KIRANA (SUPERNATURAL JOURNEY)

KIRANA POV

Late at night, I consecrated myself with ablution water intending to perform tahajud prayer continued with dhikr.

I sat down facing the Qibla. Start berpasbih reciting the phrase istigfar 'Athaghfirullah haladzim '.

I pacified my mind, I removed all things worldly to empty and concentrated on a heart that continued to be privileged.

Gradually all the senses were closed and focused on the heart that kept thinking. No sounds around you were heard.

Suddenly my whole body reacted. Like there's something crawling in every cell, like a tingling sensation all over the body but I'm sure it's not a tingling sensation.

The longer the more that crept and moved as if looking for a gap to get out. My spine also seemed to be attracted by something getting tighter, my body was like being fastened by a rope so tight that my bones seemed to hold firmly.

I was a little stiff and crumpled in concentration at the time. But then I tried to focus my mind back on one point - the heart.

Suddenly I saw someone dressed in white like a white negligee, his long hair covering the entire face of the figure. He was right behind me.

When I opened my eyes, with my heart pounding, I immediately looked back. There's nobody there. When I thought my eyes closed, but how I could see the figure through my heart, very clear even the closet and the entire position of the object behind me was clearly visible.

What is that called the inner eye? I don't know for sure right now I'm so scared.

Segara I got a cell phone. I contacted Ustadz Sahir by text message. Before he came home he told me that if something was bothering me during my recitation then I should contact him immediately.

I typed some chat on Ustadz Sahir saying what I saw from my inner eye.

A few minutes later my chat was answered. He said when mental dhikr with focus will indeed bring up supernatural figures that will disturb and disperse concentration.

CRYOG

A phone call from Ustadz Sahir, I immediately received the call.

" Assalamualaikum" said Ustadz Sahir.

" Wa'alaikum salute Ustadz. "I replied with trembling.

" Kirana, there's no need to be afraid of the figure that appears when you're thinking. Ustadz is monitoring you from here, believing nothing will happen" he said convincingly.

" But Ustadz.that figure is terrible, "my chimpanzee.

" Before dhikr plant it also in the heart. Lafadz Lahaula wala quwwata illa billahil aliyyil adzim means no strength and effort except by the power of Allah the Most High, the Most Great. " Ustadz Sahir.

" Our soul, life and death, we leave everything to Allah SWT. Never be afraid of anything, remember there is God with those who are remembering and praising His asthma. " The Further Ustadz.

" Okay Ustadz." I also calmed down a little to hear every explanation of Ustadz Sahir.

" As if you are exhausted. Later tomorrow continue again, now go to bed and rest " said Ustadz Sahir.

" It's okay. Yes, then go to sleep..Assalamualaikum says. "

" Greetings wa'alaikum. "

The phone connection was also cut off. Ustadz Sahir was right, it looks like I'm tired. I got up from sitting but, my legs seemed to be a bit cramped from sitting for almost an hour.

Maybe because I'm not used to sitting around . When you finish cleaning your face and prayer mats. I went to bed and lay down. No more fear, my heart was calmer. My eyes started to feel heavy and I fell asleep.

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The second day was not much different. I saw a large tall black figure right next to me while sitting in a dhikr.

I looked at her again when I closed my eyes. I don't fall asleep, let alone dream. Even my consciousness is full.

Unfortunately, I am still afraid every time I see a terrible figure who comes to disturb my worship. But this time I chose to continue my piety. I still feel strong and not sleepy.

I'm back to focusing my mind. What I heard were the voices of my heart that were reciting.

This time I felt something creeping all over my body. Move and keep moving following my blood flow. At one point, I began to feel sick.

I ran to the bathroom because I couldn't stand it.

" Hoek.hoek.." I threw up but nothing came out of my vomit.

After a bit of relief, I went back to the room and gulped down some water. Ustadz Sahir said, my ruqiyah reacted so that I vomited, spewing out impurities in my body (a gnawing creature in every cell of my body whose number was thousands. )

They have long been parasites in the human body. When people eat and drink, they enjoy it. Their number can be thousands if the owner of the body never cleanses himself (bathin).

So no wonder many people are easily ignited lust, exposed to liver disease, said dirty and as his. Such a man is only outwardly concerned without a care for the inner.

Such was Ustadz Sahir's explanation through a short message. Every time I think I always contact him and tell him what I feel when I think. From there Ustadz Sahir saw the progress of my dhikr, especially after I managed to spit out the dirt. His word is only part, there are many more that have not come out.

In addition to my mental being tested, my body was actually tested when thinking. But it's okay now little by little I'm starting to feel its efficacy. The heart begins to feel calm, there is no anxiety.

My body also feels lighter when walking, like hovering. I don't know how hard I'm gonna explain it. In addition I also began to be addicted to dhikr, his sense of dhikr was delicious even when I was active during the day even my heart was never separated to remember God. It's God I remember that I don't care about anything. Like being in love with someone who constantly misses and always wants to communicate. That is how I feel about the Khalik.

I enjoy the faith and Islam that I am only now aware of. My family and the people around me said there were many changes to me, his face exuded calmness and coolness.

But their praise did not make me soar, I realized instead that I was just a small fragment smaller than dust when compared with the Sainthood and Greatness of God.

I have nothing, not even this body, soul, my life and death belong only to God. None of mine.

I hope the next days are better. And I can escape the problems that have been plaguing me lately.