
" the patient is at rest, his condition is still unstable ."
" I'm sorry I couldn't save the fetus in the patient's womb ."
" the patient has a miscarriage. "
" miscarriage? miscarriages of where, doc? my wife is not pregnant anymore." said Farel who is now looking the other way while laughing bitterly .
"You're her husband, right? Can come with me for a minute ."
Farel went into Zaskia's nursery, where his wife was lying weakly on top of the gurney .
" Please sit down!"
" Do you know anything about a patient's pregnancy? "
Farel shook her head "My wife is no longer pregnant doc"
" the fetus in the womb of a patient aged 4 weeks . pregnancy in the first trimester is indeed vulnerable to miscarriage . and sometimes, , many women are not aware that she is pregnant, she said, and including your wife ."
"the patient has too many thoughts, so he does not pay attention to his own health. If the mother is stressed, it also affects the contents . I see , Your Wife's Body does not change much . Whereas in the first trimester, as the fetus develops, the mother's appetite will continue to increase . and the weight of the mother will increase rapidly.Your wife is too thin , and it also affects the growth of the baby in the womb ."
" my wife checked with the dock, and the results were negative"
" the use of pregnancy test kits such as testpek has an accuracy of 99%. however, inaccurate test results may occur . this can be due to improper use time or how to use an inappropriate testpek ."
Farel tried to pay attention to his hearing, but he could not. The doctor's speech in front of him was true , Zaskia used the testpek only once . and Zaskia was also reluctant to check her condition to the doctor .
" This is a letter from us, please read it if you don't believe ."
Farel rubbed his hair back, then squeezed the letter firmly.Her tears just decayed .
zaskia's pale face, her cries, the girl's pushy gaze when Trying to explain the misunderstanding that occurred a few days ago, and her trembling voice, Revolving Back in Farel's memory .
Farel walked up to Zaskia who was still unconscious . revealing his wife's shirt, his hand moved stroking Zaskia's flat stomach, then kissed her long ago ." sorry Papa ya dear ."
without realizing it, his wife's Tiny Hand moved slowly.Zaskia's eyes slightly opened, when the light beam in the room measuring 2.4 M x 3 m was hit Neutral eyes ."hmm...."
Farel clasped Zaskia's hand, stroked his wife's forehead .
" dear? "
" rails? Where am I?shhh my stomach why does it hurt so much rails ?"
" you're in the hospital, baby."
Zaskia scrunched her forehead, Why is the lower part so sore?
" are you crying rail ?"Zaskia caught the guy's face, then her little hand moved to rub Farel's cheek .
Farel hugged Zaskia's body very tightly.His tears fell back 'but this time it was accompanied by a sense of tightness and also guilt ." I'm sorry honey . I've misunderstood you, I'm really sorry .Kia"
" it's okay rail . I'm glad that you believe me again" said Zaskia while gently stroking Farel's head.
" Oh yes rail, I had a dream that father , mother, same Bang Jo died because of an accident . very strange dream yes . whereas they are still in Japan."
Again and again Farel's tears trickled down, He had expected that his wife would say this . Then how did the people convey the news of his son's departure?
Farel held Zaskia's shoulder, looked at enjoying his wife so deeply." I want to talk to you, horrin All my talk from the beginning yeah . don't cut it first, after I'm done talking, yes, you're free to do anything to me, okay? "
Zaskia smiled slightly, A second later she nodded.
with a heavy heart and withstanding tightness in the chest . inevitably, Strong not strong, Farel must still convey this all ."
"Faisal's father, Aminah's mother, and Bang Jo already have no Ki. They have been called the same almighty, you do not dream, It all happens. Look at the clothes you wear now, see what you wear, you have carried them to their final resting place, Kiaa."
" your stomach hurts because there is no life there, you miscarry, the fetus in the womb you can not be saved .our child already no Kia ."
Farel immediately hugged Zaskia, when the woman cried so much that a hiccup "sorry, sorry I love, sorry I "
Zaskia squeezes the hospital blanket, she tries to vent her frustration .
"WHY IS EVERYTHING I'VE GOT IN THE CAR, RAIL? WHERE AM I HAPPY? WHY IS GOD NOT FAIR TO ME?"
Zaskia cries in Farel's arms, hitting in her husband's field .
Zaskia could not accept all of this, this was too soon for her .Dad, mommy, Bang Jo just left Zaskia a few hours ago .and now ? even a fetus that has just formed a blood clot should go away leaving itself alone .
