LATHIS

Ill-favored

Fyla just rolled around indistinctly from an hour ago. His eyes were still very bright and did not want to be closed. The clock shows at 23:00. He snorted in annoyance and kicked the air so upset.

“Okay, why can't I sleep, anyway?” fyla growled while squeezing the blanket wrapped around her body.

“The father Arka really strange attitude earlier, anyway? Even more strange, why can't I refuse his request and speech?” fyla muttered confusedly as she stared at the ceiling of her room.

“But, I feel familiar with the face of Papanya Arka. Did I ever meet him, yeah?” he continued, which is fun to monologue.

“But, when? Whereabouts? and why can I meet him?” Fyla growled in frustration as she never found the bright spot of the object that had disturbed her mind.

“Why too, when I hug Mama Arka, I feel safe and peaceful?” muttered Fyla again. “What's possible because I miss that taste?” mumbling again.

“Ah, end. Don't think about it. If it's time, I will also know,” tepis Fyla with a steady nod.

Fyla closed her eyes to immediately surf into the world of her dreams. However, just a few minutes later, he was startled by the sound of his phone ringing.

“Astaghfirullah. Just ngagetin, the phone,” grumbled Fyla while staring annoyed at his phone that was on the nightstand.

“Who, the hell is the phone malem-malem? Very little work,” furious Fyla who never took his phone.

The call was interrupted, Fyla smiled happily to see him. However, a second later his phone rang again, and it made Fyla annoyed again. Roughly and without seeing who was calling, Fyla immediately picked him up.

“What, anyway? Disturb people to sleep! Don't see clock?” jolt Fyla rough.

The person across there who was about to open his voice immediately closed his lips tightly.

“Heh? How about diem, anyway? What's up?” asked Fyla ketus with a feeling of annoyance that was in her heart.

“Nothing, anyway. Just want to check, have slept what not,” reply people across there. Fyla's eyes suddenly swerved when she found out who was calling her.

“Arka, yes! Why, anyway? I'm fucking up! Pake all chattering, thought I was a baby!” sewot Fyla spilled all her annoyance at the cackling Ark across the street.

“Dih, even laugh. Huh, ah. While you sleep, you're healed. Why stay up?” ask Fyla who has turned a little calm.

“Ngak papa, anyway. It's just hard to sleep. I still eat at this hour. Why yourself? Think of something?” ask Arka curiously. Fyla was speechless due to Arka's near-target guess.

“Pil?” call Arka, because Fyla won't respond to her questions.

“Hah? Eh? Yes, what?” asked Fyla, because she was back daydreaming.

“Tuh, right. Habits like to dream. Three times I knew you were dreaming. Actually what do you think, anyway?” ask Arka who is trying to get closer to Fyla.

“Not there, really. Not yet time to know, Ka. If you never know, it means that you are not destined to know the problems that always make me daydream,” said Fyla who somehow sounded very ambiguous in Arka's ears.

“Hah? How-how? How can I not understand?” ask Arka confused.

“Udah, ah. Don't need to discuss. Sleep, gih. Udah added the night,” said Fyla who was replied with an annoyed snort by Arka.

“Iya-iya. I'm sleeping. Assalamualaikum,” says Arka even with ogah-ogahan tone.

Fyla chuckles little to Arka's annoyance, “waalaikumsalam,” her reply.

When he was about to put his phone on the nightstand, his phone rang again. Fyla snorted in annoyance and immediately picked up the call, as she was very sure that the one who called her was Arka.

“What else, anyway? I slept there. I also tabok you long-long,” cynical Fyla.

The person across there just kept quiet and felt confused by Fyla's words.

“Kok diem? What the fuck? Why call again? Recently also killed,” asked Fyla confused. Because he still thinks the person who is across there is Arka.

“Hoy?” jolt Fyla is upset.

“Gue just called,” reply people across there. Fyla was silent with a blank look towards the front.

His mind floated where when he had worked hard for his dream that was one step away was even destroyed by his own friend. The most important person in his life. Just then, he felt his world collapse for the second time. His own friend, the person he trusted the most with the heart to destroy everything just for the sake of a trickery word called Love.

What does love really mean when compared to friends? Love means nothing more than the word friend. Love is rubbish and friends are diamonds. That's always been Fyla's principle, until she never betrayed or even lied to her best friend.

