LET HIM LIVE

Rey POV

It may be too late to reveal, honestly I married Rina forced, forced to marry the woman of her dreams. Yes my mother Santi who inexplicably had to marry me to a woman I knew completely. 

"Mom, I don't want to. Why should that woman marry me?" Angry shouting. 

I absolutely do not want to leave Rani, the dream woman that I had hoped to give birth to my son later. 

"Rey, if you marry Rina your life is guaranteed!"

"Mother only thinks of treasures and treasures" I burried. 

I know that mother intended to marry me because Rina is the offspring of a capable person, while Rani is a very simple woman, but I think Rani is more graceful than Rina. 

Yes I lost. Like the main character who must be trapped by the seduction of a mother, such as Indonesian soap operas that are more master of the feeling than logic, so do I. 

I had to get married because I wasn't married, I was just saying. Ijab in front of the pengulu. After marriage I want to bring Rina directly but Rina's mother Amanda does not want her child to be carried, Amanda wants me and Rina to live with her. 

Finally I followed my mother's invitation to live in my mother's house. 

"Hurry to have a baby yes, anyway mama wants you guys immediately pregnant." Mom looked at me and Rina. 

"I also want to get pregnant right away, mom, it's exciting if I can get pregnant." Rina's chirps with a series of beaming faces. 

I just wanted to give face to mother and son. Strangely I feel sultry to hear them say they want to directly have a baby, honestly I have goosebumps until I have a child with Rina. 

I didn't answer what they said, I just walked away from them. Seeing me who just left mama and Rina looking at each other, I don't know what they think. 

A wedding night that should be beautiful. For me it was just prison for me, when I had to sleep with a woman I didn't like at all, I chose to sleep in the living room. 

I saw the sad face of Rina when I left her, but I didn't care about Rina. 

"Mas, why sleep in a separate room, Rina's voice trembled withstanding the turmoil. 

"I'm cape, you sleep here yeah I'm in the living room." I said without sin. 

"Mas, we sleep the same, it's legal husband and wife," Rina gawked seeing me leave just like that. 

That night! 

Lina and I slept in separate rooms for good in the big house and there was one room unused, yes I used. 

I don't care what Rina thought at that time, I just thought surely Rani was crying because she had to be left married by me, while I promised Rani would be happy. 

I took my phone and called Rani's number, but Rani's number couldn't be reached at all. I feel guilty for Rani because I have left Rani but no effort at all, it is natural that the woman was angry and died me 

Even if Rina has my body full, but my heart is not at all. Yeah, since five years I've never touched Rina, and the worst thing is that my mother who was good to me at the end of this last year likes to quip because for five years Rina did not get pregnant, yes it would not be pregnant if not fertilized. 

And one of my pride in Rina, even if I never do good. But Rina never cheated on me, instead I cheated on her. 

While Rani did not know at that time, I actually thought that Rani knew everything. But Rani doesn't know what, but I hurt my woman. 

I love him but can't have it possible, because Rani's father actually separated me and my own father, that's what Rani until Sekaran GB didn't know at all. 

I tried to eliminate the child in Rani's womb so that I had nothing to do with the baby, I didn't want the child to call me father, I am his father even though he is a biological father. 

Surya actually killed my father. I am not sincere if my father was killed by his father the woman I love, when I had to marry Rani while his father was also a murderer. 

"You must accompany Rani to fight," said Dio when Rani was about to give birth. 

I'm gamang. But Dio died me in PKM yes I tried to calm down even though my heart was chaotic at that time not because at all heard the groans and groans of pain that came out of Rani's mouth. 

Rani tried to push a few times, while her hand held the edge of the bed she slept on. 

"For all of you, sick to know!" Rani screams as she pushes. 

I just keep quiet, I can't see what Rani's face is a bit pale and full of sweat and tears that come out. 

Suddenly I felt guilty for Rani who made herself in such pain, suddenly there was a sense of hatred for me. But that feeling I just brushed off. 

Finally with Rani's struggle, the baby girl was born. Mother gave the baby to me to carry and I adzan and Iqamah to the baby's ear. 

My tears accidentally fell on the cheeks of the baby I was carrying. Her crying stopped as I was the Adhan and Iqamah in her ears. 

Two weeks after Rani lahiran. I saw Rina crying and leaving the house, I saw Rina crying. But I just kept quiet, I just chased after Rina, I let her cry. 

"You're grinning, look at me crying!" Spray Rina. 

"You saw me crying, but then. It's because of you, "tight Rina. 

"But because of me!" I wonder. 

"Why am I not the one who got pregnant and gave birth to your child, even another woman," 

I just quietly listened to Rina's words, but why did my heart hurt so much to see Rina's cry. 

"I also want to get pregnant, why have a husband if I can not impregnate me, when I have to find another man," snapped Rina. 

The woman just left me, I just sighed. Seeing a wife who was just status on the paper cried. 

I'm actually upset with myself, why hasn't my heart been held in Rina's name. Yes I think Rina deserves my sincere love but I never cared for her. 

'Oh Allah why there should be Rani in my life, if indeed you outline my life with Rina, ' I whispered annoyed.

If only the first Rina came first I would have fertilized my love for Rina, this is the opposite. I married Rina but my heart still has Rani.*