuously, from earlier. It indicates the condition of his head that has begun to improve, the bleeding on his head has also stopped" said the doctor to Gale
"Sorry, Sir. Let us take care of him first. Until the condition is really good, you can only meet others. I am afraid, bleeding his head still continues again, if invited to talk and think too hard. His psychological condition is also still severe," replied the doctor again
"Well doc, I get it" Gale told the doctor.
"Oiya, Ajeng continuously mentioned the name of someone from earlier.He called the name Ga... Gale.. If I am not wrong. What is Father?" asked Gale the Doctor
"Yes, doc. That's me, I'm Ajeng's lover" replied Gale
"It looks like Ajeng needs you most at times like this, sir. I think, in the next two days, he can move out of the usual inpatient room. His bleeding may quickly improve, but it does not automatically heal his psyche. It seems like he is going through a lot of suffering, and I think he can really help us to improve the spirit and health condition of his mind. A healthy mind makes the body recover faster, sir," the doctor said, patting Gale on the back
"Yes, doc. Thank you very much.," said Gale again to the doctor who immediately left him to explore the hospital hallway.
***
Mother Ajeng's face that began to sigh, after hearing what the doctor said, immediately embraced Gale strongly.
"Mom's sorry, Gale. I'm sorry to you two, I shouldn't have separated you" Ajeng's mother exclaimed to Gale, crying her arms around him
"Don't say that, ma'am. Everything has its way. This is the fate of Gusti Allah on both of us," replied Gale quietly while stroking the shoulders of Ajeng's mother
"I'm a bad man. I have no feelings, I deserve punishment" Gale's mother said
"Mother, don't speak again like that. The important thing we do right now is just pray for the healing of Ajeng" Gale told Ajeng's mother
"Mother please, Gale. Please, don't leave Ajeng..," Gale's mother said to Gale
Gale was silent. He is in a difficult condition at the moment, He is still very worried about Ajeng's condition, but He must also know himself, He has promised to be betrothed to Naava whom He knows, he has promised, he must be busy thinking about himself.
'Which one I should choose'
gale thought to himself