“Fyl? You're still there, right? How come there is no sound?” reprimand the people across there, because Fyla just fell silent.

“What's up?” ask Fyla ketus.

The person across there could only smile wryly, hearing the response given by Fyla. Truly, he deeply regretted his actions which led him to such deep pain as this moment.

“How are you?” ask the man in a soft tone. Fyla chuckled cynically, by twisting her two eyeballs.

“Nease!” fyla.

“Why have you changed? I know I was wrong. But why stay away and become an enemy like this?” asking people across the street sounds frustrating.

“Amnesia really, you? Is it just pretend?” jaktak Fyla ketus.

“Iya, I know I was wrong. I apologize and try to correct my mistake. But why do you always refuse? Why, Fyl?” ask again in a soft tone. He cannot be ignored and is considered like a ghost like the last few months.

Fyla's defense was about to collapse, as the memory of her being with the man across the street flashed through her mind. Where there are only jokes and laughter before one of the two knows the word Love.

For whatever reason, Fyla hates the word Love. Because of love, he lost many people. Because of Love, he lost his dream that was in sight.

“Fyla? I'm sorry. Come back, I'll fix all my mistakes. I beg you, give me another chance,” pinta men across there.

“Gue can't,” reply Fyla. He still felt the pain, every time he remembered it.

“Fyla, I beg.” The man across the street kept begging Fyla to give him a second chance.

But, Fyla is typical of people who would find it very difficult to forgive others. In fact, he tends to take revenge on people who have hurt his heart too deeply.

“Gue says it can't, it means it can't! Not deaf, right?” sentak Fyla cynical. The person across there fell silent after hearing Fyla's words. Likewise with Fyla who is currently sobbing slowly.

He realized that his words were too harsh. But, what can he do? It was his heart that led his mouth to say those words. He also knows, if now the man across there must be scratched his heart. However, he could do nothing, because his heart was also being scratched by a very wide wound.

“Ya. Sorry, it's been a time mess. Next time we talk again, well.” The man across there swallowed his grief with his speech that used a cheerful tone.

Inwardly, Fyla knew that the man was holding back from spilling everything in front of Fyla. After the phone connection was cut off, Fyla no longer held back her cries.

He chose to cry this time, because his heart was already feeling very tired with the various problems that surrounded his life. He wants to live a normal life without any problems. But, he realized. Everyone has their own problems.

“Gue does not know, why it feels so painful and this difficult to apologize and forget the incident. I also want us to go back to kayak first, but what can I do? My heart is not yet at peace with the situation,” shrewd Fyla while hugging her knees and crying softly.

His relationship with the man was back in his mind. A time when only happiness and laughter are heard. When he went for a walk just the two of them, everything was always the two. Until there is a figure of diving among them who managed to make their relationship stretch and ended with the behavior of the man's ridiculous.

“And there's no him. We'll be fine. If you are not that stupid just because of love,” shrewd Fyla is with tears that never stop, like a waterfall.

“Why, anyway? Why should there be love if love is more than enough. Of love? Ready to be happy means ready to get hurt? Why do so many people get hurt when they love? Are they so stupid about love?” fyla lirih.

“Gue does not know anything about love, but I am not as stupid as those who always talk here and there if love is beautiful and brings happiness. But not everything is like that. The laws of nature also apply to love, but why isn't everyone aware of it?” continued with a blank look.

“Gue hates love,” shrewd Fyla while gently wiping her tears.

He returned to lay himself on the bed. His hand stretched out to take his pandas which were right on his left. He hugged the doll as if he was hugging the doll giver.

“Gue kangen,” shimmy Fyla and back broke his tears. Until finally he was exhausted and fell asleep with eyes filled with tears.

The next day, Fyla woke up with a feeling of dizziness that invaded her head. He staggered back as he walked to the bathroom. But, he did not want to indulge the pain in his head. Finally, he forced himself to go to the bathroom and prepare to go to school.

A few moments later, he was neat in his school uniform and was trying to comb his hair. His net was wide in shock when he found his two eyes very swollen.

“For that I cry?” fyla Mummings. His eyes will only be puffy when he cries for too long.

“Huft, no papa. For this time, the last time,” determination Fyla steady.

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