JODI's Desire (Jomblo Died)

27. Dupus

...Happy Reading's...

Pov Genphis

I slowly dragged my heavy legs together, stepping from the place where the crown I had been guarding for decades as a woman just disappeared, only a stain, which will never be lost in my entire life.

Dismissed was all my sweet hopes and fantasies about a scream, the night of marriage with my future husband, later, also I hope to hear my future husband's voice say thank you for being the first person to fully touch me.

And even more bitter, will my future husband be able to accept me when he can not be the first?

That is the loss of a woman, she will be easily known if it is not a virgin, another case with a man, he will be known, want him to repeatedly do it also no one will know that he is no longer a virgin.

After I ordered a sweater with one of the hotel employees, I walked slowly down the hotel ballroom, but there were only a few staff who were cleaning the place from the remnants of Sita's party last night.

No wonder they didn't look for me, since I had met them first and congratulated them, they must have thought I was enjoying this party, because it was indeed a very spacious place and filled with invited guests.

Now to just turn on my phone I'm afraid, last night maybe Broto deliberately turned it off, not only my family, but Panji mas also must have repeatedly contacted me, because from a long time ago I never stayed outside and until now I have not found the right answer for them.

I am confused about how and what to do, today I am on vacation, even I have made an agreement with Mas Panji, but all are no longer the same, but all are no longer the same, although I can lie to Panji mas about it, but my heart can not lie, that I was very hurt by this incident, maybe so with Panji mas if you know it, even if not because I want to, that I have to, but as a man, he will be very disappointed.

There is no place to go but my own home, although it feels heavy I keep my feet up to go home, at least my home is the safest and most comfortable place for me right now.

" Good morning, miss." Security that opened the gate for me.

" Hmm.." Even to speak, I seem incapable.

" Let me park your car, miss, please just go inside the house, last night Miss Queen is also the master and the big lady looking for you, maybe they've been waiting for Miss Gendhis inside now."

My guess turned out to be true, they must have frantically searched for me last night, let alone my phone was off, Oh my God?

But if I'm honest right now it won't fix things, everything has happened, and Broto's threats don't seem to be playing games, if he's all exposed on social media, my name will be destroyed first, likewise with my big family name and even the name of my family hospital will be smeared later.

" Miss...Miss Gendhis?" That security voice returned to awaken my long daydream.

" Yes. later I enter sir, I want to sit first in the park next to sir, want to breathe the air first morning."

" Nice miss."

I chose to sit in the garden chair, accompanied by fallen leaves, as if to describe myself who had withered, and not as fresh as before.

Only sunlight now seemed to accompany me, warming my body even my broken-headed heart was not still.

If only it ran through my brain, if it were all Panji mas, I wouldn't be this bad, maybe I would be willing or at least if Broto hadn't done this, because there are still many good doctors but why should he? but if the doctor was good, he wouldn't have done this to me.

" Aargha!"

All of a sudden I wanted to scream, to vent my frustration this morning, I wanted to feel like I was protesting, but to whom?

If I am angry with God, do I deserve it? yet I am often negligent in carrying out His commandments.

" Geez brother Gendhis sugar java! brother here apparently? what from last night? is brother locked out? but is there a security guy there? we all panic nyariin brother knows, especially Mr Panji, repeatedly he called me, to the heat of my ears, tired also my mouth is saying that I do not know where brother? why is my phone not active? we even went to the hotel where the party took place, but it's disbanded?"

All my sister's questions are getting worse, wanting to feel like I'm shedding tears of sadness here, but I'm afraid that they'll be more worried.

" Sister, woi... Why did you have a sister? brother where was last night? I should've told the house people if I didn't go home, so we weren't freaking out, sister?" The queen again bombarded many questions for me.

" Eherm.. Last night brother didn't feel well deck."

" Why don't you go home?"

" Sister was afraid of not being strong driving later, so brother stayed at the hotel."

" God...why not say, if you are not strong nyetir can say the same to me, although with a heavy heart also I will definitely pick up brother, or call Mr. Panji, have a boyfriend for what, for what, cooking is of no use?" He always does, if he talks as he pleases.

" Sister's phone runs out of deck battery, forgot not to bring powerbank too, besides brother fell asleep afterwards."

That's the only reason I have right now, my head is already too dizzy thinking about Broto's depraved behavior.

