INNOCENCE

The Heart of Sofia

the relationship between Gary and Sofia is getting more and more tenuous. They never greet each other. No one among them took the initiative to start talking. In their relationship, the relationship between Gary and Lani is quite the opposite. They are getting more familiar, often commenting on each other on social media, joking with each other, and always chat every day. Sofia suspects that Gary's decision to break up with her may be because he feels that he again has a chance to get back with Lani. Maybe Gary from the beginning was actually not serious about what he said.

Seeing the familiarity of Gary and Lani, Sofia often cries at night.

'only help bears witness to how many tears come out of my eyes because of you'

Sofia posts her status, but in private only to herself. He repeatedly read his status and repeatedly also he returned to tears of sadness and unexpected.

Sofia recalls all her memories with Gary.

'*he's a sweet black guy

not handsome...

but, she's sweet

he also often makes others laugh.

he always brings new ideas when talking to others.

he is very dear to the little boy

he likes a lot of people even though sometimes he sucks.

but, her annoying taste did not exceed her pleasure.

I never noticed him until he said he liked me.

I started listening to stories about him.

lend me my book when he needs it.

expect his greeting every morning,

I expected a sweet smile when we met.

expecting his arrival next to me during the break.

is that how I like him?

or is it just because I don't want to lose my joy?

or because I'm too lonely*?'

Sofia stopped her writing and went back to crying in silence so as not to be heard by the people in her house.

'*one morning, your greeting is no longer heard.

I'm sad

when I only find a flat expression and indifference from you every time I meet.

I'm afraid because you're just cold against me, and you're always joking around with others even when I'm there.

and finally...

I was confused when you arrived to say the word BREAK after you previously video call with your ex in front of me, but I do not question.

I'm confused because I don't understand the reason behind the word BREAKUP you said.

Maybe you purposely said it during study hours so I didn't have time to ask.

you do not want to give me time to talk to you, even to ask for my right, which is an explanation of all your attitudes.

I don't want to cry.

I know I was wrong

I know I broke my mother's orders

maybe this is my reply

I don't want to lie to pray for your happiness.

I just want to calm myself down right now.

I just want to obey all of your mom's orders right now.

I'll forget the relationship that once existed,

pretending to forget about our relationship until someday I really forget it.

after all, the kit is only through chat, not directly.

so, it was an unofficial and illegitimate relationship.

I never dated Gary

I never liked Gary and Gary never liked me.

He's just a cute, black guy that exists in my class*'

Thus the curses of Sofia who poured all her sorrow and thoughts through her writing.