Like Marrying a Boy

SMB 15S

If I am given a request by God, I will ask that papa always be near me. Watching me in his arms. Calm my heart with his words.

Papa .. if you knew how much I'm hurt here. When you have to be away from you and can only embrace you through prayer to release all the longings that increasingly gnaw my heart.

Papa ... when will you return to my side? Even though I'm an adult now, I still want to be your little girl. I still need your hand to make me strong above all else.

Papa ... I beg .. don't stay away from me anymore.

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"Pa-papa." Agnes's voice was stamped. Even his breath was stinged as his chest started to feel tight. She cried so much in Janu's arms. Evaporate all the longings that have been able to make it fragile.

"Yes, it's papa, honey." Janu's tears have flowed. That guy is just as sick. Being away from her daughter was the thing that tormented her the most. Every night he could never sleep well because Agnes kept thinking. Worrying that girl can't eat well.

"Don't go again." Agnes' voice was cut off from the whim. He hugged the father very tightly and did not want to let go. Agnes was afraid that when she let go of the hug, she had to get back apart with the father. Agnes did not want another farewell even though after this they still had to separate.

"Don't cry, honey. Papa's here now. Papa promised not to leave you again" said Janu. His voice was raucous from crying. Not just the two of them, but whoever was there cried. Between overwhelmed and unable to see two people who are tormented by longing for each other.

"I don't want to be away from Papa anymore. I'd rather die than be away from Papa. I'm sick, Pa. I was sick when Papa wasn't around me." Agnes punches Janu in the chest to blow everything away. Really, being scared away from her father made her feel fragile.

Janu was about to let go of the hug, but Agnes held back very strongly. He still did not dare to let go. However, Janu was a little pushy as he was already eager to see his daughter's face up close.

Agnes did the same. He helped wipe away Janu's tears that had already soaked the middle-aged man's face. Slowly, Janu moved his face forward and landed a long kiss on his daughter's forehead as a sign of how much affection he felt for his daughter. In fact, beyond the affection for himself.

"Pa, if Papa comes back to prison. I want to come with Papa. I don't want to be here and away from Papa anymore" said Agnes, looking at the father with great supplication.

"Why? Didn't Miss Etha treat you well?" ask Janu. He rubbed his daughter's cheek very gently. The man's lips looked bitterly smiling.

"Yes. She's been so good to me, Pa. But for me no one can replace Papa in my heart. I don't want anyone. I don't need a magnificent house, abundant treasures. I want to be with Papa. Whatever the circumstances. I still want to be with Papa even though I have to stay behind bars. I beg you, Pa." Agnes was so asking. However, Janu shook his head quickly.

"No, Honey. Papa wouldn't agree. Your body is too weak to be there."

"I don't care. I'd rather stay in jail and die in Papa's arms than stay away from Papa. I can't stand it, Pa." Agnes continued to whine.

Janu quickly hugged Agnes tightly. Real tight. Then shower the top of Gadia's head with a lot of kisses. "Papa won't let you stay there."

"Pa, I'll still try to stay there. Pa. .. Should I kill in order to stay with Papa."

Agnes' words made Janu silent at that moment.