Liver Treatments

Episode 3

The National Exam I can pass so well without any problems, because I am diligent in studying and following Les well. Graduation is the happiest day of my life because being able to continue my studies to a higher level at the same time can make my parents proud.

After a few days It was time for my graduation day, I was really happy because I would soon be a student and not a student anymore. My sister Mattew and my parents came to congratulate me, even though I actually have not received my stepmother's presence 100 percent full, but I appreciate it, at least Indri did not come to ruin my mood.

“Wulan smile I will take your picture now “said Arselia while preparing to take my picture

Czechoslovak...

“You look beautiful in photo” said Fernanda then approached me while showing Arselia shots.

I just smiled to see it.

“Thank you “says Wulan to Arselia.

Suddenly Brother Mattew from behind patted me on the shoulder while saying “Congratulations on your graduation Wulan while hugging me.

“Te..Thank you kak” said Wulan with an awkward smile because just this time Mattew spoke to him.

It's real isn't it?

Mattew's sister greeted me, even hugging me

in front of my Dad and Stepmother.

Wulan unceasingly showed a smile of happiness on her face. He felt that his relationship with Mattew Brother had returned to Normal as before.

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At least I can get through my graduation without tears of sadness.

All thanks to my friends who are always there to cheer me up at all times.

When the event was over I was invited to join a party with my classmates who graduated that year, but I refused because I was tired enough all day because of attending the event.

Finally I went home with Dad, his stepmother and Mattew's sister. Arriving at home I tried to accept the presence of Indri who came to congratulate me on my graduation.

"Congratulations on your graduation Wulan" Indri said while giving Flowers as a sincere greeting. But as usual I just kept quiet and ignored it.

The calm at home did not last long, not until my stepmother announced Mattew's matchmaking with the child of a close friend of the mother who was none other than

INDRI´S....

Not yet fully accepting the pain that I think when Mattew's sister ignored me a few days ago, I had to face the heartache of being in a marriage stay by someone I loved all this time.

All the ways I've done that I can accept when Mattew's sister gets married to a beautiful and rich girl, I can only take it with my chest, I still cry a lot when I am alone. It's okay that I can bear it, when present at his wedding I can be said to be tough when I see him now become someone else's husband. Brother Mattew tried to persuade me, the last word I heard before he moved into the house with his wife now is

“I'm sorry that I've been ignoring you, but I'm sure you'll find your true love Wulan” later too

Those words still ring clearly in my ears, I still memorize them, and with the last smile I see engraved on his handsome face.

I always said that if I were the bride, I would thank God. I can only breathe to catch it. Because an ordinary girl like me doesn't do anything because in fact Mattew's sister is not my soul mate, the outline of fate says otherwise maybe I'll never fall in love again.

“Sabar Wulan, maybe he is not your soul mate “ Fernanda said while hugging.

I could only reply with a smile I tried not to make the atmosphere at the wedding into a miserable cry.

I went straight home first, because I was uncomfortable at their wedding.

As I walked towards my room, my legs felt so stiff and unable to move forward, my heart felt so painful as in crumbs that I hit my chest repeatedly.

I cried out in pain, my head was dizzy from not being able to hold it.

Why is all this happening to me? I hate my family, I also hate Mattew's brother he left me and married the girl I hated.

Wulan walked to his room to take some antidepressant drugs in a small drawer, when he found it he immediately drank a few grains, until finally he fell asleep without feeling any pain again.

Day after day I passed, I felt so lonely after Mattew did not stay home.

Even I often can not sleep because I think about all my current circumstances. Every night I have trouble sleeping.

And because seeing my condition getting worse and worse, my father finally took me to the Psychologist place to the psychiatrist place, first they did an examination of psychiatric conditions through interviews, and then they did an interview, and they started asking about my life like my name, my job, my education history, and my family background.

Until he started asking me some questions that made me unable to answer, I did not want to discuss the matter of Mattew because it was very painful. They then made mental observations of me, but because it was less helpful they finally did a supporting examination, which aimed to determine the diagnosis of my disease later. Several tests have been done starting from urine, and blood tests.

Until finally I was diagnosed with a mental disorder called Physical Anhedonia, hearing about it certainly made my parents become so scared and distrustful especially my father, my father, he was devastated to hear the diagnosis I feel now. Mental illness Anhedonia is where a person does not feel any sensation when given a touch of affection by others, such as a hug, the feeling Wulan has when it tends to be empty or he does not feel anything.

In fact, he does not feel the pleasure and happiness when eating foods that are liked so far, but usually he really likes his favorite food. The psychiatrist who handled my mental health said that I was not easily aroused or even not interested in having physical contact with other people, and worse I had ongoing health problems, like getting sick often.

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Dad loves me but not more like his love for my stepmother. Only Mattew's sister is the only one who treats me so sincerely and affectionately. But now he's gone so I'm not too surprised to hear my diagnosis, because it's true. One of the causes of Anhedonia is the use of drugs such as antidepressants and antipsychotics used to cure depression, I admit that I often take antidepressant drugs lately because it is difficult to sleep.

But that may not be one of the reasons I have a mental disorder, said the doctor I had a sense of trauma over an event that stressed me in the past. In addition, the experience of violence or rejection that I feel can also be a trigger for the onset of the condition. Things got worse when I started being taken crazy by my stepmother. I showed him more of my illness so that he would feel tormented while living in a house with someone who had a mental illness like me. Without me realizing my illness was getting worse until I started to worry about seeing me.

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