JUST HUG ME FOR A SECOND
LET ME GO
His father had completely changed, as today his father came to visit England. He came to bring a lot of souvenirs from Indonesia. Evan looked ordinary, nothing special. Even Evan never wanted to every time Vishnu invited him home during the semester holidays. Evan always refused for various reasons. This was the only effort Vishnu could make to apologize and persuade Evan back, even though it seemed futile. Evan was always quiet and didn't say much.
"See this. Your mother prepared this for you. He said he was afraid you wouldn't eat well here. Papa already..," said his father disconnected.
"Bah, I went to college first" said Evan flatly and impressed not to care about his father's arrival. His father fell silent, gulping down his bitter-tasting saliva.
He stared at the departure of his son with a pushy look full of guilt and sin, with the souvenirs he brought was still in a state of wrapping, he had not been opened.
***
Evan's been to his college all day. He left his father at his home alone waiting for him. Every time his father came smiling and rose to look at the open door as if it was his son back. But it wasn't. He had to swallow the bitter pill, if in reality he was late for the pardon from Evan.
***
Evan still doesn't come home. He tidied up the room, arranged the messy items and went to the mini market to shop, but Evan did not come home either. The boy was punishing his father.
To expel to his boss he read Evan's books that are mostly English-speaking. Until his father fell asleep in Evan's bed. Evan still hasn't come home, until the clock shows at 10 p.m.
Suddenly the door was opened, it was Evan. With a tired face he stepped into his room. There was already his father who was asleep in his bed with one of his books in his hands. He spent his time reading and cleaning up all day. It looks like the room is more tidy than before.
Evan looked at his father with a cold look. He immediately cleaned himself in the bathroom. After he finished, he immediately picked up his pillow and blanket then he fell asleep on the long sofa.
When Evan was asleep his father woke up, he found Evan had fallen asleep on the sofa. He looked at that handsome blaster face. He sat down in front of the sleeping Evan. How much he wanted to talk to this son, but maybe he was too angry that he always avoided this father. He rubbed his son's head with a sad look.
"You still mad, son? Be good. Papa's coming home tomorrow. Be careful in people's country, son." Father said. Before leaving, he fixed Evan's blanket, then he immediately slept again in Evan's bed.
Early in the morning his father packed up, he was preparing to return to Indonesia. Evan who just finished bathing saw his father who was packing. There was a feeling of pity in his heart, but it was immediately on his banks. They hurt him all his life, why should he not bear to them, he thought again, which again hardened his heart.
"Papa go home first. There is a rendang made by mama, there is also your favorite sauce made by Minah. In the bag there is a snack for you. Take care of your health. Papa yesterday had to go to the mini market to buy fruit, at a meal, yes. If you are sick here no one takes care of it. Learn not to take the night. Well in the land of people, do not make trouble," advised his father, Evan just silent, for a moment he stopped his activities. He was stunned, gulped his bitterly swallowed saliva, his heart began to feel sliced. His eyes and heart ached to the point of making his eyes teary. The moment Evan regained his senses, he immediately turned his gaze away. His youthful ego immediately covered up that feeling. He went back to being cold. Without saying anything, he immediately started to put on his clothes to immediately go to take his father to the airport.
...***...
They've reached the airport. Many times his father looked at him, but Evan was indifferent as if he did not know. He wants to chat with his son before leaving, but Evan keeps pairing his headset. It makes him unable to talk to Evan.
Until his call of departure arrived, his father had to leave now. He immediately took his bag, before leaving he tightly hugged his son. Evan was silent, even though he felt the warmth of the embrace. Again his ego is too strong for now.
"Papa go home, take good care of yourself, yes," said his father once again before leaving.
Then Vishnu left. Before he entered, he waved his hand at Evan, Evan just stared at him flatly without replying to the wave.
After his father left Evan sat down and bowed, at once his cry that had been sober earlier he was resistant broke. Her heart hurt so much, she somehow felt so sick with all this.
If his father had been so old, he would not have behaved this way. Alienated her for years and only now does her father show her care. Why do they all always torture him, why he can not be separated from the family. Why did he still give a place to the father who had ignored him all this time. Even the man never looked at her once as his son when he was little, alienating her in a secluded place from his sight. It was as bad as her father was to her, but it was still hard for her to hate.
