Heart Space

He met an ex

لِّكَيْلَا تَأْسَوْا عَلٰى مَا فَا تَكُمْ وَلَا تَفْرَحُوْا بِمَاۤ اٰتٰىكُم ...

"Thou shalt not grieve over that which has escaped you, nor be too glad for that which He has given you..." (QS. Al-Hadid: Verse 23)

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Not much different from Alin, in a room, an adult man seemed to be sitting down with his hands tied to each other behind his head, both elbows resting on a table.

"We meet again.." He mumbled softly.

"Fahriani.." Further.

It seems that he is not okay, whether it is his mind or his body or maybe both are not in good condition. A fairly tangled shirt, a loose tie, disheveled hair, all of which show how things are going.

Tok tok tok tok

He did not ignore the sound of the door being knocked, whether he did not hear it or he accidentally did not hear it. The sound of the door being opened still did not make him flinch. He is loyal to his position.

"Pak Arfa" Call a man who just entered his room, yes Arfa room, Arfa Fahri. Seemed the man slightly jolted, though imperceptibly. He has been busy with his own thoughts since.

Feeling his name being called, Fahri raised his head. He caught a glimpse of the man who was used to barging into his room, who else if not the secretary, Kenan - who was familiarly called Ken.

Fahri sighed.

"What's up, Ken?" Fahri asked irritatedly, heard from the pressure of his voice although not high-pitched, precisely his voice was too low but full of emphasis.

Ken grimaced a little at the boss's question.

"Sorry, Sir. I'm just reminding you, it's 10 o'clock by." Yes, Ken just wanted to remind, the article is already quite late, 10 o'clock passing, and it's night, not morning.

"Ha!? Really true?" Fahri was quite surprised, he forgot the time. After that, he moved from his seat, grabbing the bag, mobile phone and suit that he put in his chair.

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Brugh

Throwing his own body into the bed, then sighed. Fahri just finished cleaning up. For a moment he lay on his back with one hand covering his eyes. Relax his body - perhaps also with his mind - which is quite achy. In essence, he was tired, not only physically but also his mind and heart.

"Fahriani" Again and again, that name he muttered.

Apparently, his reunion with a figure from his past was really affecting him. He feels happy and sad at the same time, happy and guilty.

"I hope you can forgive me, Fah.." Fahri Monologue.

His attitude in the past was also his hope in the present. Fahriani's feeling now is also Fahriani's feeling first for his attitude at that time. Is this a test or a destiny. How should he behave now!?. All of those things filled the head of the three children's widower.

Fahri sighed - again. Rubbing his face rough. He decided to think about it again tomorrow, he wanted to sleep, really. The clock on the wall of his room already pointed at the number 11, his children must have slept well, he thought.

A little while later, Fahri got up immediately, walking out of the room. Her goal is the room of her children, Ayu and also the twins Alfa and Alfi. He hoped that the peaceful face of his sleeping children could treat all his anxiety. In addition, this is also like his mandatory routine, which is to see his children before he goes to sleep, even though he only sees those who have fallen asleep.

First, Fahri approached his eldest daughter, Ayu. Although Ayu is not his biological daughter, but Fahri already considers her like his own biological daughter and he loves her like he loves the twins Alfa and Alfi, the same, without distinction.

The door opened, revealing the sleeping occupant. Fahri smiled as he shook his head slowly looking at the scene in front of him. Her eldest daughter curled up in bed without a blanket.

Fahri intended to justify his daughter's sleeping position, but for a moment he froze, only for a moment when his brown netra saw what was in the arms of his eldest daughter. A picture frame.

The frame was in the reverse position, but Fahri knew very well which photo was in the frame. Who else if not Arumi, his dead ex-wife.

No, Fahri doesn't hate him. He loved her. For almost 3 years they lived together in a ship called the household, of course they loved each other and loved each other, and that was proven by the twins Alfa and Alfi.

Carefully Fahri takes a picture frame that is in the arms of his daughter, Ayu. He looked at the great woman who had given him two angels, ah no, three little angels for him. He pulled his lips, revealing a faint smile. He took a picture of his late wife.

"May you be calm there.." He glimpsed with a sad look. The look in his eyes signified guilt as well as longing. This year, even 5 years the wife left him, returning to the lap of the Divine.

Then he put the photo back in its place.

His attention turned to his daughter, Ayu. She covered her little girl to her stomach. He rubbed Ayu's head with love, not forgetting he kissed her little girl's forehead a sign of affection.

"Great dream, baby.." Lirih.

Not wanting to disturb his daughter's sleep, Ayu, Fahri decided to go out immediately. He closed the door to Ayu's room slowly. Next, the room of the twins Alfa and Alfi he went to.

As he did to Ayu, he also kissed the forehead of the two alternately, he gave small strokes on the heads of his children as a language unfortunately.

"Papa loved you so much, slept and had good dreams, dear." Lovingly, Fahri whispered those words to the twins Alfa and Alfi.

Next, Fahri stood in the middle, between his two child beds. Yes, the twins are still one room but since childhood they have been placed in different beds. Even the plan, when the twins will enter elementary school, he will provide separate rooms for both.

Fahri seemed to close his eyes, thinking, then he nodded his head slowly, agreeing with a series of plans in his head, for his children.

A smile was painted on Fahri's face when he thought about his children, the next second he looked at the twins Alfa and Alfi, still with his smile. Until a while later the smile slowly loosened when he heard his son - Alfa was delirious, even crying, weeping.

"Mama.want mama, don't leave me.."

Soon Fahri approached Alfa, resting on the floor on the edge of the bed. Staring softly with eyes that come glazed. The tears that escaped the little eyes of his son. He kissed the son's forehead.

"I'm sorry, baby.." He said softly, while rubbing his little whiz head.

Upon returning to his room, Fahri did not go to sleep, rather he could not sleep. He thought about his children, it was not easy for a child to live without a mother, he said, moreover, his children have lost their mother since they were born and they never get the love of a mother.

"Arumi. it turns out that children do need a mother figure.." Fahri lirih.

"I am a fool for always thinking that I am enough for them, that they are living well just because they never whine and ask their mother. In fact, they suffer, they need you, Arumi.." Fahri said with a slightly trembling voice.

Fahri ruffled his hair in frustration, remembering how his son had been suffering and needed a mother. Suddenly, his memory switches at a time when his mother - Mama Laksmi, was bitter once telling him to remarry and he was also bitterly rejected the mother's proposal.

And the other day, his reunion with a female figure from his past, the one who made him feel what love is for the first time, Yes, Fahriani, who is none other than Alin, who is, whether this is a coincidence or a sign from the Almighty, Alin is the teacher of the twins.

All of those things filled his head, as if he was circling in it.

To be continued~