HALAL LOVER (Already Published )
Section 8
After the incident that night, Azizah still kept thinking about it. The one who will be his imam is Ghibran, the one who always makes him upset and emotional. And he also remembered Aisha, what if Aisha knew it, how Azizah would tell Aisha because Azizah knew Aisha had a taste for Ghibran.
How do I tell that to Aisyah, she will definitely feel beaten and hurt if she knows the person I'm betrothed to is the one she likes. What should I do, God? On the one hand I do not want to be a child who is ungodly because I do not obey the wishes of my parents, but on the other hand I jiga do not want to make my best friend hurt. Aisyah is not only a friend but she is already like my own brother. How can I get that hard, take the man he loves. He murmured inwardly, looking straight ahead.
Azizah dissolves in her daydream she dissolves in her confusion, now she is like a simalakama fruit that is both very important to her but must be something she chooses. His parents or his best friend? Sunguh, this made him confused and feel tormented. Suddenly a hand slapped Azizah's shoulder and spread her daydream, Azizah turned her face to know whose hand it was.
"Now." Aisyah threw a smile and sat down beside Azizah.
"You're here, Zah, I'm looking everywhere."
Azizah only fell silent not paying much heed to Aisha's words, and seeing that Aisha was astonished and scrunched her forehead.
"Well, what's wrong with you?"Aisha confronted Azizah's body before her and now they faced each other.
"You why Zah, is there a problem? Tell me a story."
Instantly Azizah immediately hugged Aisha while sobbing in her cries, Aisyah was shocked and still amazed at Azizah's attitude.
"You why Zah? Same story I don't just shut up like this, I'm so confused Zah."
Azizah just fell silent while crying in Aisyah's arms.
"Well, if crying makes you feel calmer cry, Zah."
From a distance it turns out Ghibran saw the scene between Azizah and Aisyah, he became reminded of the matchmaking where he will marry the friend of the person he has always admired. Tears fell on Ghibran's cheeks, and Ghibran walked away sweeping his tears. Fahmi approached Ghibran, but Ghibran had already left the place.
"Ghibran wait," called Fahmi, but Ghibran still passed away.
Fahmi was astonished at Ghibran's attitude, and he turned to Azizah and Aisyah who were sitting while still hugging along with Azizah's sobs.
"What's wrong with Ghibran, what does this attitude have to do with both of them? What's the matter."
Fahmipun left the place with his curiosity.
Aisha let go of her embrace from Azizah, and tried to ask back at Azizah's sudden attitude of hugging herself and crying.
"How, is it calmer now?" ask Aisyah slowly.
Azizah only nodded her head at the sign that she was asking Aisha's question.
"Now, tell me what's going on? What could make you suddenly hug me, and then cry like that."
"I'm sorry" said Azizah lirih.
Azizah's words astonished Aisha, perhaps in her mind why did Azizah apologize? What has he done so he must apologize to himself.
"Sorry?" aisha asked in surprise, and Azizah just nodded her head.
"I'm sorry for what Zah? really I don't understand. Try to tell me what's going on? What has happened is actually."
"I'm sorry Aisyah, because I'm not a good friend to you."
"What did you say, Zah? You are my best friend, and even we are so close like brothers. You don't say that Zah."
Azizah turned her body before Aisha and held Aisha's shoulders.
"Dad, now please tell me the truth. Do you love Ghibran?" Looking at Aisyah seriously.
Suddenly Azizah's question made Aisyah surprised and astonished, she could only fall silent. He was confused to answer what, in fact he did like the young man but he never wanted anyone to know about his feelings including Azizah, his own best friend.
"Jawab shah." pressed Azizah, still holding both shoulders Aisha.
"A—aaku." Aisha said in a stammer and, Azizah immediately cut Aisha's speech.
"You love him, don't you? I don't know how to tell you all this I'm confused. I don't want to see you hurt." Removing his grip on Aisyah's shoulder, then facing back to the front.
Aisha was astonished at Azizah's words she had made to her. What did Azizah mean, why did she say that. Maybe that's what he had in mind.
"Wait a minute, what do you mean? You said you didn't want to see me get hurt. Injured why? Azizah, tell me what's going on, what's really going on?" aisyah asked increasingly curious.
"Well, I'll tell you all this, shah, because you have to know."
"Yes Zah, try telling me."
Azizah turned to Aisyah and looked at Aisyah's face which looked very curious and confused.
Actually, I can't stand to say this is all the same as you Shah, but you also deserve to know Shah.
mumbled Azizah in his heart.
"Now."
Sahutan Aisyah opened Azizah's gaze, and immediately began to speak, "Shah, you know that I will be betrothed. The day after I and umi were invited to dinner there, and I have now met my future priest, and ...."
Aisyah nodded her head, and immediately cut off Azizah's words while throwing a smile.
Azizah immediately cut Aisyah's words that looked very happy and smiled happily.
"And that man is a Ghibran" said Azizah lirih.
