I'm Not a Substitute Womb

06. I'm Not a Substitute Womb

In life there must be some things and events that inevitably we have to accept sincerely and airy chest. When facing it, it often feels heavy and unbearable. But as human beings, we must strive to live it.

"A smile born with sincerity will spare us from hatred and malice."

The words spoken by Mami Ivy came back. Calista smiled bitterly when he realized he could not be sincere. Indeed, he no longer cried, but still did not want to see the happiness of Carlos and Nadia who are always on display on social media Nadia.

Calista folded both hands on the chest. Staring out the window where the drizzle is out there cools a runaway heart.

"Nits. It's good to be you" Calista said. He is currently in Anita's rented house.

Anita sighed. "Where's my good taste, Calt. I have to work part-time. Different from you," said Anita then rose up to Calista and hugged her best friend from the side.

"All will be well. Trust me, "believe me it's just a sedating sentence without Anita knowing in the future it's really okay or even much worse than yesterday and today.

"Didn't Leon want to hear you, Calt?" ask Anita because Calista told me about Leon's problem.

The next day after dinner, Leon meets Calista. Turns out Aaron's father and Elena's mother had told him everything. How it is now and about that matchmaking.

How surprised Calista after hearing the confession of Leon who will receive it even though it is no longer holy.

"Married to me, Calista. We will live together in New York and forget the events of that night" Leon sincerely grasped Calista's hands.

Unasked, uninvited, without being picked up, Calista's tears re-present drenched her smooth cheeks. The inside of her lower lip was bitten strongly so as not to let out any more crying sounds.

"I'm not a girl anymore, sister!" he said with a trembling voice.

"That's no problem. Most importantly your heart and your life are just for, brother."

Calista is only silent when both of her hands are kissed repeatedly by Leon.

"In this world there are still many who accept women even without that purity. Most importantly both love and accept each other."

Calista just silently listened.

"Sama kayak Om Carlos received Aunt Nadia who could not get pregnant until now."

Leon's last sentence made Calista draw both hands. His face turned flat as he wiped his tears.

"I can't brother. Look for a woman who really loves you."

"Whatchu mean? have you not loved me all this time?" cerca Leon's.

Calista. "Yes. I'm just used to you. Sorry, sis. Look for a woman who loves you" he said, then went into the room leaving Leon sitting glued.

...****...

"Aku gak mungkin sama kak Leon. Mungkin dia menerima, tapi kemudian hari? kami masih sama-sama muda, Anita. Dan itu gak mudah."

Anita nodded in understanding.

"Nits. Let's eat meatballs," he asked to make Anita's eyes pattern.

"Tumbens. Usually do not like it," said Anita because Calista does not like the round-shaped food full of pleasure.

"I want to," he immediately pulled Anita when the rain had not yet broken.

Arriving at the meatball Warung, Calista and Anita order a bowl of meatballs.

Anita saw Calista eating voraciously making her even more astonished."You want?" tanya Anita saw Calista's reaction as if she wanted to ask for the meatballs in her bowl while Calista's meatballs had run out.

"It's all over," Anita offered her half-living meat.

Calista happily finished Anita's meatballs. Many of them chatted without feeling the time was almost dark. Calista takes Anita home.

Today his parents are visiting his twin sister makes Calista a little free to enjoy the sadness that never ends.

Calista walked into the cafe and chose to sit in the corner. The cafe is glass-walled so that it can see outside the cafe. Calista chose the lemon tea message.

He breathed in air and then slowly breathed it out. His order came along with two women sitting behind him. Damn, Calista sat back at the entrance so didn't know which one of them was with.

Yes, Calista knew one of the two women, Nadia.

"Do you still want a surrogate uterus to carry Carlos's child?" ask one of the women.

"Eitherway. But I want the ugly and not much demand especially if it requires the attention of Carlos," said Nadia made Calista shook her head.

Nadia's friend chuckled. "Why? you're afraid Carlos turned?"

"Clearly. All this time I could control Carlos. I'm not going to let another woman take Carlos, let alone until because of that child, they have to get married. I don't want honey."

Calista smiled obliquely at their conversation. His eyes stared at the mobile phone recording their conversation.

"So how can it be a surrogate? does Carlos want to fuck an ugly woman?"

"I'm actually not interested in having children. I prefer this. Having a child is complicated and a burden. But, like this month Carlos changed. I know she really wants to have a child" Nadia's voice sounded again.

Calista chokes on lemon tea after hearing about a child. Her head shook convincing herself that she would not be pregnant with Carlos's child.

Calista turned off the recording on the phone then hurried to the cashier table to pay for the order then left from there.

Nadia just got a call from Carlos to go home.

...****...

"Can your face change as usual, don't be so flat, Bim?" squealing Carlos according to sit on the bed.

"Yes." Yeah."

Carlos melengos let the doctor check his condition. "How long has it been that you've had nausea and vomiting?" ask the Doctor.

"Weekly, Doc."

"Do you have another wife?" the Doctor asked Carlos to glare but not with Bimo.

"Are you crazy?" jolt Carlos melengos.

"The wife is one, Doctor. But the seed is in another field" Bimo quipped, making Carlos understand the direction of the Personal Assistant's speech.

"It's like a sympathetic pregnancy" the doctor explained.

"meaning?" ask Carlos who doesn't understand what the doctor is saying.

"Ngidam is not only felt by pregnant women, husbands whose wives are pregnant can also feel cravings. Even not only cravings, the husband can feel complaints that are usually felt by pregnant women. It's called couvade syndrome or often called a sympathetic pregnancy" the doctor explained, causing Carlos to swallow saliva.

Carlos' tongue complained to deny that Calista was unlikely to get pregnant. However, Ivy used to accompany when pregnant, of course, he knew a little about pregnancy.

"What's the reason, Doc? why am I the one who craves?"

The doctor smiled. "The cause of couvade syndrome is not known for certain. Chances are because the husband is very empathetic to the wife who is pregnant to cause anxiety. The pregnancy of the wife can cause the husband to be stressed and anxious. Excessive anxiety and stress can cause the body to secrete a stress hormone called cortisol."

Carlos wiping the sweat on the forehead increasingly felt dizzy due to the explanation of the Doctor. "Please keep it a secret from my wife. You take care of everything, Bim. I'm dizzy," lamented Carlos chose to relax.

"Including your marriage to Calista, sir?" bimo Goda.

"Not necessarily Calista pregnant," Elak Carlos although in his heart he was very confident and there was happiness in the corner of his heart to make a smile behind the blanket.