JODI's Desire (Jomblo Died)

63. Cidros

...Happy Reading's...

The cold night wind and the streets in the steep hills do not make a Broto Suseno tremble to pass through.

Although it seems only Broto's car is still passing this hour and still dare to pass some wilderness areas along the way to the city.

" Aishis... Tau gini I just postpone the idea of the child, what if the state of Gendhis is severe? its durability is weak when pregnant, haduh... Sorry I left her."

It was as if a thousand regretful words could not describe his feelings of sadness. The wound in his heart now seemed to be replaced with a huge sense of worry.

" I should not obey my ego for just a moment, naturally he still can not completely forget the Panji, because it is I who entered their relationship, but it cannot be denied, he said, my heart ached when I saw their closeness!"

Along the way Broto cursed and blamed himself. Sometimes he often realized that he was wrong, but the desire to have Gendhis seemed to defeat his regret, because without it he would not be able to get close to Gendhis until now, even though the reality is even close to him as if still not considered, but at least he can look at the face of the woman he admires even though sometimes there is hatred.

" May Gendhis and my baby be safe, and may nothing bad happen with them... I can't forgive myself if they're up to anything, because my struggle all this time would have been in vain." Broto tried to think positively, so that he could continue to drive his car smoothly.

Sometimes love is indeed blind, although repeatedly he is rejected but always trying to continue to accept, without thinking about the pain of the wound that has been scratched in him.

And Broto always covered his grief with a look of indifference and whimper, because he didn't like to be pityed on people and he just wanted himself to know how his grief and struggle were.

Even tired and tired during the trip he did not feel, just at the location Camping Broto had not had time to rest, even his stomach was not filled with anything but mineral water.

But his anxiety seemed to have been able to block his empty stomach, so that the hunger was not felt by Broto.

Until finally Broto's car has arrived in the courtyard of the hospital belonging to the family of Gendhis, because without asking Broto know, it is certain that Gendhis will be treated there, in addition to the doctor who handles the development of his pregnancy there, gendhis room has been designed as a private room, so it is certainly comfortable even if you have to stay for days in the hospital.

Broto got there almost midnight, he even walked hastily to his wife's nursery, if running did not bother any other patients maybe Broto had done it, but he was also a doctor, too, who should not sacrifice another patient for personal matters.

Arriving at the door of the room, Broto immediately stopped his steps, because he heard the voice of Gendhis was chatting with his mother because the door of the room was not tightly closed.

" Thank God, my wife is fine!" Broto could have been a little calmer, but when he wanted to go in and see her in person, his legs were again fixed in place, the smile that had been expanding now slowly receded when he heard his wife's curses to his own biological mother.

" What kind of husband tried Broto was buk, his wife was sick because she was pregnant with her child she went somewhere!"

The voice of Gendhis sounded very upset, but from now on he continued to wait for Broto's arrival to just stroke his stomach, so that the fetus in his stomach was not acting up and made his stomach feel cramped.

But because Broto never came, as if Gendhis vented all his hatred that he felt first, even though actually now he has begun to accept Broto and even began not to be able to if not see him.

Indeed, he just did not realize it, because his obsession from the beginning was only Panji, so even though his heart had changed course, his mind was still obsessed with the name of Panji, Panji and Panji.

" Maybe Broto is having business, son, the important thing is that your stomach is better, right?" Gendhis mother tried to calm her upset daughter.

" Mom imagine, what if this child was born, and he fussed on crying, surely Broto would not care, he would do without my permission, but I must be tormented for what he did, I hate him so much buk, hate it!"

The groaning of a Gendhis was heard clearly in Broto's ear, making his regret even more piled up.

" Later mom find some babysitters to take care of your child, so you don't have to worry?"

" Look, I won't want to suck this kid!"

" Gendhis, can't you say that, son? the baby's food is only the best, pity her later."

" Let his father take care of him, I have sacrificed much for him, cooking was born even though I was still tormented by him!" The real Gendhis was only disappointed with his life journey.

Oh my God, even when not yet born your mama has hurt your heart son, forgive papa son, hopefully at birth later you become a strong baby huh son.

Broto closed his eyes, for some reason his heart was so sore when he heard what Gendish said this time.

" Gendhis, you can't say that, son, that boy's trust, that kid's sustenance, a lot of people out there who want to have a baby but have a hard time getting it, so if you are given the ease you should be grateful, do not be like this, like the child in your stomach, he must be sad when he heard the words of his mother like that."

As a mother who had conceived and given birth to two children, the mother of Gendish also knew very well what it was like.

" Mommy doesn't know what it's like to be me, being abused by people, even when they're unconscious, getting pregnant all of a sudden, a marriage that's been in front of them just fails, and a much-loved husband-to-be married to his own biological grandfather, try mom in my position, it hurts so much to know!" It was as if Gendhis had taken out all his junk that night.

" Mom understands, but this has happened son and all is beyond our control, but the fetus that is in your womb is innocent son, he is holy has not been tarnished any, he is holy has not been stained, so don't you treat him cruelly."

" But I hope he's not her father's buk."

" His father's problem, if indeed you can't accept it until this child is born, that's your right, mother will not forbid you if indeed you can't stand it, she said, but let your son be born safe first, son."

" But buk, I'm ..." Gendhis still wants to talk from heart to heart, and express his feelings about Broto, but it seems like his mother is no longer willing to hear him.

