In a Match But Not Stupid

Grandma's departure

A few days after we went home, my grandmother got sick. He was shocked by the thief who entered the house, grandma often vomited blood, I saw him immediately must be grandma felt pain once inside.

He said every time he vomited blood, the pain in his stomach and chest became hot.

Until a few days after vomiting my grandmother's blood left my mother, me, and my sister.

All of my brothers are home, but not with me.

Papa's cousin who wanted to leave us immediately at that time, promised to buy the needs of a home for the family, but in fact not once he gave.

"Mr. Wake up" said I at 9 years old.

After the grandmother bathed, and in sholati brought to the funeral. I who was still crying couldn't keep up, too hard to forget the grandmother who always took care of me and my sister.

We are a big family very lost the figure of a grandmother, she is the one who always advises me well, I sincerely nek.

After the departure of my grandmother, my frequent ranking can drop down drastically to 10th place in school.

Mama who paid the debt because when she woke up, papa had not paid everything, slam the bone with difficulty to pay it off.

Financing my school and my sister's.

During the holidays only my sister and I sometimes do not have new clothes, very sad in my age who really want to be like my other friends, he said, but a little understood by the state of my mother who has worked hard to raise me and my sister, why even want to be like other friends with a whole family, does not make her more sad?

When I was 10 years old sitting in 6th grade elementary school my mother remarried to the man introduced to her by her friend.

I just wish papa a good connection to always be next to mama.

Now I'm in 2nd grade where I'm 14 years old and my sister is in 2nd grade.

I liked one of the young English teachers, he taught in my school while in college.

Her sister found out that I liked her, and she instead supported me to approach her brother. But I quit because my teacher already had a boyfriend and it was my cousin and schoolmate there.

I prefer to focus on my school, I go back to some activities like dancing, and playing volleyball.

"you don't have to go again vin, now you are expelled and can't follow the dance" said my friend

"But why? I also did nothing wrong" I said

"IF you don't really fit nari vin, too stiff body you kek guy" he said again

it hurt, but I just smiled at my friend.

At the voly training ground

"Vin you are not on my team to be a backup, or do not have to play all soft" he said spicy to me

I want to scream loudly there. But many people who see me, I also realize not so good at playing, but at least I think if you do not like, speak well so as not to hurt others.

People always underestimate me if I am not worthy of any activity.

Finally I chose not to follow anything, right said mama befriend appropriately.

The next few days I would rather stay in class, not join anyone. If someone comes to guitar class or chat, I prefer to sleep on the bench.

Until the 3rd grade of Junior High, I liked being alone in class, when some of my female friends came.

"Keep yuk vin here continues" he said

"You guys, I'd rather be quiet here" I replied

"We want Vin to be friends with you" my friend replied

"Thank you, but I'm sorry I'd rather be here, if you'd like to talk here." I smiled at him

He stays there looking at me, he won't understand my situation. But he understood my feelings.

I'm actually angry, "O Allah why my brother and I are like this, why God distinguishes me and my sister" he said

I love so much that if I grow up I will not let my sister suffer, I will finance her, whatever she wants God willing I grant her if I can.

Because you want to have something like a friend, but can not be granted very tight chest.

There's no point in my thinking crying.

🌼 God always gives happiness behind sadness🌼

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