"Why now, why are you late. Why Papa? Why?" his sobbing continued to hold his face on the waiting bench of the airport.
After being content to express everything with her cry, she immediately went home. Along the way he thought of his father. Was he wicked to do this, but were they not also evil. Why can't he repay them. Why was his heart so weak, even to throw away his feelings that had never been considered all along he was unable to. Evan closed his eyes with his left hand on the taxi and cried again.
...***...
Arriving at the house Evan opened all his father's luggage from Indonesia, all his favorite. What he always hoped for was at his dining table first. Now everything is available in front of him. He stared at it all, he opened it and started eating it. The food he had not eaten for 1 year.
He swallowed the food like a sharp pebble that hurt his throat, he ate it with tears in his eyes. He couldn't stand it and came back with his prank again.
"Papa you're late, Pah, you're too late ... You're late, Pah ...," he murmured in between his sobs.
...***...
After that every day his father always called him to ask him news, although more often not in his adoptive even if he only answered briefly. Even more silence. Only her father sounded persuasive and told her everything, while Evan looked ordinary. Even so, Vishnu still tried to take the heart of his son.
...***...
It does not feel 4 years have passed, Evan managed to finish his studies until the MBA. All the family members welcomed his graduation with joy. Syahila is now married, she already has a son and she is with her husband living in Singapore. And now his special MBA graduation Evan, he's trying to come to the family. Because of S1 Evan's time he can't come.
The joy of the day made everyone tired, after the graduation ceremony they immediately ate together at one of the luxury restaurants there. Everyone unceasingly praised the success of Evan who graduated with such a highly satisfactory grade.
"So the lecturers, the professors at Evan's all, they said you were great. And there's even something you work with them. But why did you refuse?" ask Tama.
"I want to work where I like" said Evan with a flat face and without looking at Tama, as if he was thinking about something else. His soul is not with his family at this time.
"Eh work in England is a big salary, you know!" tama. Evan only answered with a cold smile just a pleasantries, with a glass of wine in his hand and immediately in his throat to just warm his body that feels cold because of the midwinter weather.
Their family conversation lasted quite a long time. Until they finished, they immediately returned to the hotel. Evan's family rented a star hotel for their place to stay.
Evan looked uninspired from just now, he seemed to be thinking of something. Shahila approached him.
"Why you?" ask Syahila. Evan nodded slowly.
"Why are you quiet?" ask Shahila again.
"There was nothing" Evan replied, leaving Shahila.
"I want to go out for a while" said Evan while taking his thick jacket, because out there the snow is falling it makes the temperature to minus the cold horn.
Shahila remained silent in her seat. He felt Evan was hiding something from them. Because he looks not cheerful like those who have succeeded. What else did he graduate with the best grades. Evan seemed to think it meant nothing.
...***...
Early in the morning they are shocked by Evan who suddenly disappears from his room. His father searched for him from his college, his old residence. And asking some of his friends, they all didn't know where Evan was.
Until his father is tired of looking for him, while the plane they stay a few hours away.
"Udah, pah. We're staying with Evan. He may need some time to make his own," said Tama, trying to give understanding to his father who seemed devastated.
"He can never forgive papah, Tam. Whatever Papah does he won't be sorry, papah. That's why he's gone!" lirih Vishnu with her broken cries in the hotel room.
Rima Tama's mother just fell silent to see her husband who was quite hit. He also felt guilty for everything that happened. But what can be done, Evan can not be prevented anymore.
"Already, pah. Evan is calm. Evan's going home. We just pray this is him to be okay," said Syahila. "Actually Evan said goodbye to Shahila this morning, but Syahila could not prevent him. Because he insisted on leaving. She say... He needs time, pah. Let him go first, "persuade Syahila.
Her father's crying broke. So hard-hearted was his son, he could not give her the chance to love her son properly.
Vishnu sitting in the middle of the streets of London, Tama hugged his father, he knew his father really wanted to improve his relationship with his sister, but maybe Evan's young soul hardened his ego at this time.
Finally his father could be calmer after hearing the explanation of Shahila. He tried to stop Evan. He will wait for Evan to return, until Evan comes home and gives him a chance to fix everything.
SERIATE...