Aisyah was surprised, immediately the smile from her lips disappeared after hearing the words that Azizah had uttered. Azizah only looked ahead as her eyes glazed over. It hurt so much that Aisha heard Azizah's words telling her that she had been betrothed to him was Ghibran. Like being struck by lightning in a hole, that's how he now feels. Sick, sore, but Aisyah tried to toughen up and smile back to look okay.
"You mean, Ghibran's our college friend?"
Azizah just nodded slowly without looking at Aisyah, because she did not want to see the sad face of her best friend. Aisyah tried to be tough and act ordinary and immediately embraced Azizah.
"Congratulations Zah, you finally know who you've been betrothed to."
Azizah simply fell silent and closed her eyes in Aisha's embrace.
"I'm sure Ghibran is the right man for you Zah. He's a very nice person and I'm sure you'll be happy with him."
Tears fell on Aisha's cheeks, unable to hold her even though she had tried to hold back from crying but in fact her heart was struggling unable to hold her back.
I know this shah is very heavy for you. I know you must be very hurt, I'm sorry Shah.
Azizah muttered in her heart, she knew that Aisha must have been very hurt and broken. But, how else must it be because this has all become his destiny. Although Azizah did not want everything to happen, but this was not her will and desire.
Aisha swept her tears and released her embrace to Azizah.
"I'm so happy Zah, so happy." Aisyah threw a happy smile at Azizah.
"I'm sorry."
"Why do you have to apologize, Zah? there is nothing wrong" Aisyah said.
"I'm sorry Shah, because I've taken the person you admire a long time ago" Azizah said.
"Trust Azizah, I don't love Ghibran. I only felt admiration for her, because her melodious voice was just that. No love is just awe." Aisyah smiled and tried to convince Azizah.
"You don't lie Shah, I know that you love Ghibran.I'm your friend Shah, even we've been friends for a long time and I know you're lying right now," azizah said in disbelief.
"Azizah I don't lie, I don't love Ghibran at all. You don't have to feel guilty like this, believe Zah I'm so happy about this happy news."
Aisyah smiled and hugged Azizah tightly.
Silence approached between them for some time, and now Azizah began to melt the atmosphere by starting to say a word for a word.
"Shah" called Azizah, and Aisha turned to Azizah.
"Yeah Zah, why?"
Azizah took her breath for a moment and started to say again.
"You know not Shah, believe me that Ghibran loves you very much."
Aisyah was surprised and turned to Azizah.
"You mean Zah?"
"Yeah, that Ghibran loves you so much but he never dared to say it to you. Especially after she found out about this match."
"You know where Zah came from, that Ghibran loves me?".
"Ghibran himself told me Shah. When I was about to return the book that was left behind, I accidentally heard the talk of him saying that he loves you very much. And after he found out about this matchmaking, he said that he would bury and forget his feelings for you Shah. In fact, he doesn't want you to know about his feelings. And he'll never tell you how he feels about you because he thinks it'll be useless, because he knows you won't be together."
Tears fell on Aisyah's cheeks, her tears continued to flow so fast without stopping while Azizah just stared blankly ahead.
Ghibran loves me? and that means my feelings haven't been clapping one hand. But Ghibran was already betrothed to Azizah. I don't know what fate is happening to me right now, God, on the one hand I was really happy when I found out that Ghibran loved me too but on the other hand I was hurt because I had to give up my loved ones with my own best friend. Whether fate seems to be playing tricks on me, how should God be happy or sad?
Aisha tried to sweep away her tears and turned to Azizah.
"No one is to blame in this matter Zah, no one will get hurt. And you don't feel guilty."
Azizah turned her head and looked at Aisyah's face, looking at her face with pain, pain. He knew his best friend was lying. Aisyah threw a smile and swept away the tears on Azizah's cheeks that kept flowing.
"No one is to blame and hurt in this matchmaking Zah, you are innocent and I am not hurt, I am sure Ghibran is a good man and will definitely make you happy. And I believe that Ghibran can be a good Imam to you Zah. I'm not hurt at all Zah I'm very happy, you're my best friend so I should also be happy for your happiness, too" Aisyah assures.
"But, I don't have any sense of the same Ghibran let alone love him. How can I marry someone I don't love and don't love me."
"Love will come by itself Zah, believe me I'm sure someday you two will definitely love each other even more than yourself."
Azizah immediately hugged Aisyah, Aisha again shed her tears in her arms. It is undeniable that his heart is wounded, his heart is broken but fate does not want him to be with the people he loves. Now, only a sincere feeling that he instilled in his heart even though it was still very difficult.
While in class, Ghibran was sitting thinking about what he had seen. His gaze was focused, looking straight ahead at the voices of some people there he did not heed. He is absorbed in his daydream.
Did Azizah tell Aisha? Seen a sad look on Aisyah's face, it really feels like I want to wipe her tears. I can't believe it, seeing him sad. Forgive me Aisha. Inner Gibran spoke.
It's hard, it feels. Having to let go of our loved ones, removes all the feelings in the heart that are always disturbing every day. But fate does not want it, destiny chooses someone else not the one we always call his name in the do'a. But believe that whatever is destined for us is best for our lives.
