Liberoses

Prologues

I stared blankly ahead. My eyes were too tired to cry, and my legs were unable to move.

I clasped the clear plastic I was carrying. My eyes stared blankly at the lonely streets, as if there was no life.

I laughed blandly. Trying to vanish all the pain I feel. I looked to the side when there was a light shining under the darkness of the night.

Automakers. I knew I was going to get hit. I smiled as I waved my hand as if welcoming the car.

“Hai,” Sapaku drifted a second before the accident occurred.

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Piip piiip piip! That monotonous sound had already spun somehow how many times, maybe a thousand? Ah I don't know. I glanced at the window. The weather is nice today, it's sunny.

I glanced at the infusion in my hand. There's no taste.

Ah, I haven't been able to feel anything since last night, like. My chuckles are bland.

My eyes tried to close to fall asleep, but I couldn't.

I was irritated, while taking the Bluetooth headphones that my mom brought. I pressed the ‘on’ button while looking for a song that would put him to sleep.

That should be me .

“Everybodys laughin in my mind

Rumors spread about this other guy

Do you do what you did when you did with me?

Does he love you the way I can?

Did you forget all the plans that you made with me?

'Cuz baby I didnt.”

The song went perfectly in my ears. I took a glass of water and gulped it down violently. I chuckled hard blandly.

“That should be me, holdin your hand

That should be me, more you laugh

That should be me, this is so sad

That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feelin' your kiss

That should be me, buyin you gifts

This is so wrong, I cant go on.”

Unknowingly tears were dripping from the corner of my eyes, yet I still kept laughing blandly.

Hi, Kaylina. You were so stupid all this time? Hahahaha my Kekeh is bland. The song still continues to gently spin in my ears.

Heart hurts. Like something was piercing from the inside. But it feels better.

Even when the car accident happened I didn't feel what. Everything's bland. Is a breakup that bad?

“Said you need a little time from my mistakes

Its funny how you used that time to have me replaced

Did you think that I wouldnt see you out at the movies

What cha doin' to me?

You're taking him where we used to go.”

I took a deep breath for a moment. Short of it, but I don't want to stop hurting myself anymore. Whatisthis? Why does it feel better to hurt yourself than to feel nothing?

“Now if you're trying to break my heart

It's workin, cuz you know.” My unknowingly lyric is the follow-up of that song. I laughed blandly. My face was blank as if I had no life.

“Hai, Kaylina. Are you crazy now?” I looked at myself. I rubbed my phone screen and that very second tears started to appear.

“Poorly once.”

“Gerald!” I screamed loudly. I stepped up to a guy who was looking at me in wonder.

“Hai! Aren't we making a deal here? Why are you here?” I asked innocently. The guy was puffing, he was looking at me from top to bottom. Without talking.

I looked at the girl next to him. He looks astonished. And—oddnya why do they join together? I took a short breath, trying to smile.

Kaylina, they might be brothers right? Let's think good!My mind is still trying to think positively.

“Gerald—”

“Honey, who is he?” Asked the girl next to him curiously, he glanced at the silent Gerald.

“She's a bully, Angeline. No worries ****** this is.” Gerald said as he walked away with the girl.

Whahuh? J—bitch? My mind's shocked. Whatdoes thatmean? Her boyfriend!

“Gerald! Gerald! What the hell are you doing? My birthday is still long! Please don't lie this way.” me softly, the guy looked at me sharply, while the girl next to him ran behind Gerald, as if asking for protection.

“What are you talking about?! I don't know you!! Stop acting like a cheap woman!”

I chuckle blandly remembering it. My hands are open to pull the infusion that is stuck in my hands.

“What is this stupid thing? I don't need it.” I muttered while throwing the infusion pole until it fell down with a loud voice.

A few sisters came over in panic. I laughed happily.

Oh, my God, emotions are so fun. Are you crazy, huh? Ahahaha!