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Opening A Heart
Solitude makes Deeva recall a message she received from Nino. The sweet girl, approached and picked up the book inside her nightstand drawer.
"Meiner lieben Tochter Adeeva Elora Caesar. Vergib deiner Mutter Liebes. Ich wollte dein Herz nicht verletzen, aber ich werde dir alles sagen. Ehrlichkeit and auch dieser Schmerz."1)
That is the content of the letter written by Mother for herself. Deeva closed the short letter and opened the notebook. Opening it starting from the first page, this is really the writing of the parent. He was right with his parent's writing.
The first sheet describes the beginning of Ruz and Junan's meeting while still on the school bench. How their daily lives. How they fell in love and then separated. Ruz also recounts his family life in Germany. His encounter with Bennett who later deceived his family.
The next sheet tells about the reunion of Ruz and Junan. They fall back in love for the second time. About their agreement to get married. About the risks Ruz had to take as Junan's second wife.
Slowly the tears of Deeva began to flow, her heart was sliced to read the story of the Mother about her life. About sadness. His suffering. It is also about the physical and psychic torment she endured while locked up for five years and became Bannett's sex slave. She was forced to prostitute herself and eventually became a "mami" in localization.
More heartbroken Deeva read all this. He was sobbing when reading about the struggle Mother in fighting her disease the last two years.
"Deeva, Mother does not blame you if you hate your mother. It is your right not to accept this bitter story, but one thing you should know is that this pain, this pain and all these insults are impervious for your sake. So that you can stay alive and smile at your future. It's not your fault, Deeva. He's a great man, he's a strong man who always loves you and your mother. Believe me she's the angel wings of your life that will protect you, Deeva. Mother loves you." Ruz wrote in his book.
"I'm sorry Deeva, Mommy" Deeva said, hugging the notebook.
The trembling hand of the sweet girl read all that the Mother had written, her heart breaking as she had broken through all that. All beyond expectations of the sweet girl, far from her prejudices.
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The yellowing sunset sky accompanies the solitude of Deeva sitting in the garden behind the house. A wide iron swing accompanied his twilight swinging. He was still thinking about the letter. He leaned his back against the iron swing backrest.
The beautiful flowers around it add to the beautiful atmosphere of twilight. Deeva's daydreams drifted and adventured everywhere, tracking down the times he had passed.
"Deeva," call out to Junan who is coming from behind him. Deeva turned and changed her sitting position.
"Can we talk for a second?" ask Junan carefully.
Deeva nodded her head. Junan sat down with his daughter. From near Deeva could see the broad back of her Papa, her sturdy shoulders, her strong arms and her square chest.
"City ...Papi knows you must be mad the same, Papi. But for God's sake, Deeva .. there is no intention to be fulfilled by papi to leave your Mother even to dump you. Papi's been looking for you for years, but nothing has worked. Papi was really happy when he found out you were alive and near Papi. But Papi is also sad, we are close, even very close. But Papi can't hold you, can't pour out Papi's love for you." Junan took a moment of his breath. Re-expanding her congested lungs.
"That's all your rights, Deeva. Your right to hate Papi. Papi won't be mad at you. But one you can't deny, Papi's blood runs through your body. And the blood is thicker than water. You are still Papi's biological daughter, you have the right to use Papi's name behind your name. Also entitled to get anything from Papi as your real father," he explained again.
Junan stopped his words. He turned to his beautiful little girl, his eyes staring and saying a lot of longing for his beloved daughter.
"Deeva," he called.
"But I know maybe papi doesn't deserve to say this. I'm sorry that papi hasn't been a good father to you." Junan gently stroked the head of his beloved little girl.
He stood up from his seat. It felt like there was quite a lot that he had revealed to his daughter. But his steps came to a halt, he split his gaze aside. Deeva held her arm.
"Bapi," he called softly.
At once Junan's bead of glowing eyes heard Deeva calling him "Fire". This was the first time she had heard Deeva call her that. The first time she heard the melodious voice of her little girl calling her "Fire".
"Repeat ... Deeva apologized to Papi. Deeva has disappointed Papi. Deeva has hurt Papi" Deeva said slowly.
The young woman looked at the man in front of her. The greatest man of his life. The great man who brought him was in this world. For Deeva at the moment, it's up to others to say what, but this man is the greatest and strongest man of his life. Protective wings.
"I'm sorry Deeva, Pi. Deeva's guilty on Papi. Deeva is already evil with Papi" he said with teary eyes.
Deeva immersed her body in the chest of her great male field. Crying in the arms of his angel wings. Junan returned the warm embrace of his beloved little girl. It was at once that the defenses of his heart crumbled to see his daughter crying in her arms. The heart of a man who can see his beloved woman crying.
"Deeva loves Papi," he said in the Japanese decapitation.
For whatever is in the world, those words of love make Junan soar, his heart soar. Whatever happens, everything is perfect for him. Enough love and affection for his daughter to Junan. She gently caressed her daughter's beautiful hair. Kissing his head. Adeeva Elora Caesar's.
Junan held his daughter's face with both of her large palms. Removing traces of tears in Adeeva's cheeks.
"I'm sorry Deeva yes, Pi," Deeva said, taking her Papa's hand and kissing the back of her hand.
Again, the great tremors spread from the tip of the foot to the end of the head of Junan. There was a sense of hilarity and pride as her daughter treated her with such respect and tenderness.
Reynand who had listened to their conversation from the end of the pole of the house, was also moved by the atmosphere that happened. Rey leaned her body on the pole of the house, holding both hands in front of her chest while staring at the beautiful scenery in front of her. Happy to see Papi and his youngest brother reunited. A beautiful carving was created at the end of his lip line. Complete already Caesar's family with the return of sibungsu in the arms of his Papi.
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Translations
"My dear daughter Adeeva Elora Caesar. Forgive your Mother, dear. I don't want to hurt you, but I'll tell you everything. This honesty and pain too." 1)
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