Love Alone

85. Sorry, I Can't Love You

Gita's feelings are not out of whack. Earlier in front of Brandon he could be fine. Now that he has arrived at the apartment, Gita's heart beats like a marathon run. He ran not far, only a few meters.

Not much different from the Gita, Brandon's heart was also pounding as if he wanted to get out. Brandon thought that just by looking at Gita, he could parse his longing. But his heart and mind are not in line. The miss is deepening.

Without Gita noticing as she laughed with Brandon earlier, Leonard observed him from a distance. Leonard also follows Gita home until she arrives at her apartment. Leonard already knew why the Gita had suddenly moved away from him. The mother who gave no blessing.

Leonard pressed the bell repeatedly. Waiting for a moment the door opened.

"Sorry, I went to the man's room!" gita said as she opened the door, how surprised she was when she saw Leonard coming.

Unwelcome to enter, Leonard directly broke through the door and sat down in the living room.

"Can you explain why?" shoot Leonard without further ado. He was jealous to see Gita laughing with Brandon at the dock.

"What's the reason? I told you the other day, I haven't been able to accept you. My heart still belongs to him. I still love him too much. That's why I want to leave you, so that you can be happy with another woman who can love you with all her heart. Is it still unclear?" gita answered in a voice high enough to make Leonard surprised.

"You lied. Look me in the eye, let me find out for yourself why you left me!" leonard's orders with no less high voice. Both are ruled by emotion.

Gita forced herself to look at Leonard. He keeps remembering the incident at the dock, while with Brandon. It is intended to remember how great his love for Brandon at that time. And it worked because the Gita calmly looked into Leonard's eyes.

Leonard believes that Gita does not love him. Though in doubt, he tried to respect the decision of the woman who had stolen his heart.

Without Leonard knowing, their closeness has colored Gita's life. So it's not easy for the Gita to take off. As the saying goes, love is ordinary. That's what Gita feels. But the threat of Lady Elisabeth made Gita have to throw away those feelings.

"alright. Thank you for your attention all this time. Thank you for trying to love me" Leonard said with a broken heart.

Leonard leaves Gita's apartment. He walks with a lunglai. Actually he wants to invite Gita to fight for their love. But seeing the Gita give up, he did not want to force. Especially since the beginning he forced Gita to accept his love.

Leonard once promised that Gita still could not love him. Leonard will release Gita. Will not force Gita to live a relationship without being based on love by both parties.

After Leonard's death, Gita cried like a child who lost a toy. Gita screamed to release the burden on her heart. One by one the people closest to him left themselves.

"Why should I feel all this? I just learned to open my heart, try to love her. Now it must be separated because it is blocked by blessing."

"Lord, is it so humiliating of this self that it has to be in pain repeatedly? Do I not deserve to be loved? Or am I too tall to put myself up so that people are lazy to reach me?"

Questions ran amok in Gita's mind with tears rushing by. He never thought if the end of his love story with Leonard would give a wound that is no less painful with his own loving wounds.