I Can Live's

0.2 Regret and Choice

slap me. Fei could only shiver disco.

Yifan placed her scythe beside the body then looked down at Fei who was feeling very scared.

"Just by looking at this scythe you're feeling so scared, didn't you feel so brave with me before, huh?" Yifan challenged Fei whose guts suddenly shrank just from seeing a large scythe.

I shouldn't have been looking for trouble with her Fei regretted inwardly.

Yifan put up the evil smile and looked back at Fei with a look of disdain. "Repent? I told you not to provoke my emotions but you didn't listen. Wow..wah.wah it seems that I am no longer respected, apparently even though when humans met me they must have felt very scared half to death instead of even being rude like you!" Yifan.

Suddenly the atmosphere around the two of them was now turning gripping. Slowly as if a dark and death-like aura was emanating from Yifan's body.

Feeling the increasingly gripping aura made Fei feel uncomfortable for some reason it felt like he began to feel the air around him became so heavy.

"As far as you know from the first time I met you I tried to be friendly and even willing to cover my aura so that you would feel comfortable around me. You're a lucky human being when you meet me among other human beings you're the only one who gets my compassion."

Fei gulped.

"Actually I want to postpone this and give you time to think but look at the nature of your bars that often make my cholesterol rise inevitably I have to say this to you immediately."

"What do you want to say?" Fei looked at Yifan confusedly.

Yifan did not immediately reply and instead was busy playing her scythe. "You know that I am an angel of death and of course I have the right to the thing that goes by the name of death so___" Yifan hung her last sentence.

"So?" Fei began to feel restless and felt a bad feeling approaching him.

Yifan glanced at Fei from the edge of her eyes for a moment then turned her gaze towards her scythe.

"So of course you also have to deal with me because you are part of the list of lost deaths."

"What do you mean?!"

Yifan sighed before answering her interlocutor's question. " You're actually dead, but since I brought you back to life, you're finally on the list of lost deaths. Ka__" Yifan had not been able to continue his words Fei had already cut first

"Wait__what does the list of missing deaths mean?"

Yifan clucked loudly and pointed her scythe at Fei. "Switch don't cut my words.basic doesn't know the manners you want me to send to hell!"

Hearing the word hell automatically made Fei instantly speechless.

"Listen to the brat right now your name is already listed on the list of lost deaths and if I keep letting your name be recorded there then something bad will happen to you."

"Bad thing?"

"You will be considered lost and never considered at all to have been born in the world. Of course it's a bad thing even worse than you having to be sent to hell."

"Why did that happen?"

"Because I've done something illegal in violation of God's command to revive the dead. What I did was break the code of conduct as an angel of death. It's become an illegal thing to do."

Yifan.

Fei. I wonder why his life is so difficult.

"For now you are alive but with your name on the list it is the same as your life which is now classified as illegal can be said you are like a curious spirit only in the form of a human being." continued.

"Then what should I do?

"Create a contract with me so that your present life will be deemed legal and your name will be removed from the list of lost deaths.

"Why should you?!"

"Of course it's because I brought you back stupid!"

"Shit "

"Don't curse the boy!"

"If I don't want what will happen?

"As I said earlier you will be considered lost forever. Besides, since I used illegal means to revive you, you yourself will be affected. You won't be able to survive more than 48 hours without my supervision because every 48 hours your body has to be renewed otherwise your body will start to decay."

"Then let me die. I'd rather die than live under your constant watch."

Yifan growled in annoyance.This kid is so stubborn ! it's in the heart.

"Then you just want to disappear? Remember that after you die you can never go to heaven or hell. Will you be able to?"

Fei silently did not reply and instead turned his body around.

Yifan snorted angrily then he warned Fei "you'll regret it son...." Yifan then opened the kitchen window and jumped from there.

Fei could only fall silent and feel so indecisive. It was difficult to make a decision at this moment because his heart was too indecisive. Honestly, he did not want to live anymore and chose to stay dead, but hearing his soul could not be sent to heaven or hell made him instantly feel daunted.

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Right at 12 p.m

Fei woke up from his sleep and he felt very anxious.

Suddenly his body was hot and could not be moved at all.

what...what happened to my body? Fei began to feel frightened and realized that something was wrong with his body.

Fei tried to move his left hand and tried to raise his hand as high as his face so that he could see it. When he looked at his left hand how surprised he was to know that his left hand was starting to rot and give off a really bad aroma.

