Hijrah A Girl

he's matchmaking

the day keeps changing my closeness with him getting closer but still can not change the fact that I and he never met in real even though we were close to 6 months honestly I really wanted to meet between me and him until the moment at one time I asked the clarity of my closeness and him

" sister actually we are how, I do not want us to walk but do not know the direction where "I type a message for him even though the heart is not because waiting for his response

" how do you want me? " reply to old

" there is no clear purpose" I said expectantly

" you know what our situation is now without me explaining "the response is stressful

" yes I realized that's why I asked "

" why does it have to be gini, not enough like this? "

" but I want us to have a direction" brother "

" i'm sorry I haven't had a thought there, you know myself I haven't established many things that I'm still chasing "

" i didn't ask us to marry you, sister, that's not what I meant "

" then what do you want the deck, just say no need to twist gini "

" what are we, what do you consider me "

" want you I'd consider what "reply without thinking about my feelings

" more than friends "

" but we are friends. "

when reading his message my breath was tight I could not stop thinking so his attention and sweet speech so far was just a mere nonsense nothing what, what, the message I did not reply again I was afraid to discuss it too far there could be more painful than this

After 2 days I let go of his message in the afternoon drizzling arrived he called me who was reading a book fell silent astray to see the name listed on the mobile phone screen

I was worried somehow which step I should take was lifted I did not if in raised somehow have to behave if in silence was curious about what he was going to talk about

finally after 2 missed calls I decided to call back the sound of the connection but never lifted I was surprised I finally sent him a message because I thought maybe the person was not holding the phone

" what's up, brother "

a few minutes passed but there was no reply I was saturated waiting finally continued reading the book that had been delayed, 10 Minutes later I heard a noise coming in but I ignored me who was focusing on reading disturbed curiosity finally took the phone that I kept next to where I was sitting

before I clearly saw the photo he sent he called without a second thought I lifted from a crowded sounding sebrang there was no reply until I ventured to say hello first

" assalamu'alaikum sis" I said doubtfully

there has been no reply from her until it was heard from a silent voice without answering the greeting I said to her

" what's ra "he said is not like he usually calls me by short name

" well, brother, sorry for 2 days not informed, still angry with me "

" oh that's okay, not just plain angry "his answer made me a bit disappointed means for 2 days he didn't feel like losing me

" as soon as brother, brother is fine, right, what's the call me" I said trying to dilute the atmosphere

" there's actually an important thing I want to say ra "

" just say brother "

" i. "his words paused a moment of silence until he continued

" i was betrothed with my family, told fiancee 2 weeks away "feels like in a lightning strike I can't say a word

" ra kmu is still there, I ask for your opinion according to this matchmaking I accept or not "without feeling he asked for my opinion

" it's up to you, you who will live instead of me "reply me while holding back the sound caused by tears that have flowed from my eyes

after saying that he did not answer the silence that was heard no matter what happened to him I who was still stunned without a sound ended the call

I who was busy crying did not pay attention to the incoming notifications until it did not feel the time has shown at 18:20 so dissolved in the sadness of the voice of adhan maghrib until inaudible with trembling legs I went to take ablution for performing the prayer of fardhu maghrib hope to the almighty that this weak heart be strengthened

After meeting the Creator I ventured to see the notification that was still on the screen of the phone turned out to be a message from him just saying sorry no less nothing more like there was nothing else he could express my grievances in the heart

compared to the constant annoyance and sadness I decided to go out of the room and approach my bunda who was cooking in the kitchen he looked busy with the cuisine he was making

" sister same father where bun? " my words surprised him

" astaghfirullah dislodged, nara ihh thought the devil came directly to the front of the face where ga basi ga basi directly nanya again "nagging without answering my question

I was ignorant even poke a skillet that still has a mother's cooking that is almost cooked

I just giggled to see the face of the mother who was bent pouting her lips

" yeah deh sorryin nara bun ga helpin mother abisnya the mother tumben ga nyariin nara usually do that if you want to scream cake in the forest "Say me without sin

hearing that mommy is getting sullen and nagging my ears I complain of pain but still more heartache of breaking up than being stewarded with mom

" there help mommy nata food the same plate at dinner table can not only eat doang "mother's orders

" ready mom "directly do the orders of mother for fear of getting scorned again

all the food is neatly arranged father and brother also approached the dining table to see the mother's cooking that looks tempting to make the naughty hands of sister to poke the plate containing the mother's cooking

" well now his sister was his sister is this father's product no difference "

" that's why the new father also sat down to be sprayed "

brother who heard the mother grumbling just a big smile showed his teeth without sin ahead of the others took rice and added some side dishes into the plate and immediately ate it greedily saw that I followed brother and mother

we eat greedily because it is very good mother's cooking even though sometimes bored with mother's cooking but yes how else it is impossible for me to replace the mother of cooking

after eating I helped my mother wash the dishes and clean the dining table because there was no maid at home because the mother was only a housewife so the mother felt she did not need it

after everything was done I went to the living room and watched television there Mother approached me who was busy watching the movie show she sat on the sofa next door with me and started a chat about my goals after graduating from school

" ra so how do you continue your goals, make it want to continue his lecture? "

" so bund, this is the registration process but again mengumpulin first bund file "

" it does want to go to college where you majored in what you "

" he wants semarang bu area but if the majors I do not know still confused "

" why ga in Bandung aja ra college ra kayak brother "

" ah bosen bund time ngut brother anyway I want to find a new atmosphere "

" but that semarang is far away ra "

" i will be able to go home every holiday bund serenely yes "

" it's up to you to hope everything goes well"

" aamiin, well ditu bund kan dengernya good "

" yes after this very distant seneng children the same mother turned out to be deliberately yes far college so she never met the mother again "

" that's not my name, this sensi mama "

" it is sad that you are left alone at your college sister's home college dad's college work "

" dad to be home mom"

" yes still a lonely mother at home, what mother work only yes "

" don't be bund, already in the house mending help menggurus ngurus his business aja "

" yes too yes but mother wants to move ra so she does not feel very lonely "

" that's the matter of cleaning the house is not a yes bun hehe activity"

" it's very common ra want to try new things aja mother tuh "

" yaudah if the mother there is the same capital approved by the father yes open aja bun business but at home yes do not go out "

" good idea, though "

" really sure nih ntar ngeluh cape "

" make sure dong kan delicious if the mother has income anyway you will also enjoy "

" yes also add my pocket money later "

" jajan continue, nabung ra you tuh "

" yes bun, I went to the room first want to continue learning "

" yes there study diligently yes let pass the university you want do not make your mother ashamed "

I passed the room before studying I did the prayer fardhu isya begging for ease and help so that all my business and family launched the Maha Esa finished praying I learned to prepare for the entrance exam College high country for 3 hours more I struggled with the book felt tired approaching the eyes was sleepy at last I fell asleep regardless of the phone that from the moment I learned to light up and on