INNOCENCE
Disconnecting
I never stopped thinking.
My head was always preoccupied with strange thoughts.
In fact, my busyness beats the moon only working at night.
Beat the sun that works 24 hours per day.
Busy, very busy.
The bustle of the market cannot match the crowds in my brain
It was as if time would be wasted if I didn't think about it.
As if there would be no more room for the welds to approach me.
I'm sober
The world started to turn back on me
Tears began to come to me.
When I feel my solitude more alone, I,
The darkness became darker by my side,
My regrets are more sorry than mine.
I'm getting scared, worried!
What the hell's going on?
Why are words so strong?
Why do strung letters have such great power?
Why is all this happening?
Now...
My mind was just preoccupied with the questions 'why' and 'why'.
But no one ever gave an answer.
The question of why this is so much harder than astronomy is about the world out there.
My mind is close to my head, yet very far away to reach.
That is one of a series of writings written by Sofia when she herself and began to feel that Yanto was getting further away from her. He has a girlfriend, Wandri, but he also wants Yanto to still like him and keep bothering him like before.
Sofia's life just goes by in class after she starts dating Wandri. But, one day while at home, Wandri sends a message to Sofia accompanied by a call of affection. Unfortunately, it was read by his mother because at that time his phone was on a charger.
"Sofi, who is Wandri?" ask her mother Sofia who just came out of the bathroom.
"Ohh, that was my friend at Junior High" replied Sofia.
"why is the chat like this?" ask her mother again while giving her phone to Sofia.
"oh..." Sofia started looking for excuses, "she does like to call all her friends like that ma. He's a girl, not a guy" Sofia explained.
"ohh.. I guess." replied his mother who seemed to believe but also seemed to still doubt Sofia's answer.
After that incident, Sofia started to worry. From the first his mother did forbid them, with his brother and sister to date if still in school. Pacarn was only allowed when college later. Sofia is worried that her mother doesn't believe her and finds out who Wandri is. He began looking for reasons to break his relationship with Wandri. He often does not reply to Wandri's chat, does not pick up when he contacts, or he responds to Wandri tspi rather indifferently.
However, Wandri did not also sever their relationship. Therefore, Sofia finally took the initiative to contact Wandri.
"hai Wan" said Sofia via chat.
"hi too dear.." replied Wandri.
Sofia thought for a moment...
"Wan, I think we should break up. My mother didn't allow me to date" Sofia finally chose the right sentence after dozens of times typing and deleted the sentence.
"ohh yeah?" wandri replied briefly, "alright then. You should also obey the words of your parents" Wandri replied again.
"uh uh? is this just the response? like nothing" Sofia said to herself.
"thank you" Sofia replied
"we will remain friends. I don't want it if after the break up we become enemies like people out there" Wandri said.
"yes, we'll stay friends"
"okay, good night" Wandri replied then ending their chat.
After that, Sofia opens FB and changes her status to single. Sofia feels very calm after severing her relationship with Wandri. No more fear of leaving mobile phones at the table. Wandri's name in his contact was changed to Wandri, a friend of Junior High and all their previous chat he deleted.
