Hearts to Saila

SAILA eps 14

“ Sorry sir, I can not think clearly, it seems to remember our status where you are superiors and I am an apprentice student is not worth sir. ” My words are down.

“ What's not worth Saila? I know you're afraid of anything happening in the office because of our status, right?.”

This time I did not respond to the sentence he had just said. I'm silent this tongue is mute while it tastes. 

“ Saila listen to me, do not mind anything out there, I know you are strong.”

“ However I am heavy because of your mama and my family problems.” I said to her, because this is exactly why I wanted to reject her. He's been dragged too far.

“ I've gone too far, don't ask me to step back or reverse direction, I'll keep going, responsibility.” His words that managed to make me surprised, what the hell is this?

“ Sir!”

“ The point is you accept me or not, I hope you did not withdraw your decision yesterday.”

“ But sir.”

“ Don't talk about the past, all can be overcome, if you accept me then your life is also my life, answer for the last time not to let you regret.

If you want me to stop then I will stop and my efforts for you are in vain, but if you give me the green light I will progress seriously, think once more.”

He spoke firmly without letting go of his hand grip on my hand, his finger clinging to my finger, only that one hand had slipped off the back of my hand and he sat driving silently waiting for me to think. 

Honestly I am very confused about this, is it true that he is serious with me? this heart feels so sure of him yet somehow this logic says no. 

This time I will follow my heart again, even if in the future there will be many obstacles that mean that is our path and test, I will face all because I want to consult with my decision.

“ Yes, yellow light.” I'm lirih.

Instantly he looked back at me. 

“ Usually the yellow light is only a moment and prepare for green, does it mean that the green light will be on soon?.”

“ Yes, turn on the green light yourself, because I have given the command to be ready, if you turn on the green means you are ready.” I said embarrassedly and with a stare at the car window.

“ Look at me Saila, will I turn on now its green light.” His words while holding my head which was originally staring at the window to face him, sounded a tone of relief and excitement from his sentence. 

He quickly seemed to be kissing me, as soon as I knew what my heart meant by closing it with my hand.

“ Why do you like mode anyway.” 

“ Let me Saila, will I turn on the green light.”

“ No don't kiss, father mode once.” Say it with a frown.

“ Okay don't kiss, just kiss okay.”

“ No.” I'm firm.

Then he pulled his fist back and I could breathe a sigh of relief, but when I was off guard he stole a kiss by kissing my cheek.

blushh don't ask me if my cheeks are like a boiled crab right now.

“ Yes, the green light is on. Come on way.” He said excitedly and re-applied his car. 

“ Ihhh basic...” I said back. 

Is this his name in the shoot? no, being shot means being a girlfriend, like ABG ABG, and this conversation is too serious, so is this a proposal? oh not really, if the proposal met between families with families, so this is called fiancee? the commitment of two human children ? maybe this is the most appropriate. 

But wait, we're engaged in a car on the side of the road after such an argument? wow, anti-mainstream your way, sir, my goodness. 

“ Sorry, where is your home Saila?” he said carefully by staying focused on driving.

“ Why, why ask where mom?” I answered softly and lowered my head, because since they split up if anyone asks where they are somehow I became sad.

“ Mother, she's in banyumas. "

“ Okay, next week we are there.”

“ There? 

“ This Weekend with me. “

“ Where else sir ?”

“ To... Where are you? not yet know.”

“ ck, invite people's children but do not know where sir.” my tirade slowly

“ Later will tau” he said with a smile printed curled on his lips. 

after that day, things went back to the way they were, I went back to the office and he was also working normally as usual, there was no significant change that showed anything between us, he behaved as usual with me as before, not infrequently also I got his scolding as before where there was a little negligence, the action was natural anyway like other employees and apprentices.

I admit he's great at hiding things so I'm not afraid of anything that doesn't concern us, he's really a professional at work not to mix up personal affairs let alone heart, he said, but sometimes with a great attitude to hide it I am afraid he also hides a big thing that is somehow in the future, but while I do not take a headache because we do not know enough deeply, we did not know enough, so I'm still ordinary. 

But one time somehow he seemed very tired and a little emotional, I was afraid his emotions exploded violently. I dared to ask Anna.

“ Nbak, why father? looks he is very tired and a little emotional than usual, he seems all employees today exposed to his nagging.”

“ Actually emotions like this are natural La, still on the verge of normal, but if it looks like his emotions will explode I choose to lock myself in the room and all the tasks and meetings he cancel.” The light of Anna.

“ Indeed today there was an incident what happened so?”

“ Student apprenticeship kepo bang.” Elak mbak Anna with a smile that expands very sweet.

“ Em yes no kepo anyway, want to learn just how to ngadepin kayak tops so when later it has actually jumped work hehe.” I answered looking for an excuse, but I also came to see it because of our relationship.

Which partner is not worried when their partner is like that? can we be called a couple? maybe no, what's the right name for us? looks like someone who has a relationship, well a little long term but that's the fact. 

“ Father is dizzy thinking tender, tender this time is very big, so he urinated, but there seems to be another problem deh,”

“ Other office problems ?”

“ Less know too, em yes you are here first yes I want to go to the bathroom first, if you call replacein first into yes. “

" What a hell about Ann.” lamented me.

“ Udah gapapa, if you have to spray quietly just dengerin he ngomel, ratahan nih me, because seblak yesterday jeez, help me okkey.”

“ Yaudah mbak, game yes.”

“ Make a lot of good Saila, later I treat you to eat.”

“ Yes Saila likes free.” I shout slowly but excited.

Not long after Anna left there was a call from Arta's pact, I'm glad I have to see her? I was afraid to look at him. But yasudah, rather than her angry. 

I stepped into his room and opened the door of the room, saw him struggling with the computer and the accumulated files, I ventured closer to him.

“ Anna, why are you so long, quickly check our division, it looks like there is a data error and a pending work deadline.” explained without paying attention to me. 

“ Yes sir, I will tell you soon.” My words are on-site.

He was shocked and immediately turned his attention away from his focus. 

“ Saila, why are you here?”