La Tahla Don't Complain

extra part (Death as deep as love)

I really want you

but I prefer God's Chosen for me, so I leave you for him.

aaaah a beautiful quote that is so easy to read and beautiful to hear the ear but to realize and practice it is certainly not as easy as these lips read it. it took a long time and sacrifices that were not small for me to be able to forget everything and open a new sheet of life that was sheared before there was a wound that was so painful.

maybe now I can make peace with the past but it can not be denied if sometimes there is still pain left from the wounds that had been broken, in also impregnated.

This is where I am currently looking at the stretch of sand on the edge of the beach with the reflection of sunlight and a blue sky without poles creating a beauty that was unthinkable to me before. as calm as the chanting of verses - holy verses of the Quran that are often recited Qori - the Koriah that I hear from flashdisc that I often turn in the car in between - between trips around the corners of the mother this neighboring city.

my heart is calmer now, at least calmer than the days before because there are no more tears present whenever my mind drifts on past memories.

Flashback before Santi set foot in Malaysia.

I lost when I really lost....!

it turned out that the friendship I had built for many years with Laila did not make him think about my feelings before Laila received the Ustadz Fahri Ma kitbah.

only Laila knows Ma...!

only Laila knew that Santi admired Ustadz Fahri more than a student's admiration for his teacher. only Laila knew Ma....!

the girl broke down in the mother's arms, still with a stuffed sob. Her heart seemed to be hit by a chunk of painful stone also hurt.

but why Ma..? why does Laila accept her and not care about my feelings Ma...?

Patience dear, maybe God has a more beautiful plan for you...!

I don't want to go back there and watch the marriage of the two of them. don't want Santi please don't force Santi....!

the girl's cry broke the middle-aged woman's body in front of her tighter.

If that's your decision, mama can't force son, you can get out of there.

said the mother is still gently stroking the back of her beloved child.

It was still late afternoon when the girl stepped out of the boarding gate with a backpack on her back and a medium-sized suitcase on her right hand. entering a car that was parked on the side of the road waiting for the arrival of the owner before he drove a few minutes later.

the girl let out a long breath, the tightness still mounting in her heart, as if reluctant to leave despite the many times she had a deep sigh.

Allah is pleased with this hard decision, strengthen myself to make it through the hard days that I must pass, and strengthen me, I leave all my decisions to you, because I'm sure you'll never leave me.

tbc

My beloved Assalamualaikum readers..

may you always be healthy and in the protection of Allah SWT Aamiin. stay positive, stay healt yes even in the midst of a pandemic.

want to tell me if the author will make a story from "La Tahla do not complain "

stories about Santi and Fahri

I hope you like my readers.