Junna and Rhine

13-2

The sky today is so dark and clumped with clouds Cumulus signifies the change of autumn that will soon pass replaced by winter. The white dots began to fall down touching the hospital windows. Apparently the snowflakes were impatient to greet with the icy cold. Junna appeared weakly leaning on the sofa in the practice room where Shine with her cheeks reddish from tears.

"Don't torture yourself Junna, too much" Shine's voice carrying Junna's favorite can of warm lemonade made Junna look up at Shine a little.

"Thank you.." With a slightly trembling hand he grabbed and immediately opened the canned drink and drank it hoping that his mood calmed down a little.

Shine was surprised when her practice hours were over, suddenly Junna came and hugged her tightly. Her crying broke unbearably. Never once thought that his cheerful and colorful sister suddenly turned gray uncontrollably. What makes him feel hurt and disappointed? He let her go for a moment so that Junna could vent all her tears. Until his stepbrother became a little calm like now.

"Sister..., why do I feel that God is unfair to me?" Junna stared blankly at Shine's practice room door. "Why do I want and expect to find it difficult while others find it so easy?"

"Hush, you can't say that Junna," Tegur Shine subtly.

"All my best friends have found their soul mates and some of them are married and will get married in the near future,” Junna trying not to cry, but the pressure of tightness in his chest that tends to feel sore forced him to let out his tears again. “While my romance didn't go smoothly. It used to be Ega and now Rhine! Eight years old Brother Shine, eight years I waited and was patient to reach for my love, but what happened? Her mother Rhine so did not want me to be by her son's side just because..” Junna could not continue his words because Ashiya's request was so hurt that he could not repeat the story.

“Junna..,”

“What is wrong with me? Why should I be faced with this trivial problem?!” Junna's voice suddenly shot up and turned hysterical and frustrated. “Do I not deserve my love and be happy about it?!”

“Hey, will you listen to a story?” Shine clasped Junna's hands together and sat down to rely on her knees as her pedestal. “A story about a child who had to face the divorce of his parents because it turns out that the father of the child had never loved his mother. His father regretted that he had sacrificed his fiancee who was willing to give up so that the father and mother of the child were united considering that his father would be engaged to him for the recovery of his mother who suffered from chronic illness. The mother had tried her best not to divorce her husband for the sake of the child, but the feeling could not be forced so that divorce still occurred. Not long since the divorce, his mother's illness relapsed causing him to leave his child for good while his father married the woman who had been his fiancee and gave birth to a beautiful daughter and a pair of twin male angels who are now becoming my sisters..” Shine smiled overtime and hooked Junna's long hair bangs behind the girl's ears. The man was just trying to dampen the trembling he was experiencing when recounting his past.

“Kak...,” Junna was surprised by the reality told by Shine. He did not expect that there was such a polemic happening to his family because everything seemed fine. Shine is very familiar with her Mama who incidentally is a stepmother to her. Her brother loved her and her two sisters very much. Is this karma for him who has been happy and abundant in love and affection from both parents over the suffering of children who are sad because of the loss of a full family? It is fitting that he faces the same dilemma of his love for Rhine involving his mother.

Lord, if so please forgive the sins and ignorance of Your servant...

“Does Brother blame all fate?” Shine shook her head then continued her words. “No Junna, Sister does not blame anyone. Even Brother loves you so much and our twin sisters. Brother assume that the test is to make Brother become a tough person to be able to reach the hopes and ideals of Brother to become a doctor that is calculated here.” He wiped Junna's tears. “So, no matter what happens, there will still be Brother, Papa, Mama Nadia, Izer, and Isar who are always there and will hug you in any condition.”

“Sister Shine,” Junna hugged Shine tightly while continuing to cry. “I'm sorry that I never understood the feelings of a lonely and hurt Brother. Forgive me for feeling that I suffered the most when Brother Shine may have been more injured than I.., I'm sorry Brother.”.

“Already..., already....,” Shine rubbed Junna's back and occasionally patted to calm her down. “God is the Supreme Court of Junna and you must not doubt it in the least. But sometimes we as human beings forget that the justness of the Owner is different and infinite in proportion to the finite human mind. Believe that He will not test His servant with a test that His servant cannot pass. I'm sure you can get through this and once you get through it, in one snap of a finger, happiness will welcome you unceasingly like Big Brother who has a stepmother whose good is amazingly dear to Sister and sisters who are annoying but very dear Brother like you, Izer and Isar.”

“Iya Kak,” Junna nodded on Shine's shoulder where she shed tears. He made a promise to himself and made the determination that whatever decision he made was the best for everyone. If anyone is hurt, enough will he feel it and will try to pass it to achieve the happiness that awaits him. It's okay, everything will be fine Junna.., everything will be fine! it is repeated many times to calm and reassure yourself and the heart.

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