La Tahla Don't Complain

Love In Silence

trust me baby you'll get one like him even better...!

again, I nodded and we decided to go home and forget the pain that still penetrates in the heart and cultivate a sincere feeling that is so reluctant to grow and hope God provides a better replacement from her.

*** La Tahla Don't Complain ***

A bright morning of sunshine slowly hit my face sitting alone in the courtyard of this besak kuto Fortress, not far in front of me stretches the legacy Ampera Bridge in the independence era that still stands strong to this day even though I can not imagine how much burden is on the hat.

Hayooo is still daydreaming....!

Astri started his hobby that surprised me at times like this, I smiled, the girl was sitting next to me, looking at the bridge, seen a vehicle passing through the bridge that became the link between the upstream area and the island.

how are you Farah?

is it better?

astri looks at me clearly in his eyes if he's worried about me.

hmmmmm...

I clenched my lips together smiling as I turned my face to the sky as if asking for help from the air from the blowing wind.

ast is God willing.

I'm trying to catch it...

I replied with a stifled breath as I said the last sentence, a sentence that was so easy to say but so difficult to do, Astri smiled trying to give energy support behind his smile.

*peaceful, trust in God.

did he not say that behind the tribulation there is ease.I am sure that behind your sadness at this time there will be happiness waiting for you in the future.

maybe now he gives you a test that is difficult for you to pass, but rest assured, dear God must give you the most beautiful gift you can never imagine behind this great test. or God loves you so much Far that he wants you to rise to a higher level from now on, which is why he gave you the difficult test*.

again - again the girl smiled sweetly at me, I nodded my head and grabbed her in my arms, soaking in the energy Astri gave, as soon as a warm feeling entered my heart.

the breeze of the wind on my khimar blew a cool breeze in the pores of the skin making its own coolness in the heart. I held tightly Astri's smiling hand towards me.

how lucky I am to have a friend like him, his loving and understanding nature is able to divert this heartache with a little chatter from his lips.

Luckily I have a friend who is ready to be a place for me to complain, to be a life support and my encouragement in joy and sorrow.

yes Astri she is not only a friend to me but she is like my sister just like my sister shafira.

*** La Tahla Don't Complain ***

Two days later I set foot back to the Great Mosque where I used to attend studies. I walk steadily every now and then laughing as stories and silly jokes come out of the tiny lips of Astri walking beside me.

seeing the hilarious action when telling a row of Artists - Korean artist idol was able to expel a little of the stricken who was still struggling spoiled in this heart. he was only a little, at least has been much reduced than before.

after struggling with tightness and tears I realized one thing if perhaps my love for fatih had exceeded the limit and made God jealous because he separated me and him. not because he doesn't like it but because he loves me and wants me to get back close to him like before getting to know Fatih.

o Allah forgive me, your servant who is far from gratitude and almost bound in unbelief.O Allah thank you for reminding me that reaching for the love of your created beings is not as good as reaching for your love.

I may have looked messy two days ago but now my resolve has been unanimous I have steadied my heart to forget all about Fatih, forget all my memories with that dimpled man. mengikhlaskan her with my best friend, maybe this is the best way for me now.

the best way for me to quickly throw away all my love for him and replace it with my love for that taste-creating god, I am sure that God knows best for me. then whatever scenario he wrote in my destiny I must be willing and ready to run it. I believe whatever he wrote in the destiny of my life is what is best for my life.

and I'm so sure that God sometimes just brings together not unites.

Because God knows what I need, not what I want.

That's why I decided to keep everything. Saving the fact that I once tethered half my heart to that dimpled young man.

I decided to start erasing all the memories of him. Deleting all stories and eliminating all tastes that ever existed for him.I will bury it in - in my heart.

Love in my silence

Love in my silence

I won't let anyone know about you. Let the time decide his destiny, he will be revealed or he will be lost.

To be Continue

*** La Tahla Don't Complain ***

I'LL FIND YOUR NAME IN MY ONE-THIRD-NIGHT PRAYER *

Love in my silence,

Should you know if I love you..?

I DON'T THINK SO,

Because love cannot be revealed to be seen.

It can only be felt in the heart.

Not that I don't dare to parse, though,

But I'm afraid I'm wrong in putting it in,

Because what I think is good,

Not necessarily good according to him.

I want the best for my Robb

Actually was.

My name does not mean ignoring you.

My silence doesn't mean I don't remember you.

Because I am also an ordinary person.

There's feeling..

There desire..

There's hope..

But I don't think I deserve that yet.

Let this taste be created, please,

I kept it in the corner of my heart,

Only GOD knows.

I'm flying a wing of a crotch, man,

So that lust doesn't drag me to want love.

I'll find your name in the third of my night..

I hope you are the one written on Lauhul Mahfudz for me.

Even if not.

It's okay I believe His destiny is what's best for me.

Quoted from Ikmi Korea