He's my soul mate

THE DEEP SADNESS

A girl was sitting in the park with her eyes straight ahead.

Many times the girl let out a long sigh trying to calm her feelings that felt so crazy

" Have you been waiting a long time?" asked Ayla who had just come and then sat herself on the empty bench next to Sasa the girl who had been sitting alone in the park since.

" Oh, you've come Ay!" said Sasa who gasped from his daydream

" Yes, sorry to wait?"

" No, I haven't been here long" Sasa said

" Oiya, where's Aliza?" ask Sasa who did not see the whereabouts of Aliza coming with Ayla

" Aliza's with her papa, it's there!" ayla replied pointing to Al and Aliza who were playing on the swing and were not far from where they were sitting

" Mister Al is a great father and husband, Ay, and he looks very fond of Aliza" said Sasa, whose views point to Al and Aliza

" Yes, Thank God I am also very grateful to have a husband who is so patient, loving and also responsible, very caring for the family" said Ayla whose eyes were equally fixed on the child and father who was playing the swing

" Yes Ay Loe is very lucky" said Sasa

" Mina and Dira too, you are both lucky to have such a kind and responsible husband" she continued

" Elo can also be like us Sa" said Ayla and Sasa just chimed in with a smile

" I'm not sure Ay" she said

" Why not sure?" Ayla frowned

" Su_. Gu"

" Still scared? still traumatized?" selak Ayla and Sasa nodded their heads

" I've tried to forget everything Ay, but the fear continues to haunt my mind" said Sasa seemed so sad

" Loe must be able to make peace with the past loe Sa, do not let the past make you continue to be shackled with a prolonged feeling of fear, you can see for yourself how mas Al, Al, brother Arlan and also Kak Andi they are also men, just like Hendrik and I can see from his attitude during this time Hendrik also very fond of loe Sa, just like Hendrik, he has also tried to be patient to wait for loe readiness but if the Loe is even like this constantly there could be Hendrik will be tired also Sa" said Ayla

" Yes that means it's not Ay's soul mate!" sahut Sasa lightly

" Want Hendrik or other men will behave the same Sa if you are still in the loop of your past about the actions of Loe's father who is not all men are the same S"

Sasa was silent his mind digesting every word Ayla said

" Sa try deh loe understand Hendrik's position once, he was very patient Sa to understand loe, make waiting Loe" Ayla suggested

" Follow away the fear of loe Sa, look at the sincerity of Hendrik's love all this time to elo, he never even complained a little right and always dutiful what you want?" Sasa nodded confirming Ayla's speech

" If you think you keep loe can be a spinster, would you like to come? no pity it's the same kind of love Loe who already wants her daughter to be married and have grandchildren?."

Sasa was silent his heart was getting bigger, could he fight his fear? she was very afraid of her fate later, if she married then what if her husband would leave her while pregnant, what else if she was unable to give birth to children according to the wishes of the husband, he was afraid that the things that befell his mother were repeated to him.

" Sa asal loe knows yes the fate of the person is different, not all of them are the same even the fate of twins was also different so do not Loe equate the fate of Loe's mother with the fate of loe, can invitation fate loe much luckier than the fate of mother loe" explained Ayla trying to open the path of his best friend's mind

" What if it turns out that my fate is worse than my mother's?" sasa asked seemed so desperate

" Husse!"ayla Sentak

" If saying that is true Sa, do not do it like it is not good, remember the speech table is prayer so say and think well, think well, do not carelessly guess something that does not necessarily happen"

Sasa was speechless, what Ayla said was indeed nothing wrong, all true but whether she dared to face it without any fear that often haunted her mind

" Hear ya Sa, happiness is loe alone that should make it, if you want to live happily then try to fight that fear of Loe and make your life happy, you want to live happy, love yourself and love yourself Sa, do not let your sadness, hatred and fear make your own happiness closed even locked for life, loe has to try harder for Sa to make herself happy"

" Sa loe's loss lingered on the atrocities that your father had committed while the man lived there quietly without thinking about his fate at all, don't you feel Sa's loss, wasting your time on nothing and doing more harm to Loe himself?" press Ayla

Sasa was stunned and no longer held back her crying, for the first time Ayla saw the fragile side of her best friend, all this time Ayla just saw Sasa was a girl who always liked to smile and was also very cheerful, he never knew that behind the smile of his best friend there was a huge wound

Ayla pulled Sasa into her arms and let the girl cry in her arms.