" crying as much as you are, hit me as much as you if it can reduce the pain you feel "
"I'm so stupid on the rail, I don't want to follow your talk to the doctor . Because of my selfishness, I told our son ."
Zaskia cried so much, making the hearts of the people like being crushed by a big rock.If only he could change positions, he better feel the burden of bearing all the burden experienced by his wife . Farel really could not bear to see his wife absorb this .
the door of Zaskia's nursing room opened, Ana and Dimas ran towards Zaskia .
" Why Kia, rail?"
Farel shook his head, asking that his mama hug Zaskia .maybe, a warm hug from a mother that could strengthen Zaskia for now .
Ane hugged Zaskia tightly, stroked her daughter-in-law's head ." You're patient baby, everything that happened today must have been a silver lining ."
anneh and Dimas stare back at Farel, asking for an explanation for Zaskia's words just now .
Farel nodded his head .
" he can not say that son .in this world there is no one who wants to feel the loss.dumb , sustenance and death . everything has been arranged equally almighty . so Zaskia can't hurt anyone for what's going on right now, including blaming herself ."
"dengerin dear mama, Iya still have mama and papa. we both will already be parents Kia too . now she can cry as loud as her , so go out is okay , 'cause it's okay ,luapin all the annoyance of Zaskia, the disappointment of Kia, and the anger of Kia. But after this you should not grieve anymore .the four of them, your loved ones, ' you , I'd be happy to see you smile again, baby ,"
" Kia's son must be proud to have a strong mother like Kia"
Zaskia lowered her head, staring at the hand that was still attached to the infusion hose .
her mother's words were true, but it wasn't that easy for Zaskia to pretend to be strong in front of all of them.
Zaskia was very sick, this incident happened so quickly . it even took the four lives that Zaskia loved so much . Innocent baby just lost his life because of his carelessness .
she should have kept that trust, she could have taken care of the baby .
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" we lived here first, right now? is that okay, baby ?"
after being treated for 5 days , Zaskia Already allowed to go home .His condition had improved quite a bit . only Zaskia always delirious in her sleep.
Dimas and Anne asked Zaskia to stay in her home for a while . so they could keep Zaskia's health in check,
" It's okay, rails."
" When did you get off the tracks ?" ask Dimas from the door.
" home? papa Zaskia said he'd stay here for a while."
" Bugel . You just asked him to stay here, not you ."
Farel approached Dimas who was still faithfully standing in the doorway of room ." Papa mean what ?"
" you stay in Apart and Zaskia will stay here with us!"
" can't that dong Pah, Zaskia is my wife, what papa misahin her from me ?"
PLAKKK!
Zaskia closed her mouth, She did not expect that her Father-in-law would slap Farel .
" you still have what right papa? do you realize that your mistakes are not the same ? Zaskia Sad left with her parents ,Sama jovian , Where are you going ?you weren't there when Zaskia needed you ?"
" wickedly you didn't come home for two days, you left Zaskia alone, and even you with Teganya threatened to divorce Zaskia, right ? what kind of husband are you ?!"
Farel was stunned and speechless .
" Why silence ? can't answer, can you? you run out of excuses ? huh uh?"
" i'm sorry Farel Pah, Farel is sorry ."
Dimas shit cynical,"Sorry? stale ."
"Papa wait for you downstairs, within 15 minutes if you don't come down, papa will drag you forcibly." Dimas said leaving both .
Farel turned his body around, smiling faintly towards Zaskia.
his father's words were correct ', Farel had to stay away from Zaskia . he had to reflect on his mistake 'too many wounds he inflicted on Zaskia's heart .Farel must accept his sentence.
only a step Farel walked, but Zaskia had already lowered Farel's chest, hugging her husband very tightly ."Don't go, I beg the rail"
silence fills both of them, Farel reciprocates Zaskia's embrace is no less tight .
" it's okay, it's just a temporary farewell . Later if I've changed a lot m I will definitely pick you up here, we will stay together again yes dear . I have to introspect myself first ."
" i should also apologize to Kemal, Ki."
when the hug came off, Farel kissed the lips of old Zaskia .
" you take good care of yourself dear .later I will pick you up again here, I promise "
the tears of both fell, this kiss felt very sincere . Farel managed to melt Zaskia's heart back .
" promise don't stay with me anymore "
Farel hooked his little finger on the pinky alone "yes I promise you baby "
" don't stop loving me rail, I can't live without you. I've lost a lot "
Farel nodded with a smile, then kissed Zaskia's lips again .
10 Minutes both washed away in the kiss .
" i'm leaving, baby, I don't want to be dragged down by Papa"
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