" Yamaaaaaa!"

Suddenly there was a screaming sound from the direction of the fence, a voice that I always missed every night, maybe even every time, but this time it was as if his voice made my heart taste bitter.

" Wuidiiih..gercep also tuh lecturer, early in the morning already here aja?"

The Queen again chatted, I know Panji mas is the lecturer that she does not like the most on Campus, it is certain that she will curse Panji mas like that.

" Dear, are you okay?"

My beloved man ran to hold me and carried my head into his arms, it was clear he was so worried, I was so grateful that he was with me.

But when I think back to what Broto did last night, I feel unbearable with Mas Panji, such a good person, as sincere in loving me, he said, should get the rest of Broto's br€ngs€k's.

" Hiks. hyks.."

" Dear, is anyone sick? why are you crying?"

I was really unable to hold back my tears, when I was in the arms of Panji mas, especially when I felt a warm feeling from his body, even his hands did not stop wiping my head.

" I'm sorry, I'm sorry." The guilt returned and haunted me.

" Why are you even apologizing? where's that sick, baby? do we need to see a doctor now?"

" Woi.. He is also a doctor, Mr. Panji! how the hell is the title, basic lecturer bucin."

They argue again, it is like that when they met, but I cried for fear of disappointing Panji mas, not because of illness.

" Down, I'll take a break first, I'm a little unwell, maybe catch a cold."

" Your pants are wearing this kind of jacket?"

He hugged me again, leaning back my head that was heavy this time, even though I was wearing the jacket because I wanted to cover the former aunt of the man b*ngs*t who had dared to stain me.

" I'm sorry, I can't seem to go out with the mas today, I'm sorry I let you down."

" It's okay, baby, you never let me down, right you're sick, try mas last night nemenin you, definitely won't be like this right?"

Again he did not scold me when I had repeatedly disappointed him, I could not bear to see this man I loved so much.

" I'm the one who should apologize, for not being able to accompany you." Even he who looks sorry now.

If I knew I was no longer a virgin, would I still not let you down?

" It's not my fault, I'm wrong, I'm not feeling well but still forcing myself to attend the party, so it's uprooted."

I tried to smile even though it hurt, I didn't want to make her worry more and feel guilty, because she didn't have anything wrong with me.

" The next time if there's anything call me right away, you can't sleep because you're worried?"

" I'm sorry.my phone is dead, my head is dizzy so go to sleep."

" Okay, then today you're at home?"

" Don't do it, you have to teach today?"

" It's okay, I can have emergency leave today."

" Gupper me!" And those words were able to make the Queen immediately look excited, because maybe today she has a class hour mas Panji.

" You should still come to college! or I'll give you a double duty today."

" Yeah..job again..task again, lier head urang mah!"

" Well, you're the Queen!"

" No sir, I'd just say the dizzy was the shrimp's head, hehe..."

" Dare to curse you, I'll add more tasks for you!"

" Ckk.... would love me to fire her as my sister-in-law's nominee, aish... but could it be?"

" QUEEN!"

" Yes, yes, it's up to you."

The queen walked away, leaving us alone in the garden.

" Your sister is, she doesn't want to play."

" I'm sorry, ma'am."

" What the hell, baby, why do you apologize all the time, already mas say that you're not wrong."

" I love you mas."

" I love you too baby, then carry you up to the room huh?"

" No, I'm heavy!"

" It's still heavy on you!"

" Huh?"

" Em..mu mean when viewed from his posture is not fat your adek, let alone he eats a lot right?"

" Kirain Mas once carried the Queen!"

" Here..have it, come on, you have to rest now, anyway your mas temenin all day today, okay dear."

Her smile looks so wide, I like her so much, I love her so much, even I really want to be her life partner until our hair bleaches later.

But I was afraid that he would not be able to accept me, having known that I had been fucked by another man, even when he was officially his fiancee.

If this is my toughest ordeal, please do not separate us, for it seems I cannot afford to be separated from it...

POV END'S

Some looked calm, but he was not okay. Some choose silence, but in fact he is being hit by various problems. Some look strong, but he's actually down.

But it is realized that not everyone can understand, most may just want to know, and everyone has also had a bad situation, but they managed to cover it up.

Only God understands how difficult it is to endure patience, without having to tell a long story.

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