" Cry Sa, if it can make Loe's heart more calm, forget the sadness that has been holding in the heart of Loe Sa, and after this be a new Sasa, and after this be a new Sasa, Sasa who wants to share his joys and sorrows with his friends and no longer harbors his grief alone!" ayla said as she rubbed Ayla's back

" Be happy yourself Sa!" say Ayla again

After feeling much calmer, Sasa broke Ayla's embrace, wiped her tears violently and smiled at Ayla

" What you're saying is true Ay, everything I've done is very detrimental to myself, I keep falling into what that guy has done while maybe there he doesn't remember it at all & maybe is laughing happily with his life and his new family" he continued

Ayla just smiled in her heart hoping that what Sasa said would really make her happy

" I, Mina and Dira will always support Loe Sa, remember you are not alone and if you feel something is stuck in your heart tell us!" ayla's message

" Yes, thank you very much, you are my best friend!"

" As friends, shouldn't we help each other?"

Sasa Smiling then suddenly the girl remembered the figure of Hendrik the man who had been his lover for several months

" Ay, I. I want to talk to Hendrik and I'll try to learn to accept it and fight that fear, emmm.... do you think he still wants to accept me?" ask Sasa

Ayla patted Sasa on the shoulder and smiled, "Hendrik loves Sa very much, of course he will accept you!" sahut Ayla

" May we really be a match, Ay!"

" Amin"

" Oiya, Mina where did you from earlier not come yet he said he wanted to come here?" ask Sasa who remembered his best friend that one

" Maybe it's still on the road" Ayla said

And sure enough it wasn't how long Mina had been with Andi, but when he saw the arrival of the two who looked a little strange made Ayla and Sasa frown, especially printed clearly from the look on the face of the couple's husband and wife there was panic and also worry

Mina and Andi half ran over to Ayla and Sasa who were staring at the two with question marks

Al who saw the arrival of Mina and Andi who looked hasty was immediately carrying Aliza then walked towards Ayla and Sasa who were not far from where she and Aliza played

" sa.h..!" said Mina stuck it feels like her tongue is so twisted and difficult to move

" What's up?" Sasa who saw the strange-looking attitude of Mina and Andi immediately stood up from his seat and suddenly there was a sense of worry, even though he himself did not know what he was worried about it felt like his feelings had turned out to be unpleasant

" Hurry up, what's the matter Mi say?" asked Sasa to shake his best friend's shoulder, especially instead of answering Mina instead of crying

Sasa grew even more panicked to see Mina who was crying without saying anything

" What's really going on with Andi? why is Mina crying?" tanya Ayla who was focused on Sasa and Mina now turned to Andi

Before Andi answered Mina without speaking directly pulled Sasa into her arms and of course what Mina did made Sasa even more wondering

" Mina, tell me what's going on? why are you like this?" sasa asked, Mina still could not answer while Andi lowered her head then seconds later took a deep breath

" Brother Andi_!" ayla Beo

Andi looked at Ayla, Al then turned to Sasa who was still hugged by Mina

" mmm.... Sasa we hope you can strengthen yourself, yes, the news that we will convey may make you sad but Loe must be strong yes Sa" said Andi

Sasa and Ayla rounded her eyes perfectly, words must be strong to make Sasa's heart beat very fast, what exactly happened why Andi and Mina to look so worried about her inner Sasa

" Tell Brother Andi, what exactly happened?" sasa asked with Mina who was still faithfully embracing him

" Bm .... " Andi seemed confused to convey the news that might make the girl in front of him shocked

Andi suddenly coded Ayla to get closer to Sasa with her eyes tails, Ayla who understood also immediately embraced Sasa

Sasa who felt Ayla's hand on her shoulder turned to Ayla, his eyes looking as if asking what was wrong? and Ayla who understood the meaning of Sasa's gaze also replied by shaking her shoulder

" sa... He's... Henry!" said Andi stammered and Mina who was in Sasa's arms was getting sobbing

" Hendrik? what's wrong with Hendrik?" it was not Sasa and Ayla who asked but this time even Al who was curious had finally spoken up

" cn ... Hen... Hendrik accidents Sa, and to him critically!"

...Jegeerr...

Like lightning in broad daylight, Sasa's body immediately suffocated as if it were not in Mina's arms and Ayla's embrace the girl may have fallen to the ground

" he....Henry!" Sasa who just wanted to make peace with his past and wanted to give Hendrik a chance suddenly his hope was crushed just after hearing the news about Hendrik

" Sasa!" mina and Ayla shouted together as Sasa's body went limp and even lost consciousness