Liver Treatments

Episode 4

A month later I was finally accepted at one of the universities close to my home, of course my father and mother were hoping that I could study at home and they would hire some of the best lecturers to teach me. But I vehemently refused him, I had such a good reason that they could allow me to go to university. I always say that a mentally ill person like me should increase activities outside the home to get well quickly, and with all the persuasion I do my father finally allows me.

"Just calm dad, you don't have to worry.I'll be nice later there" Wulan said pleading with a clear face.

"Promise me that if you won't cause trouble there Wulan, I will allow you not to let you roam as you please" Father said firmly

"Well, it's up to you" said Wulan to leave Mr. Iskandar.

I know you're worried about me not being afraid that I might get hurt but being afraid of this honorable surname being tarnished by a crazy girl like me, take it easy anyway what can I do other than study there.

***

I was able to study well, of course, helped by my two best friends Fernanda and Arselia, the two of them were indeed the ones who understood my sick situation when I was married not only heartache but body and soul pain, it was always a joke that they made me.

Until now I have not been able to find my true love, I don't know if it comes too late or it will never come. I don't care about it anymore, because it's been quite the pain I've been feeling all along, recovering from my heartache it's not easy so I don't dare to open the door of my heart to anyone.

When I started college my parents sent a special Psychiatrist to treat my illness to get better, sometimes I used to go against their will, I always told my dad that I wasn't crazy to have to go under a special doctor.

I was sad enough to see them looking at me like a crazy person, didn't one person just understand my feelings all along? but forget I don't care about it anymore

When Mattew moved into his own house with Indri I lived with my father and stepmother. I wanted to live alone in a small, simple house without having to meet these two people. Almost every day I no longer feel the spirit to live, my feelings are just surrounded with numbness. You certainly have never heard of a mental illness named Anhedonia as I experience now, I also did not know it.

Not only were the medicines prescribed for me to drink every day but my father also told me to get electroconvulsive therapy, it was for mental disorders using electricity that was being passed to the body, you can imagine if in therapy almost every day like that. I couldn't help it, I couldn't really be treated like that, but my father said it was the most effective treatment for depression.

I was always given entertainment such as being invited to travel to tourist attractions, entertainment venues, sometimes going on vacation abroad before college starts later. But I've never felt happy in the least, like I can't feel anything.

I had prayed to God that if later meeting someone could cure my illness I would be very grateful to him, if he was a man I promised to marry him, and if she was a woman I would take her as my sister well.

My lecture schedule began like the previous days, where I came quickly without being late and went straight home after finishing college, doctor Anggara said I should always keep myself busy doing all activities to eliminate my depression, especially telling me to always think positively, such as exercising, socializing to new environments, and he doesn't allow me to hear sentimental songs, instead he often tells me to listen to spirit songs, strangely he recommends me to listen to songs from Korean artists.

"Wulan do you know Korean artist BTS? BLACKPINK'S? THE SNSD? SUPER JUNIOR?", asked Anggara with enthusiasm while demonstrating like a Korean artist.

But wickedly I only answered him briefly without any expression of Face at all.

"No...

"Let me play their songs so you can get to know every member of BTS, instead of me promoting the world of k-pop to you" Anggra said cheerfully.

but that cheerfulness is not as contagious as her shadow. The girl just kept quiet and looked at Anggra with a cold expression.

"It's called Jungkook, Jimin, Suga, J-Hope, Jin, V, and Namjoon, Ah briefly Next there is still BLACKPINK whose name is..

"Sak Anggra can we go home?" said Wulan with a flat expression.

The girl is not interested.

"Ba. okay.

The spirit of this Anggra is not bad as you think, this girl will certainly quickly change with all the efforts that you will do anyway spirit do not quickly give up Anggra murmured Inwardly.

***

Wherever I go and be Doctor Anggara is always by my side, he is a good, handsome, patient man, and more specifically he really understands every situation I feel even what I want.

Doctor Anggara always reminds me of the exact same words

“Remember Wulan you should always be the spirit of the sab smile in doing every activity you and Do not forget to be grateful “ said Doctor Anggara while holding my shoulder.

“Alright Brother Anggra Thank you”said Wulan in an emotionless tone.

I deliberately called his name briefly because his name is very long in my opinion, a little complicated if called Anggara.

Doctor Anggara could only sigh, he understood with Wulan's condition that only replied to short words without emotion though.

Can I cure your Anhedonia? But at least you're not the same as other patients who are angry and yelling Hysterical.

Suddenly there was doubt in Anggara's mind. Because as he saw if Wulan's mental illness is not easy to cure.

*Pak Iskandar must have had a reason why until he chose me as a special Doctor to deal with this girl's illness. I'm sure this isn't a coincidence.

Anyway I have to spirit. well that's true spirit*!!!

giving yourself spirit is probably the best thing, when no one is supporting you.

Seriate