I'M Not Antagonist

a fact

This weekend Jazz has promised to accompany Vyona to go to Dahlia's tomb, so here they are now, sitting among thousands of tombs, in Vyona's hands there is also a bouquet of Lily favorite Dahlia.

"Hai ma, we meet again" said Vyona while putting a bouquet of flowers that he brought. "Mama what? Ahh must be mama playing in heaven now. Sorry, ma'am. Vyona just got here tengokin mama"

Vyona felt like her heart had been pierced by an invisible object. He really misses his mother, although Dahlia rarely came home but at least Vyona can still meet Dahlia. But now Vyona can't find the figure, now if Vyona misses she will only meet the mound of land that is now in front of her.

"Go home, I have something for you" Jazz asked as he embraced Vyona.

"What?"

"Suprise dong"

"Ihh make curious, tell dong" said Vyona pleaded while putting on a blank face as possible.

"If I tell you it's not a surprise, let's go home"

In the end Vyona could only resign when Jazz pulled her hand.

"Lad" said Vyona as she spread out her hands.

The wrist watch had just shown at 10:00 but the sun was shining with the heat, making Vyona feel lazy to walk towards the parking lot.

"Yes you are spoiled" said Jazz while looking down, equating his height with Vyona's height.

"It's so hot sir, and I'm so lazy to walk. It's a long way from where we parked"

"Hemtt, alright princess. Please go up" said Jazz while slightly crouching so that Vyona does not have any trouble when riding on his back.

Vyona excitedly just went up on the back of Jazz.

"Okay, let's go home, sir" said Vyona as she wrapped her hands around Jazz's neck.

"Don't screw the handle"

"Yes sorry"

Along the way, the two chatted, and also joked. Sometimes both are the center of attention of people who happen to be on a pilgrimage.

"Gorgeous to see us again"

"Sorry, do we know each other?" Vyona asked the man who was now standing in front of Jazz to block the road, because he was not alone, but with his three friends.

"Stop loe" said jazz with coldness.

"Casual dong, I just want to beat up a beautiful girl who's in your arms"

"She's my girl. So don't go say hello to him"

"Keep if she's a loe girl why? As long as the yellow janur has not curved, then it still belongs together not"

"Cihh, sok sakep loe" the Jazz circus as he showed his paltry smile.

"Ihh, don't be so fond of loe. Loe it's not Park Chanyeol" said Vyona.

"Park Chanyeol saha boss tea?" Ask one of the boys friends.

"Where do I know" Yuda replied in a whisper. But, that guy is Judah and also his minions.

"Who is Park Chanyeol?" Ask Yuda with furrowed eyebrows.

"My husband. You've been out there, you four, I want to throw up I see you on the face"

"Dog, this girl actually asked to be beaten" said one of Yuda's friends, but Yuda quickly held the guy down.

"Honey let's go home, this heat" said Vyona while whining.

"Ear the loe all, my girl is hot" said Jazz while breaking through Yuda's body, to make Yuda clench both hands.

"Awas aja loe Jazz, I'll take the girl loe" he muttered while staring at Jazz and also Vyona who began to move away.

*****

Arriving at Vyona's house, Jazz instead of showing the surprise he meant earlier, the guy actually even played games with Areksa and Alan.

"Jazz" called Vyona for the umpteenth time, but Jazz really didn't bully her.

"JAZZ" Vyona shouted out loud, as the boy really did not care about her.

"Astagfirullah, Queen don't shout. I'm not budkek yet"

"After you've done your bummer, where's the surprise you meant?" Said Vyona, raising her hand.

"Where are you going?" Vyona asked as Jazz pulled her hand.

"She wanted a surprise"

"Why did you come here?" Vyona asked with a little surprise, this article is the direction to her papa workspace.

"The surprise is inside" said Jazz, as he began to open the door in front of him, but not yet finished Jazz opened the door, Vyona already held her hand.

"Why?"

"Don't open it, it's my mom's private room. No one has been in here all this time"

"But I can, I even got the keys from Auntie"

"You got the keys from mom?" Vyona asked with a little disbelief.