Fei was surprised as soon as he remembered Yifan's last warning. Slowly almost half of his body began to rot.

Fei hurriedly came to the large mirror located in his room. And when reflecting how surprised he was when he found half of his face had melted left the skull.

ugh...apa.ap_____this\, pain_____ so hurt. he lamented.

Fei suddenly felt something wriggling from his left eye until he finally realized there were dozens of small maggots trying to push his eyeball out.

Plucci

Fei's eyeballs fell down and now Fei couldn't see at all.

Fei was no longer feeling strong and finally fell on the floor. Slowly his consciousness began to disappear along with his body that began to disintegrate leaving behind a skeleton of a human body.

　

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"Pig..cip...cip..."

Yifan looked at Fei's window and found a sparrow tapping on the window glass with its beak. Yifan opened the window and let the bird in.

"You lost a little bird?" ask Yifan.

The bird shook its head and pointed in a direction out there with its wings.

"So you're not lost?" ask Yifan to make sure. The bird nodded back.

The bird squeaked and pecked at Yifan's finger as if to tell him something.

"Do you want to tell me something?"

The bird nodded.

"Pig..chip...chip....chip..."

Yifan watched the bird speak carefully. After noticing the bird, he finally understood that the bird wanted to convey something to him. Yifan of course understood the language of the bird because it was a messenger bird usually used by fellow angels.

"Oh so apparently you were told to deliver a message for me. Hmm. So you want to send me a message that 'he's going to be here. Alright. When's he coming here?"

The bird then jumped into Yifan's palm and then with his beak he described several patterns of numbers there.

1212..really?" ask Yifan to make sure. The bird nodded.

Yifan smiled then stroked the bird gently. "Please tell her that I will be looking forward to her coming here and thank you for sending me a message" he told the bird.

"Ck, just troublesome" Yifan complained.

Yifan walked closer to the bed and found Fei's condition that began to improve or rather had greatly improved to see the sleeping position of the teenage boy who looked like a person who was doing attractions. Just imagine Fei fell asleep in a position like a person doing kayang.

this kid really. Yifan looked strangely at Fei who was still soundly asleep with his magical position.

"Hoaayama...." The slacker creature woke up from his sleep and then spread his gaze towards the entire room.

"Wake up princess?"

The creature was not aware of Yifan's whereabouts and was busy scratching his head.

ewh is he my lord? yifan said in his heart.

The lazy creature got up from his bed and walked out of the room without being aware of Yifan who was nearby.

he's going blind? ask Yifan in your heart.

After Fei came out of his room he suddenly reappeared in front of the room door with a panicked face.

"YIFAAAAN! ASTA___ASTA___ASTA___ASTAGAA___WHY ARE YOU HERE AND WHY AM I STILL ALIVE ???" Fei shouted in front of the door still with one hand still carrying a dipper.

Yifan patted his eel and inexplicably felt stupid for turning on a creature like Fei.

"ENTE DON'T BE CRAZY IN THE MORNING!" Yifan shouted while taking out her scythe.

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Now the situation had returned to normal with Fei and Yifan sitting quietly facing each other at the dining table that Yifan had almost destroyed.

"So can you explain why my condition can now be like this ?" Fei sipped his green tea quietly. Really at this time his condition turned 180° degrees Fei suddenly just became calm and did not explode like before.

Yifan also seemed to look very calm and acted as if nothing had happened whereas before she also looked exhausted from shouting.

Both of them currently looked very calm and seemed able to deal with a complicated situation.

Yifan put down her cup then looked at Fei seriously. "Your condition can improve like this because I am the one who renews your body secretly."

Fei was stunned and turned the flashback of his memories last night.

"When did you come to renew my body? Last night I saw you when you jumped out of a window."

Yifan clicked and said. "Of course you didn't see because when I came to renew your body you were already in a state of being bones."

"Bone?" fei asked doubtfully as he tried to recall last night's incident.

"You definitely don't remember because it was such a terrible thing" said Yifan lazily.

Fei kept trying to remember until finally finally a fragment of his memory began to appear slowly and neatly arranged.

Yifan looked at Fei and pointed with her index finger at the teenage boy. "Have you remembered?"

Feeling that his memory had returned Fei felt a dizzy sensation in his head and his heartbeat changed drastically. A few moments of terrible experiences that happened to him last night made him feel scared until finally his breath felt so tight and he fell out of his chair and acted like a person who had a panic attack.

