Happiness Starts with Sadness

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After the doctor let my mom come home, we finally went home. But with great hope still hoping he asked the news turned out wrong he still did not care, he still did not care,. the next day I started working again as usual his attitude was still very cold no questions came out of his mouth and I was reluctant to say hello first because I was still very disappointed. Then tomorrow night I don't know if there's any wind that he's coming home like giving new hope of course I'm happy to accept him again and hope this time really changes.

The mistakes I make can't just disappear, love and hope too much for the wrong people. It turned out that there was no change at all he stayed that way and I was really very disappointed. And at that time I knew a man he was very well mannered but I was afraid to be with him for fear of being disappointed again, but the man assured me that he was much better than my girlfriend.

And we communicate with each other even if not very often, and what makes me so moved when my mother entered the hospital again and had to be hospitalized she accompanied me in the hospital for the first time there was a man who was very concerned about my condition that made I was fascinated even though in my heart I was still very afraid to fall in love again because I loved my partner so much at that time.

Every day the man showed his attention and I responded at that moment because I wanted to let go and forget about my partner. As time went on we got closer and I broke off with my partner to prefer the man in the hope that I could be as happy as any other couple. And stupidly I was when I got attention, love, love, I still hope my ex-boyfriend many times I hurt my boyfriend because I still hope the same ex and strangely my ex often come to the house I was also confused why it could be like that, so I did not know, 4 Months we're dating and I still have absolutely no feelings because I still hope for my ex. After I went through all I was wrong to hurt her so sincerely that I started learning to love her.

I used to pray "God I want him to?", and then God gave him to me. Yes I was very happy then until I finally met with disappointment.Often he hurt me, many times he betrayed my faithful, many times he made me shed tears. But still selfishly I did not change my prayer, I wanted him. And my hope in him was more and more that God showed me. I am angry, I hate it, I am disappointed. And I was getting blown up when he chose to leave me, I was angry, so angry I asked what God really wanted?? And again the time that gives the answer to all questions. God seems to want to tell me sometimes God presents someone in our lives does not mean they will stay forever. Sometimes God just wants to tell us that people who come into our lives sooner or later will leave us. And when you have too much hope for humans, you will be friends with disappointment.

Appreciate your current partner who is still with you who can accept you as you are do not disappoint your partner.