" Have you been given medicine, right? It's almost midnight, you have to rest, later your stomach cramps again if most stay up."

" Buk... But me and Broto...?"

" Rest, don't think about anything, tomorrow we'll discuss their problems."

" Yes, yeah."

" One message mom, no matter how much you hate her father, do not sacrifice the fetus in your womb, or when she is born later, try you in the position of the child, he said, sad not you, he too if you can be in the love of choice do not want to be in his position as an unwanted child, understand you Ndis?"

" Yes Buk."

Gendhis immediately poured down his body and his mother immediately helped envelop his daughter's body.

" I'm sorry Ndis, I'm not scolding you, I also understand your sadness, but I'm sure you can definitely get through this, who is patient, son, mom and Dad will always be there for you."

Gendhis mother rubbed his daughter's hair and smashed her forehead, she was not even the real heart.

The heart of an unharmed mother sees her daughter as unhappy, but she must remain strong, so that her daughter feels protected and has a place to take shelter from the thick of the test of life.

" Rest yes, the mother is in the next room, if there is anything to call the mother yes, the mother's body is old, if not the waist drop feels like it wants to be dislodged."

In the special room was deliberately made two rooms, one for the patient's room, and another for a family rest area that was waiting for him not to fall because he had to stay up late and sleep less as well.

" Hmm.."

Gendhis immediately nodded his head and slept sideways, because since his stomach began to enlarge, he was more comfortable sleeping on his side.

For some reason Broto's legs seemed to relax when he heard the mother and child's curses, his body slumped instantly and sat on the floor leaning against the wall of the room.

" I'm sorry, Genthis, it turns out that I've really become a burden in your life."

Broto closed his eyes with grief, only this time he felt very guilty, because there was one life that knew nothing but had to be injured because of his actions.

For almost half an hour he sat on the floor and hid his head between his legs.

Slowly he sat down on the edge of the bed, and began to move his hands to gently rub the belly of Gendhis.

" I'm sorry papa son, because papa you've become hated by mama."

Without Broto noticing that his tears were just melting away, maybe only this time did he shed his tears because of someone else, he said, but at this time his heart was so hurt that Gendhis seemed to hate his son so much that he did not even want to breastfeed his son when he was born.

" Please don't hate papa, son, when you're born and growing up."

Broto rained the ketchup in Gendhis's stomach and stuck his head there, as if to hear the answer from his future son.

" If your mother is so tormented because of your father, now you are willing to leave her life, son."

Broto rubbed his still-dripping tears, as if searching for strength from his remaining self.

" Let you go while you are, son, when you are born, you will pick you up secretly, because you are not wrong son, papa is wrong, papa is wrong, so you don't have to accept punishment from your mama. You must live happily, even if not with your mother."

" Papa will do whatever you can as long as you can feel the warmth of a mother's love."

" If your real mama can't accept you, you better not see it, we go as far as we can, son, we're looking for happiness both of us, son."

" But please son, as long as you're still in your mama's womb, don't hurt your mama, son, you always complain and hurt."

" You're healthy, baby, after you get out, we're both not gonna bother your mama anymore, okay, baby?"

Broto's tears were flowing more and more, even wetting Gendhis's clothes as he chatted a lot with his future son.

" Josh..."

Finally Broto sighed slowly, trying to calm down and strengthen his heart.

After starting to calm down, Broto then took a black card with a gold-colored chip, or people often call it an elite card for sultans.

When he saw a book on the table, he took the initiative to leave a message for Gendhis, so that he could read it when he woke up.

Gende...

Maybe I was there for you because of a mistake and even my presence made your life fall apart.

I see, you always want to stay away so that I feel saturated, but you forget one thing; the feeling of being born is not to be killed.

But for your happiness I am willing to go..

Not that I want to stay away, but just that you want to know. Not change, but just want you to be sensitive if I'm tired.

You don't have to stay away. Stay that way, 'cause I know how to walk backwards.

However, if later the sand where you stand goes swallowed by the waves, I am the ocean that will hug your beach tightly.

When the time comes, I will come back, not to meet you or to add a wound to your heart, I will only take my flesh and blood.

You can hate me You can do anything with me, but not with my son.

You just need to give birth to her into the world, if you do not accept it, do not worry, you only need to hear her cry for the first time, when your eyes open later you will not see her again.

Although this is difficult, but please forgive me and use this card to finance all your needs during the pregnancy of my son.

If you really want us to separate, when the time comes, I will definitely grant it for your happiness.

Goodbye, healthy Ndhis, take my son. I hope that my departure will be the beginning of your happiness.

With tears in his eyes, Broto put down a piece of paper with a message for Gendhis and placed a blackcard on it.

C U P's

Before Broto steps away, he accidentally leaves one parting kiss in the tiny aunt.

" I love you, Ndis, whenever it is."

Then with a heavy heart Broto went out of the room, leaving behind all the memories that had happened between them.

Broto realized he was wrong, that's why he chose to leave, because he did not want to add injuries and burdens in the heart of the wife.

Throughout the story of his journey as a player, only this time Broto felt what is called CIDRO.

..."Everything changes, inevitably. Everyone must be separated, not wanting to. It's all over, ready unprepared."...

..."Farewell exists, so that we may cherish a meeting."...