I'm Not a Little Girl, Om!
03. The secret in Meylani's pendam!
All series of Meylani cremation events have ended, although it was constrained by heavy rain when leaving the funeral home Jab*r Agung. It was as if the sky was pouring out its tears at the sight of a baby girl losing her mother, both parents losing a daughter and a younger brother losing his older sister for good.
Maybe for the baby who does not understand, he will lose someone who is always with him from the beginning of his life. I still don't understand what death means. All he knows and can do is cry when thirsty, hungry, pooping and sick.
The group that delivered to the Dadap crematorium center consisted of 25 cars consisting of Stanley's colleagues, Meylani's schoolmates during Elementary to college and the last 10 friends Jorgie. The weather seemed to have started to be friendly, the raindrops turned into raindrops when they were already halfway through.
Stanley and Jorgie were silent when they saw Meylani's coffin begin to go into the hearth, while Camelia took Jeniffer's granddaughter back into the car so as not to be hit by the rain bushy.
Camelia quickly made Camelia instant baby porridge by using a thermos of water that she deliberately carried. In her heart, Camelia promised that from tomorrow she would make Jeniffer her own food. Besides being guaranteed not to use excessive flavoring, cleanliness is guaranteed.
"What a pity on you, cu. You weigh less. Phopho will take you to the pediatrician tomorrow. Let phopho know what you can and cannot eat" Camelia told Jeniffer, who was holding her small mouth open from hunger.
When he saw Jeniffer last 2 months ago it seemed like the baby's body was still plump why 4 days ago when he and his husband found Mey's body lying on the floor, the body of the grandson could shrink drastically.
During the 4 days with Jeniffer, Camelia seemed to see that the baby was always whining for milk or food, even though the feeding schedule had passed 1 hour ago. It was as if Jeniffer had never felt full.
'What exactly happened to my daughter and granddaughter?' camelia asked in her heart.
Various kusuk shoes also began to circulate from the social environment to the art community in the area where Stanley and himself. But as the husband said, they and their families only need to be silent without responding to what was the cause of death from Meylani.
Maybe starting today, I will stay at home taking care of Jorgie and Jeniffer and develop my hobby of planting flowers and small plants in pots. Camelia nodded as she gained enlightenment all of a sudden.
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"Ma, is Jeniffer asleep?" stanley asked when she just got home from work.
The twilight man immediately wanted to hold Jeniffer but was immediately hit on the back by his hand by the wife who looked at him fiercely and said.
"Papa, take a shower. Back at work, it carries viral and bacterial germs. Don't there ya mama see papa want to directly hold the hold-sniff continues to smell."
Stanley can only smile foolishly when his wife has shown her fangs. The man immediately raised both his hands like a criminal who surrendered to the police siege. The man quickly headed to the bathroom, which was located in his second room, 10 minutes of time it took the man to rub the soap, starting from head to toe and rinsing it with a shower attached to the top of his head.
Camelia smiled with satisfaction as Stanley was already wearing a milk-brown pajama suit, the smell of soap emanating from her husband's body made her nod.
"Please carry Jeniffer" Camelia said when Stanley was in Jeniffer's crate.
Slowly the old man lifted up the little body of the grandson and petted him. The similarity of the faces of Jeniffer and Meylani makes Stanley seem to see the princess back alive..
"Honey, Akhung's grandson. Here we play before Akhung sleeps. Jeni's still not sleepy, is she?" stanley said to the late princess's baby.
"It looks like Jeniffer is hungry again huh, koq is snacking on your fingers?" ask Stanley about Camelia.
"Yes pa, my mother is confused too. Monday, I'm taking you to a pediatrician. Let's find out where it's wrong." Stanley nodded in understanding.
"Oh yes ma, papa just remembered. Where is Mey's diary? Papa koq wondered what caused our daughter whose soul was strong to make such a foolish decision" Stanley said, turning to his wife.
"There's a pa, mom just happened to read the first 3 pages. Mama could not read it again. It turns out that the Sukmajaya family is crazy all over it. Believing in the same myths and customs of ancestors who say the firstborn must be a man..." Camelia was unable to continue her words due to the pain still felt in her chest and made her tight.
"If you can't read anymore, let papa and Jorgie read Mey's diary. We have to uncover the truth, right?" Stanley, tired of putting Jeniffer's little body back into the baby box.
Indeed, age cannot cheat, the power is not as happy as when he was 20-40 years old. Entering the head 4, the man felt easily tired and Camelia began to keep watch by adjusting the diet of the husband so as not to consume too much fat, coconut milk and fried foods. The portion of vegetables also increased more than 1 portion usually and reduced rice only a small bowl at each meal.
"Where ma, papa wants to read." pinta Stanley reached out.
Like Camelia's reaction when reading the first sheet of the diary, Stanley was struck by the treatment Meylani received when she was found to be pregnant with a daughter. Strengthening the twilight man's heart opened the second sheet of the sky-blue book.
Jakarta 20 XX 20
Ko Verry was getting cynical with me, as if I was a criminal committing a forbidden sin. Sometimes I question the meaning of God about the daughter in my womb. What will this child look like after adulthood?
Whether the birth of this little angel can change the heart of Ko Verry and his mother. May God soften the hearts of Ko Verry's family. Because honestly, this house feels like hell to me.
The indifference shown by Ko Verry, the humiliation made by my mother who said I was a useless wife, was, because carrying a daughter and the scorn shown by my brother-in-law and Ko Verry's cousins made me realize that I was alone in the Sukmajaya family.
Uh! May the Lord give me strength to pass through the storms of life that occur in my household.
Stanley choked while keeping the second sheet of the diary, whether it was all this time he, the wife and Jorgie ignore the changes that occur in Meylani because they consider it all just a pregnancy hormone and post-natal fatigue. It turns out that the wound that Mey experienced was very deep and Stanley was slapped by the fact that he as a father was not wise in caring for his son, a child that God had entrusted through their household.
Test test test
Stanley's tears flowed back inexorably, Camelia only let him because she knew how her husband felt when he read the princess's outpouring of heart during life.
"Ma, papa will consult a psychiatric specialist with Mey's diary, maybe Monday just let all the way." Camelia simply nodded as a sign of her answer.
'Mey, wait for papa to investigate what caused you like this.' he said in his heart .
