I'm Not a Substitute Womb

12. I'm Not a Substitute Womb

Disappointment is like a picture of resentment in the heart. Disappointment is a part of life that everyone must feel. This is because the life lived does not always go as desired.

"I can't stop thinking that I hate myself. No, I hate my place in this world."

"Expectations that are too high cause pain in the heart itself."

"I don't know what's worse, knowing you're a liar or believing your bullshit."

"When you wish, you're actually preparing to get disappointed."

Calista stood right in front of the window of the new room that was supposed to be the bridal room for two newly married people.

From nightfall, two hours after Carlos' departure. Calista contacted her husband but the mobile number Carlos gave could not be reached until morning.

He smiled bitterly. Once again realize that he is not strong enough to face obstacles as a third party role. Calista isn't that bad.

Wiped his tears back and breathe repeatedly so that his crying ransacked. "spirit. Abstain for you to be weak, Calista. There's a fetus you have to take care of."

Cellphone's ringing. Papi Edzard's name is on it. "Come, Pi. I've grown up. Cook yes both my sisters can stay alone while I, no."

"Yes already. We'll talk at home. Now you're home."

Calista sighed at Papi Edzard's words. "All right."

Calista prepared to return to the main house. As always, he uses online taxis when traveling. It was only realized when the location of the apartment that Carlos gave so far from his neighborhood.

Arriving at home. Papi Edzard's waiting for her. "Morning, Pi."

Papi Edzard immediately hugged Calista. Hugs his first love even though not the biological parents.

"Your two sisters have already left Papi. Now you want to leave Papi?" cerca Papi Edzard is sad.

"And let it be easy to be alone with Mami," said Calista held back tears.

"Your mom is getting worse. Papi is afraid to add love," said Papi Edzard melted the atmosphere.

In the description of the hug and the two sat next to each other watched Mami Ivy sitting across from them.

Papi Edzard sighed. "You're an adult now. Are you asking to move to live with Anita to get away from the scope of your life right now or are you moving away from her who has taken away your chastity?"

Calista bit her inner lower lip so that her tangin could be held back. He shook. "No, Pi. Calista wants to be more independent. We're still in the same town, aren't we?"

"Hem. Alright. Have you had breakfast?"

"It has. But if you feed Papi, I still want to!" abugn. It was customary for Papi Edzard to feed Calista and Malya while eating.

"Let's eat, let's go" Papi Edzard.

Mami Ivy saw it moved and felt guilty to her husband for lying and the lie was so big.

...****...

Carlos habit after Calista became pregnant was to vomit because he smelled anything that made his smell uncomfortable. Whether it is from the smell of food or the smell of other people's bodies.

Nadia came directly massaging Carlos' nape. Carlos was washing his mouth. "Thank you, baby."

Nadia nodded. "Why is it this morning, anyway? after that you are ordinary," he said in wonder.

"Wind up" said Carlos Ngasal.

"What because it's not young anymore so if you have sex can't stand plain?"

Carlos chuckles. If Nadia knew if she was old enough to produce children and is currently being punished by unborn children.

"I'm not that old, Nad."

Both are preparing to go on holiday to Turkey. Without Carlos. If at this time there is another wife who is abandoned.

...****...

Tonight, Calista didn't return to the apartment. He felt, for one month or two more months can still stay at the home of his adoptive parents.

Isn't he like a spare tire that will be replaced if the main tire has been damaged or has been bored?

Calista's eyes stared at the screen of his flat object. There was one post by Nadia on social media. Once again Calista felt himself completely crushed.

And foolishly he had believed that Carlos was sincere about their marriage yesterday. Moreover, seeing how happy Carlos when allowed to stroke and kiss his stomach.

"Stupid," he said, and then stepped into the bathroom.

At midnight the door was knocked slowly and Calista opened it immediately. Mami Ivy handed me a glass of pregnant milk.

"Sum and get to bed."

Calista just nodded and tried to smile and obeyed what Mami Ivy said.

...****...

Morning after breakfast with his parents. He tells Mami Ivy to go to Anita's house. But that's just an excuse. How can I go to Anita's house if my best friend is working.

"Mrs Calista" said someone Calista knew.

Calista is currently walking around her parents' estate. "Om Bimo" he replied.

Bimo got out of the car to Calista. "Where are you going?" ask Bimo.

"Nothing. I want to find a grocery store," he said suddenly want to eat a grocery.

"In elite housing where there is, Madam." kekeh Bimo made Calista thunch.

"Don't call me Madam. I'm just a surrogate womb," Calista smiled bitterly, looking down at her fate.

Bimo shuffled Calista's hair feeling pity. "Don't lower yourself, pretty girl. Let's take you to the grocery store, Om."

Of course he knew Carlos' sudden departure. He was so angry at Carlos that he could do nothing. Just consoling Calista could probably make the girl not feel alone.

"You want to go to the grocery store in a suit like this, Om?" kekeh Calista saw Bimo's look was neat.

Bimo. "No problem. The stomach is not staring with what his body is dressed. What matters is that the food goes into it."

Calista agrees. Both got in the car. Drive towards the destination called Bimo earlier.

Along the way to the end of eating the second grocery no one starts talking about Carlos. Calista could forget the thorny problem for a moment.

"Where are you going after this?" ask Bimo.

"Back, Om. If it's daytime innate sleepiness continues," said Calista began to yawn when in the car.

"If you're sleepy, just sleep. Later Om woke up," said Bimo knowing that Calista had evaporated.

Calista nodded then closed his eyes. While Bimo returned to focus but his hand gripped tightly to the steering wheel he was holding.

How could the Carlos he knew be this kind of bastard. Leaving wife pregnant young. Even the position and pregnancy may not be accepted Calista wholeheartedly.

Actually, Bimo knows how Nadia is behind Carlos. However, wanting to unpack what he knew would not be possible because it was not Rana Bimo talking to Carlos.

However, if Carlos asks to investigate Nadia then Bimo is happy to report anything he knows.

Bimo stopped the car in the basement of Carlos Apartment. He had to carry Calista because he had been waiting and woke Calista never woke up.

Poor girl.

After breaking down Calista, Bimo went straight from there.

The sky began to darken and Calista woke up. Pregnant congenital make it often sleepy and sleep for a long time.

Calista stretched her muscles and realized that she was in the bridal chamber that was tainted by the husband's false promise.

I'm back to reality.