Jodokku Regantara's

Chapter 34

"Perse me Re."

Bak in the sambar of hundreds of daggers, Regan was stunned to the point of standing up from her seat. Regan could not believe the words came out of the little lips of the wife he loved the most. On the basis of what invites separation even though there is no dispute.

Regan mutely digested Kaira's words by staring at the wife who was now standing in a cold manner. I want it to feel like Regan snapped and cursed Kaira who spoke carelessly. But not until the heart even pinched it Regan did not want.

Kaira is like a gemstone that she guards, her heart and body are precious. Let alone to say rude, just silence if not outrageous he is very reluctant. And in this second his world seemed to stop. The word made Regan's heart throb pain.

Actually, not only Regan was sick, Kaira was holding back tears and fortifying herself with a cold attitude to make her look stronger. He could not survive the circumstances of himself that always disappoint.

Kaira understands very well Regan must hope there is a baby cry in the middle of her small family. But he did not complete happiness. People say not yet windfall, but he will be very selfish if he continues to survive and ask Regan to continue to be patient.

The seeds that are expected do not grow because of her problems that have not been healed. Ikhtiar and prayer are always offered, but patience does not want to end painfully because it continues to hope.

"Pull that word!" lirih Regan with tears that are already in the eye pelupuk. Trouble he tried to say so that the word divorce as soon as possible. Regan's chest was so tight, seeing Kaira's expression that she smiled instead.

"Why? Why should I take my words again? What do you expect from this wedding? And what made me survive. Open your eyes, I can't be a perfect woman. I can't be the paradise you've always missed. And I'm not fertile on condition of finding a wife."

"But I accept and am happy living with you Kaira, I married you because I love you not because it is purely worldly. Don't ever think of anything and doubt my love Kaira! My love is sincere without any hope. If there were no children among us, I would keep this marriage until we grow old. And you're still the perfect woman in my eyes, the paradise I've always longed for so long as I don't stay out of the house."

"Please, baby, don't talk like that. I'm sure something's bothering you, tell me! Say whatever you complain about! My ears are perfect when able to listen to my wife's complaints, my shoulders are firm for you to make a backrest in a moment of restless heart. Whatever you want me to do, just don't break up as long as you want. Because I can't do it, baby!"

With Regan slowly stepping closer, the tears of the two began to fall as Regan's words and expressions deepened.

Regan pulls Kaira into a hug, both sobbing with a messy heart. New words alone have been very painful in the sense, what if Kaira really insists on wanting to escape from a marriage that so makes her feel very happy.

"I failed Re...Hix....Hix....I failed at being a mother! I give up Re, I don't want to always let you down. I don't want to make you always hope." In Regan's arms, Kaira sobs. Very comfortable but he does not want to continue to be a burden.

"Ssttt.....I'm not disappointed baby, seeing you healthy and smiling just makes you happy. Precisely if you are like this I will be disappointed, very disappointed, do not mention the word separation!"

"But as a wife I don't want to be selfish Re, I know as a husband you expect the presence of a baby. Moreover, your parents are so expecting the first grandchild in their family. How many years do they have to wait for Re to take grandchildren from us? What more reason should they not keep asking every meeting? You forbid me to be honest!" Kaira stretched out her arms, looking at Regan with a wet and sad face.

"Take me Re....You are healthy, you are not troubled, you can remarry with a fertile woman and be able to give a lot of children! and Mama and Daddy are sure to be happier."

Regan shook her head at Kaira's words. He did not allow Kaira to say anything else to grant her request. Even if he pleads he will not follow.

"Calm down! I'll be back once you can think clearly." Regan doesn't want to talk much anymore, she prefers to go and give Kaira time to think. Regan took off the hug and turned around with tears coming back.

Kaira stared at the sturdy back nanar that was slowly moving away. His heart was unbearable but he was self-aware of his shortcomings.

"If you don't want to split up, marry another woman!"

Regan's steps came to a halt, her ears so hot hearing Kaira's ridiculous request for her. Regan's two hands clenched tightly, not to marry another woman. Staring at women who are not mahramnya out there, Regan was reluctant and always lowered his head when temptation came. Regan didn't answer, she put her foot back out of the room. Leaving Kaira who was now pouring to the floor with a sob.

"Sorry Re...."