Seeing Fei's miserable condition made Yifan again feel bothered. "Ckckckck___you are why you like to bother me so much" Yifan said as she carried Fei's body and moved the teenage boy's body into the room.

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Inside Yifan's room was holding Fei and trying to calm down the teenage boy. Seeing Fei's condition that was getting no better made Yifan take the initiative to give Fei a sedative. Yifan then took out a small plastic bottle from her trouser bag and took a Fluoxetine pill from there. He put the medicine into Fei's mouth and let it go until it was swallowed. After Fei managed to swallow the medicine, Yifan moved Fei onto the bed.

After moving Fei to Yifan's bed, he sat down on Fei's study chair. He kept waiting for Fei until he regained consciousness.

Yifan ruffled her hair and breathed out rough.This boy was indeed very troublesome.

5 Minutes had passed and it seemed that Fei had started to wake up.

"Eungggh." Fei sighed then blinked his eyes. His condition had improved after being given sedatives by Yifan.

Fei leaned his limp body against the headboard.

"What did you give me?" ask Fei.

"Stranquilizers only. Don't think too much." Yifan stood up from her chair and walked over to Fei.

Fei turned to Yifan and asked what the man was going to do.

Yifan, who was now standing beside Fei's bed, plucked her finger and suddenly appeared a glass of water held in her right hand.

Fei was again stunned to see the magic action of the angel of death.

"You're doing magic?"

Yifan sighed lazily then immediately thrust it at Fei.

"Don't ask too many questions. Just have a drink!" absolute orders.

Fei looked at Yifan suspiciously as he was about to take the glass but immediately the curiosity came haunting.

Finding Fei who was still acting suspicious of him made Yifan feel embarrassed.

"Don't accuse me. Have I ever done anything bad to you so far?" Yifan.

Hearing Yifan's words made Fei realize that he had been too stubborn to blame Yifan for his condition. Seeing his condition all this time it was Yifan who always helped him.

Fei picked up the glass that was in Yifan's hand then looked at Yifan for a bit.

"I'm sorry for always being so unkind to you, I just haven't been able to accept all your kindness to me" Fei said softly.

Yifan sighed then said. "I understand your condition very well. Don't you need to apologize. I even really know why you were being rude to me in the first place."

Fei nodded his head then he asked Yifan. "Do you know anything about me?"

"I know everything that's happened to you. Even I know behind the reason why you committed suicide in the first place I know it very well."

Fei gulped to himself. He looks like he's very scared.

Seeing Fei's reaction like that Yifan tried to shift the subject. However, Yifan knew very well that Fei would turn out to be very sensitive when it came to his personal life. Yifan shook her hands in front of her face then she looked at Fei seriously.

"Have forgotten it doesn't need to be discussed anymore. For now I just want to ask you about your choice for the last time. I'll give you the first two options make a contract with me like I told you before. Second if you refuse I will eliminate you with my own hands before you are eliminated. I really hope you don't choose the second one." Yifan said.

Fei raised his face looking at Yifan softly. "For the second choice why you should bother eliminating me while I can later disappear on my own."

Yifan stared at Fei. From his gaze it was a dislike of him. Yifan was very confident that Fei would choose the second choice given the stubbornness of the boy.

"I have to get rid of you before you get rid of it I do it to keep my own good name as an angel of death. An angel of death who has acted illegally and has not succeeded in binding a contract with the soul he helps will be labeled as a failed angel. And if that happens I alone must get punishment from God." explained Yifan still with his sharp gaze.

Hearing Yifan's explanation made Fei smile mockingly.

"It turns out you're very low apparently. It seems clear here you do not want to lose and be selfish. You seem to look down on the human soul" Fei said.

"Be empathetic towards weak beings like you also has limits for our people. You can't keep tying someone who wants to keep trying to get away" Yifan said.

Fei laughed then showed his finger which formed the letter V.

"What if I chose this?"

Yifan immediately took out her scythe then pointed it at Fei's neck.

"Then I want to hear your last words sweet" Yifan said as she put up her evil smile.

**execution of the soul begins***

Notation

Fluoxetine is an anti-depressant drug that is consumed to overcome depression, bulimia, nervosa, obsessive compulsive disorder, eating disorders and panic attacks. Fluoxetine should only be taken by prescription. Fluoxetine is a type of oral medication in the form of tablets and capsules.

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