"Yes. Come in" Jazz asked, holding Vyona's hand.

Meanwhile, Vyona can only resign when Jazz invites her into the private room owned by Dahlia. Honestly, no one ever dared to enter this room.

Arriving in the room, inside there are many boxes stacked.

"This is all what Jazz is?"

Instead of answering Vyona's question, Jazz sat in a chair that looked like a desk.

"here"

Again Vyona can only obey Jazz orders. Vyona stands next to the guy, while Jazz himself opens a book that looks outdated.

"What book?"

"Try to read it"

Surabaya, 02 March 2009

My little princess, it doesn't feel like you're 3 now. You are now active, sorry mom because mom can not be a good mother for you. Seeing you and your brother grow up loving each other makes me feel happy, hopefully you can continue to love each other.

Jakarta, November 09, 2015

I haven't written in a long time. That's because I'm not very good at expressing my feelings. Today Vyona is at the math Olympics, I hope she can bring home a trophy. Even if later he does not get a champion but I am still proud of him, he grew up without my affection, but he can be as good as now, thank you for being such a good father to my children, I am so lucky to have a husband like you. Forgive me for being this selfish, sorry that I can't be a good wife to you either.

Jakarta, may 15, 2019

Today I hit him again, for some reason my hand can be that light when it slaps and also hits him. But after doing so, my heart felt torn to shreds. However she is her flesh and blood, she is my daughter. Forgive mom Vyona.

Jakarta, April 02, 2021

Today at home there is a family event, but again and again I told Vyona to leave the house. I just don't want Vyona to be gossiped about by the Agra family, because all this time they never want to accept Vyona's whereabouts. It's enough that I'm hurt by their evil talk, but not Vyona.

Jakarta, may 17, 2021

Today I accidentally saw Vyona walking with a boy. Ahh, it turns out my Vyona's grown up. He now has a lover, yes even though Vyona's lover is not as handsome as Agra, but at least the taste of the child is quite good. Mama just hope, hopefully she can love you as sincerely as you love mom. Always happy my little princess.

Jakarta, June 03, 2021

Today, Vyona is 16 years old. I can only pray for her, I actually have prepared a beautiful dress for her but as usual I can only stack gifts for her in this room, there were countless gifts I bought for her, but none I ever gave her. Hahaha, I'm stupid! To be honest I loved him so much, but every time I collided with his eyes, the shadow of that jerk guy always haunted me. Here I will write, bitter experience that I have experienced, until Vyona is in this world. People think I cheated on Pras, but they're all wrong. Never once did I betray Mas Agra, it rained heavily but suddenly my car had trouble, on a fairly quiet road, it was raining, to make me finally decide to shade in an empty house not far from that place. But suddenly another car came, I saw Pras good friend mas Agra running towards me.

At first I felt a little relieved because there was a friend, because it was almost magrib. The road conditions were also quite dark, but unfortunately the situation was used by Pras to rape me, even he beat me unconscious. But when I realized I was not in the empty house, Pras took me to his apartment, and there he locked me for a week, and during that time Pras raped me repeatedly.

Pras is really crazy, I didn't know that he was so obsessed with me, even in that room there were so many pictures of me. on the fourth day I was really weak Pras raped me while recording it, he said that I had to confess to Agra that I had an affair with him or else the video would have spread. At that time I could only be forced to follow the game, I also did not want to bear the shame. Although I knew that it would definitely hurt Agra, but I also really had no other choice. Hah, after writing this it feels a little more relieved. This secret I've been alone for a dozen years, without anyone knowing. My only hope is one, hopefully my daughter can live happily, and hopefully later she can find a partner who really sincerely loves her, like the Agra mas who is so sincere in love with me.

Vyona could only sob when reading word for word written by her mother, it turned out that so much suffering that her mother had experienced so far.

"Do you know this?"

"Yet. Who knows we're new, brother Areksa, and also bang Alan"

"Papa should know this Jazz, papa should know that all this time mama never dua papa"

"That's your job"

"So this is all, a gift from my mom for me?"

"Emt, would you like to open the prize?"

Vyona shook her head in response, Vyona planned to open the gifts when she missed her mother.