KEEPING SECRETS (CAN YOU?)

Eps. 79 Outrageous

Next day.

At Adli's and Safira's parents' house.

“Mah, why mom was cruel to Nabila last night.” Safira asked slowly and carefully.

“Wait a minute.” Safira answered her mother as she passed into her room. A few moments later he returned with a small agenda book. “This, you read everything. Mama actually does not know, if your brother is suffering, very suffering because of Nabila.” Obviously while giving the small agenda book to Safira.

Safira accepted it and opened it and read it.

“This is my sister's diary. I didn't know Adli was so melancholy like this.” Smile at Safira while starting to read.

Safira continued to read some of the leaves from Adli's diary. From there he can know all the contents of the heart that Adli never revealed.

“Oh, it turns out that my sister has been in love with Nabila since I first introduced her. But why didn't you ever tell me? My brother was very shy and closed. I thought my sister had just felt love but it turned out that my guess was wrong.”

Safira continued to read. She also knows the role of her brother who defended her when her parents did not approve of her marriage to Steven due to cultural differences and a myriad of other reasons that are not deacons.

Sapphira's tears trickled down, as she remembered her struggle for her parents' blessing. Steven who is a stranger tries hard to be accepted. But all the efforts made by the mentok find no way out other than a silent marriage without the blessing of Safira's parents.

Sheet after sheet Safira continued to read.

“Hey, this was written three months ago. And this writing is much longer than the other brother's writing.” Safira said enthusiastically.

I'm writing again here.

Today I saw Nabila so beautiful. Even very pretty. I don't know every time I meet her I feel like I see the most beautiful angel. But I can only admire him. I dare not have it. This dividing wall seemed to grow thicker and higher blocking me from expressing my feelings.

If only I were as brave as Sapphira.

If only I wasn't as caring as Safira.

But I can't. I don't want to sin against your will.

I never told my mom, either. But I once asked my mother about the daughter-in-law she wanted.

And my mama just said, a woman who will be your soul mate must be a girl, not a widow, not a cheap woman who gives her body because of seduction and money.

Mama told me, I have to marry a girl who is clear who her parents are, how they seek fortune to provide for her family. It is not a girl who is not clear who her parents are, and the treasure obtained by her parents is from a path that God does not desire.

The point is my mama said her weights, seeds and bebet should be clear and measurable. And the most important thing is one tribe, and religion.

This is what makes me always hesitant to express my feelings to Nabila, even though I really want to express it.

Perhaps my love will not clap one hand, or maybe my love will not be avenged. I don't know, because I haven't told anyone about my feelings, including Sapphira. Let only you and I know. Until now I have been happy enough to see Nabila, guard and protect him.

One month ago, I was about to be betrothed to one of her friend's daughters mama. If I'm not mistaken, her name is Naginisa. From the photo offered honestly I said she was very beautiful, my heart was tempted to accept the matchmaking.

But...

If it's about mistress Josephira I'll praise her as high as the sky. Thanks to him, Nabyakan can pursue his career again in the world of entertainment homeland. Thanks to her too, her husband is willing to fund some of my film projects starring Nabila. Even two months ago, Nabila who wants to step down from the world of entertainment and become a businessman got tremendous help from mistress Josephira.

But, once again Nabila saved my life and my heart. Because of him I became aware of Naginisa's temperament. Even if only once they meet.

That's where I'm trying to figure out who Naginisa is. And from my efforts to find information, I found that Naginisa who will be betrothed to me, is a very wild and very mysterious person. Despite having punished his family by not being given a living in order to change, but he remained with his wildness.

According to the information I got, Naginisa there was a maniac**, even a colleague who had played with him said he would no longer repeat even though Naginisa was naked in front of him.

Hehe... Is this the wife-to-be my mother offered? Which said mama is very clear weight, seedlings and bebetnya it?

But let it be, I have now rejected the match. And thank goodness my mother wanted to understand the reason for my refusal. Of course I'm not telling you who Naginisa is, because I don't want to expose someone's disgrace. Even that person I didn't know in person except for a photo and a name.

Aahs.. I'm tired of all this.

I am tired of all my doubts.

Do I have to be like Sapphira?

Do I have the heart to make my mother cry, like when Sapphira was married to Steven?

Aah. I'm tired. I don't know until when I can only be an admirer of Nabila?

I just want Nabila to be my wife. And I hope you want to change your view about weights, seeds and bebet.

Safira closed the diary. Then looked at his mother who was still sitting coldly in front of him.

“Mah, brother is gone. He loves Nabila mah so much, they will not be able to unite in marriage.  But why did you do that yesterday? As if everything was Nabila's fault?” Ask Safira.

“You're how, he's the one who made Adli feel tormented for loving him in silence. Made Adli refuse the matchmaking I offered. Of course I'm mad at Nabila!” Answer mom hard.

“But this is written brother has written who Naginisa is, and why brother does not also want to be open and forthright about his feelings both on mom and on Nabila. Because brother wants to keep don't let mama or Nabila get hurt.” Safira. His breath now felt hunting and his chest seemed to want to explode because of the reason given by his mother. “Kakak wants Nabila as his wife, but he wants the certainty of mama to be able to accept a Nabila who was raised in an orphanage since childhood and never knew who his parents were. Brother does not want if Nabila is willing to be his wife then mama refused him on the grounds of weights, seeds and bebet as mamah always say.”

“Halah, you always want to fight with mama. Remember yes, until this moment mom still does not want to admit Steven you are as your daughter-in-law. And now you lecture mama? You are a bad boy. Unlike your brother!”

“Loh, how come to me anyway?! We are now discussing the treatment of my mother and the reasons that you used to expel Nabila. Brother has clearly written here, brother does not want to see mom crying and sister hopes mommy wants to change attitude at least a little about the criteria for a mate for brother. That'sthat's all. Why did he run to me.”

“Mama doesn't care. Anyway mama doesn't want to see her name Nabila. Because mama only wants your sons to be friends and mingle with clear and dignified circles only.”

“A clear and dignified road? Like Naginisa? Did you read the real reason why you refused the matchmaking you proposed?”

“Already, but mama is sure of the clear weights, seeds and bebet, a Naginisa will definitely turn out to be good after becoming mama's daughter-in-law.”

Safira was confused as to what else to say. He could only pat his own forehead hearing the reason his mother had so outrageous looking at the social status of others.

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