Hearts to Saila

SAILA eps 10

“ Its okay, let's just say I'm your brother, he lets me take care of you, I don't force you to accept my heart. But it seems that you have a green light for me earlier.” he said, getting closer to me.

“ Okay, I go.” he said by standing from his seat. 

Had a reason for what else I should have told him.

“ Sir, can discussion briefly for my thesis material and report?.”

“ Discussion? no need to bother making a difficult report, just ask for Anna's help, say I told you.”

“ Cheat dong report like that.”

" Why bother reporting, complicated very if anything easy.”

He started to talk again.

“ Oh yes sir, the roof is leaking. ” I said while looking at the sky of the room. 

Duh stupidly, absurdly the reason I was, where there is a house as good as this is leaking, no rain anyway this week, basic. 

“ Say mbak Asih tell call a handyman to make a real. You don't lie, where there's rain this week, there's just.” He said as he grabbed his phone on the sofa and it would pass.

I ran out of sense again I have to use that way again.O Lord why it's so hard to hold this one person for various reasons. 

He was about to pass but suddenly he turned around.

“ I think you really want to keep me at home, you want me to stay with you until night?” the question caught me by surprise and came back closer. 

I just silently stared without moving and said a word. 

“ You're too expensive to really have right now, what's on your mind to hold me home?” He asked me introgasi with his eagle eyes looking me sharp.

I was confused, I had to give an excuse and answer what. 

He was getting closer and there was almost no distance between us.

My heart was pounding so hard, it sounded like it was being pounded so fast and this body felt trembling. 

“ Not that, no, there's a danger out there.” I quivered and looked down, afraid to look at his face.

“ What?, you know what?” Ask wonder.

“ Please stay home for now, I do not want to hurt father.”

I said with a trembling tone and these eyes began to water, because of his sharp gaze that I was not strong enough to look at him and stand up, I slumped down on the floor.

“ Hey, what's up?” He asked me to come and hold my shoulder. 

But I was not strong to answer, I felt guilty, he was affected and related to mas fandi because of me, he was in trouble also because of me, I was too toxic for him, I became very guilty. 

“ Saila tell me, what do you know?” He asked while calming me down by hugging me in a seat like a brother who won his sister who cried. 

“ I don't know anything, I know I put you in trouble and danger, I, I'm toxic to you sir.” I answered with increasingly loud cries and tears flooding this cheek, and, 

“ What are you talking about? I decided to dive into your life, don't blame yourself.” He spoke softly while stroking my hair smooth.

“ What's up? what is your business with Mas Fandi because of me? right right, right?”

“ If true, then what do you want Ila. ” he said softly.

But I don't know, I can't even put words together for me to say, this chest feels tight.

“ Don't ask me to step down, you've accepted my offer. I hope you do not regret receiving it earlier. ” he explained by still hugging me. 

True, indeed I do not regret accepting the offer of Mr. Arta, but I do not deserve if I bother him let alone endanger him like this.

“ What do you know about my dealings with Fandi?”

“ I don't know what” I said by staying down in his arms.

“ Let me tell you.” 

“ Sata paid dearly to free you from Fandi, Fandi auctioned you off to the moneyed people, arguably a dick-nose. You tau? if I wasn't there you'd be in the arms of that om o'm girang.” Obviously with the hand still wiping my hair and he told me in a relaxed tone, like a fairy tale he talked to me about it. 

I was shocked to hear that explanation from him, was I? auctioned off? fuck Fandi, he's a real bastard, he's dangerous, he wants to sell me. What's on that guy's mind.

Instantly after hearing that sentence I again sobbed and these tears flowed even more profusely than before, my body trembling in his arms. 

“ If you really accepted me earlier with your answer, consider this a debt. You're gonna pay off your debt to me, aren't you?” 

“ What? how many sir? I will pay sir. ” my word is getting down.

“ I don't want to be paid with money.”

“ Then.” was shocked, soon I looked up to him. 

“ I asked once again, you regret accepting my offer?”

I was confused, indeed in my heart it was not too heavy to give that answer to him, but what made me heavy I had involved him in danger because of me, I was confused, whether I was sorry, I was sorry, yet it seems like he has some connection with Aqil mas, is he trustworthy?

But if you remember the conversation with Aqil mas earlier, it sounds really - really. I don't know, it seems like there is no other answer, if I get away from it maybe my next life will not be safe.

Only the trunks I gave him in response. 

“ Okay, tomorrow come with me.” he said with a wide smile.

“ To.. where sir?” ask me with the rest of the stuffing 

“ To, where to? tomorrow I will tell you okay, you better rest immediately, your tears are wasted a lot today.” He said as he rubbed my hair and prepared to stand up. 

I remembered, I had to hold it home.

“ Wait sir, but, outside.”

“ What? outside of? what's up?” tanyanya wondered at me.

“ Stay home until Anna calls.” He seems to be thinking a little.

Not long after it seemed like he knew what I meant. 

“ Does anyone want to harm us?” He asked confidently, it seems like he can guess the direction of our conversation. 

I just answered him with a small nod.

He seemed to be thinking and planning something.

“ Did Anna contact you?”

Again, just a nod I can give.

“ Did you hold me home because of that.” I was like a doll that could only nod, again I gave her an answer with a nod.

He seemed to be standing up immediately.

“ Sir, don't come out!” Antidotal

“ No, it seems I know the direction of the conversation and you mean earlier. Don't let you out of the house as long as I haven't let you out.” His words then passed and entered the room he had entered earlier. 

Some time he came out with some kind of letter and took it to mbak Asih.

The faint sound of his conversation with mbak Asih that he wants mbak Asih to convey and bring this letter to the purpose it is intended. 

“ What happened sir?” 

“ None, I just gave him a warning. In a moment it's settled, you rest me tomorrow we'll be out. Relax I will not leave the house. Just wait, tomorrow this matter will be over. “ Say it gently

“ But pak”

“ No objection, if you still say I will go forward and eat you again. ” 

I immediately stood up and entered my room.

The topic of my mind is what happened? what's he doing? what did he warn?

I was astonished, I was confused what to do, I did not have any strength to save him, even save myself. 

I was worried what he would do, what if he got hurt and went too far. 

Either the more dizzy I think about it, all night my head aches so hard thinking about this burden.

Until this head is no longer strong to be invited to think, then sleep in the silence of the night.