IPAS

IPA-44

And here. Tonight. This minute. This second. Keisha hugged her own knee. Letting her knees wet in tears. In her room without the slightest light, Keisha vented her pain.

"WHY SHOULD GW BE HURT BY KAYAK GINI? WHY ANYWAY? WH WHY? FROM BEFORE, I KNOW GW! GW TAU AND GW OFTEN WIGGLE THEM BOTH! I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO CONCLUDE EVERYTHING MYSELF! I SHOULD HAVE NOT UNDERSTOOD! I SHOULD KNOW IF THEY ARE DATING! BUTWHY? WHY SHOULD GW FEEL SICK WHEN GW DENGER AN ANSWER TO GW'S QUESTION ALL THIS TIME? I SHOULD HAVE JUST UNDERSTOOD THIS! I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO IMPULIN MYSELF KEISHA!!!" yells Keisha frustrated. Keisha squeezed back the broken glass that had been powdered.

Making his palm increasingly overpowered by the fresh red color of blood that was unceasingly flowing.

Tok tok tok tok

"Eca, Mama please, Ca. Eca out first, Ca. Don't think gini, Ca. Mama loves Eca. Hiks hyks," Yanti shouted from outside Keisha's room.

Keisha still didn't care. Papa Keisha, Keisha's mother, Papa Rizki, Roy, and Rizki's mother were also present at Keisha's house. Trying to persuade Keisha, who had been yelling in the room.

Keisha locked herself in. Letting himself be swallowed by the mounting pain. Letting his mind continue to talk and evaporate the feeling that had been just buried and buried by itself.

Keisha. Grabbing his favorite bolster and hugging him very tightly. Making the roll filled with red spots and Keisha tears.

Earlier, Keisha said that tonight was her night. The night he would pamper himself. And here's Keisha now. This is his night. The night was broken all his life.

Keisha always knew, right? Keisha always sees, right? Always know and see when Mesya is together with Rizki. Like a couple of lovers. Keisha should also be able to conclude, that they really are lovers. But why does Keisha feel such a strong pain tonight? With just 3 words coming out of Rizki's mouth earlier, Keisha felt like she was devastated. Rizki's remarks included answers to all the questions that Keisha had been asking. But why didn't Keisha even expect that answer now?

Keisha walked slowly. While still hugging her bolster, Keisha walked slowly to the door of her room with her balcony. Keisha opened the balcony door of her room slowly. It opened it wide and let the piercing cold air fill the room.

Keisha dropped himself on the floor. Look at the millions of stars that adorn this clear night sky.

The girl throws her bolster outside the balcony. Let the roll fall into his yard. Keisha cried again while bending her knees for a temporary backrest.

"Why... Why should I believe it, Ki? Yesterday I really needed an answer from you. But.. after I know the answer will be like gini. I hope I never know and never hear this answer from lo.." said Keisha limp.

Behind his cheerfulness all this time, behind his jokes and laughter all this time, behind his sweet smile all this time, behind hundreds of jokes and his efforts to entertain his friends. Keisha buried the pain that divided her feelings. Keeping and hiding all his fears and misery alone. Making himself sometimes unable and unable to hold it and cover it alone.

The meeting between herself and Rizki at the beginning of the meeting flashed through Keisha's mind. Make a sweet smile rise very thin, very thin to almost invisible.

Keisha re-imagined the look on Rizki's face at the time. Rizki's arrogant face, Rizki's cynical face, Rizki's innocent face look made Keisha's smile more and more.

Rizki's nature and treatment of Keisha has increasingly made Keisha adrift in a taste that holds to account all the impressive sweet remarks from Rizki increasingly makes Keisha's feelings uncertain its direction. Questioning an expected provision of Keisha's inner feelings and silence.

Inner screams and mute cries also did not encourage Keisha to explain it to the man. Makes this taste even more frozen and silent.

No matter how much he hurt.

No matter how much he's been tortured.

No matter how much he got hurt.

And baby, stay dear.

How often Keisha gets hurt, but that feeling can easily forgive him. Increasingly makes Rizki become selfish, and never think.

Keisha accepted everything. Receiving sweet remarks, sweet promises, sweet treatment, sweet attention, and everything Rizki devotes to Keisha.

During this time Keisha flew high in all the sweet treatment that Rizki gave. But after that, Keisha fell again, again, again, and again into the same abyss as before.

This heart needs only certainty.

This heart is bored.

Tired of accepting your sweet words and promises for me.

Everything you do makes me confused and worried.

Where should I walk?

Leave you?

Or stay with you in this uncertain bond?

I was waiting for you, while you?

You made me wait, wait, and wait again.

Waiting to see when these feelings find their way out. In a labyrinth of tastes that make me dizzy seven circumference, you are not able, not only unable, but you also do not try. Not trying to help me get out of the feeling of being here and there.

Now everything is certain.

You have given me certainty over all these flavors.

But you still didn't help me get out of this labyrinth.

Except you, you let me be buried in a fragmented sense without cue.

Make this feeling scream even more to hold you accountable for everything you do.

Pl-please...

Don't make me hate you and your deceptively pure nature.