Heart Shackles

Trying to let you go

Manhattan, New York City, 2021

7.56 p.m.

After Dew met the Sky this morning, now the girl looked messy. His mind was troubled at the thought of all the words of the man. Tossing away is a sensitive topic of Dews of recent years. For him, letting go was harder than reaching.

The night breeze greeted, stroking the smooth surface of the curtains made it look waving. Moonlight struck, entering the window trellis gap gave rise to the dim atmosphere of the square space.

There, on a bed covered in a white bed cover the bones of a girl sat with an empty look. He Dewun, from the moment he met the figure of the sky this morning, he was still at home there; not a single step out of bed.

Dew didn't know how to respond to Heaven's request. This is not the first time the sky has begged to be let go. It's been thousands of times that even the Dew itself can't count. Is it time to let the heavens go? However, it was undeniable that deep inside his heart felt heavy.

Dew confused, he's in a dilemma. What steps should he take?

"Why do You give me this path of destiny, Lord. I'm honestly sick of all this. Can't you grant my prayers? I just want to feel happiness for a little while, please," she said with tears.

He is too tired of his own life, because in fact in this world he is alone. Not like when the sky was with him. He who became the reason Dew came back to life when the people he loved left him far away.

"Even you don't show up again, Sky. Is that how tormented you are now, that you don't want to see me anymore?" dew Mumm. Yes, since its appearance this morning the sky no longer shows its existence. Usually the handsome figure will always disturb the Dew whenever it is.

"I'm sorry, I. I'm too stupid to expect you back. I'm sorry for making you tormented all this time. From now on .. I will .. release you, Sky." The tone of speech gets weaker at the end of the sentence.

His cry escaped, his heartbeat uncontrollable. His breathing began to suffocate, and his heart was like being stabbed by a dagger. It hurts so much to define. However, Dewun hopes his decision is never wrong. He wants to be happy, so he wants the sky to be calm in nature until he catches up with him later.

"I hope .. this decision .. is the best. I'm sorry I hurt you."

o0o

The day changed, the Dew woke up from its sound when the sun began to crawl up. With a shabby body condition, a pale face with black eye bags, as well as a body that looks frail, he forced his lips curved upwards.

He agreed to change. Enjoying the life he lived without any burden looming over him. With a smile that continued to be engraved he got up from the bed and began to organize himself. Today I decided to skip college. He felt he needed refreshing to lift his mood this morning.

Cell phone rings disperse daydreams. Looking at the caller's name, Edward's name appears there. He quickly shifted the green icon.

"Hello?"

"Morning Dew."

"Morning too, Ed. Why, don't you usually call me in the morning?"

"Emm .. Do you have class today?"

The Dew's forehead shriveled, not usually Edward asked like that. Strange, bizarre. "There really is, it's just that I intend to skip today. Sometimes it's okay, right?"

"Tumben took me first, usually you'll drag me right away," sneaky Dewun.

There was a faint noise from the phone. "Once in a while it has to be. So, how, want?"

"Since I don't have a definite purpose, I'm coming with you."

"Okay, I'll pick you up in an hour. Beautiful dandan, Princess. Hye!"

With cheeks that meet Dewun ended his conversation with Edward.

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Today Dew spend it having fun. With Edward he went to an amusement park and tried all the rides there, from the usual to the extreme rides. As the time went on, they decided to stop for a while at the evening festival for the culinary together. For a moment the burden that held him in free air along with the melodious laughter that flowed from his thin lips from earlier.

"Thank you, Edward, it's been a while since I've laughed like this. Live free like a bird that keeps flying here and there. It feels like my life is lighter, thanks again." Smile sincerely there. His face was overwritten by the spotlight of the garden lights and a beam of moonlight increasingly looks charming in Edward's eyes.

"Anything for you, Dew. Do not hesitate to complain to me, because now I will replace the duty of Heaven to continue to take care of you and make you happy" said Edward. However, it can still catch well.

Edward's hands stretched out, breaking the Dew's jet hair. Highlight his eyes so shady for a moment made Dew fixated on its beauty. His hands crept down right on the turquoise cheeks of Dew and rubbed it gently.

Suddenly Edward rose from his seat and lowered his body and stood on his knees in front of the Dew that was still sitting on the park bench. His big hands he took to cover the little guy's hands, giving a warm feeling. His blue eyes could not be seen staring at the dark bead of Dewun.

"Grow, I am not the first, but let me be the last in your heart. Allow me to take the place of the duty of Heaven to care for and love you with all my heart. I want to be the reason you smile back. May it?

"If I'm to be honest, I've been harboring feelings for you ever since I moved here. Love at first sight (?) sounds silly but it is. I also don't want to lie if the feeling grows longer. The feeling of wanting to make you mine is so big. I also feel pain when I see you shed tears. I'm not asking you to accept me, I'm just revealing what's been disrupting my sleep. However, whatever your answer will not change my love and affection for you. So, will you be mine, Dew?" At the end of the word Edward thrusts a silver ring with small diamonds adorning it.

Dew confused, do not know what to respond like. This was too sudden for him. Never once did this cross his brain. Even so far he only considers Edward as his older brother no more.

Should he accept it? After all this time he was dependent on Edward he could not possibly disappoint the man. Didn't know himself once if he hurt Edward.

Is it possible that Edward was the good man that the heavens meant? Then what should he be? To be honest he was still not completely sincere and removed the name of Heaven from his heart.

"Embun ... must not seka–"

"–I want, Edward. Please help me love you and try to fill your name in my heart." A single tear fell from her beautiful eyes. Hope this is the best decision.

"Are you serious?" Dew nods noisily with still tears in his eyes. Edward immediately put the ring on the middle finger of the Dew and pulled the little girl into his arms. "Thank you, Dew."

There Dewun saw the silhouette of Heaven standing not far from him. Looking at the Dew with a faint look and a Dew smile itself did not know its meaning. The sky also looked like it was holding back tears but that handsome face kept forcing his lips to review the happy looking smile. For whatever it looks painful. Then slowly his body began to disappear, also drifting with the sweep of the night wind.

"I'm sorry, Sky," said Dew without a sound.