H'Ongtang "Scratches of Wounds"

Nausea and wounds

When the sun was about to set and dusk had shown its form I was still standing hearing the sound of the river water flow as soon as a sense of longing for those who had gone and could not meet again at least treated, I could not see it,

" sorry sir, my shawl fell and got stuck in that rock, can you please get it"

" yes, a minute "

There was a silk scarf stuck in between the stones and it was right in the middle, I had to be willing to sacrifice my wet uniform just for punching this young lady 

" this is miss "

" thank you sir, I'm sorry sir because I got your uniform wet like that"

" it's okay, miss, but I seem to know the lady, didn't the one who asked for blood in the codim PMI a week ago "

"oh yes I am Yu An who a week ago to the codim, did not the father give it "

Azan magrib's voice cut off the conversation of me and Yu An, she said, I shut this mouth and listened to the melodious chant of the call of the Lord until the last sentence I saw Yu An also quietly enjoying the melodious voice of the doom ,"

"sorry miss I want to pray first "

 " oh yes sir I also want to go home, again thank you sir"

" yes together but you go home alone"

" yes I'm used to being alone"

" it is not good for women to walk alone in the dark, may I accompany you but allow me to pray first"

" maybe, I'll wait here"

I decided to pray on the rock around the river because I did not want to leave this Chinese woman alone, the sun has completely set even though there is a moon that replaces the light but still feels dark, he said, luckily there were old fathers lighting up with torches he was carrying, at least I didn't have to worry about Yu An in the dark like this,

Yu An's house is quite far away even we have to connect the steps using a bendi after getting off the oplet at the intersection of four kamang, it is surprising that Chinese women stelan miss like this have a place to live in the interior 

" the journey is far, sir, sorry to bother you"

"yes gapapa, I'm glad to be able to accompany you home"

" thank you sir"

" don't say thank you too much and if you can't call me father, I look very old "

" then I should call with what call ?"

" Radit, or call da Radit also says "

" oh yes, well "

" stop here sir "

The horse stopped at the command of the coachman and we went down in front of a wooden house that was not a ,what I saw once again astonished me because this white smooth-skinned lady lived here, in front of the door of the house stood the old lady waiting for this lady, I looked at the old woman who seemed to be very worried about Yu An but I noticed her face was not foreign 

"anywhere, son, why come home tonight like this "

" i was looking for a buk house to occupy"

"this is who son is"

" buk Nuri? buk Nuri no, ni Radit buk "

" Radit which is "

" The theme is Jiang "

" ooh, O Allah, to Adit "

" Fii you meet where Adit is "

" Fais?"

" i'm sorry I want to rest first "

" wait, Fei "

" i'm sorry you can go home now and thank you for driving me home"

My attractive heart went to meet Fei in the river again, my heart was always right and proved today Fei was right in the river standing and his face still gathering kink , ' he said ,

" why did you run away from me last night Fei "

"i didn't run away, I just hid in order to gather the courage to face the past again"

"are you mad at me"

" i have no right to be angry at anyone for my misfortune "

"sorry Fei I came late  "

" too late or not you can't change fate, bang Adit"

" are you vengeful and hateful to our nation Fei "

" your people are my people too, why hate your own people let alone hold a grudge, you know it's not me bang"

" then why did your tears fall on Fei, did everything hurt Fei "

" it's painful, definitely and these tears always fall if you remember the wound back"

" well, we better not talk about the past, I want you to smile again like my old Fei "

" you forgot right now I'm Yu An not a helpless little Fei  "

" to me you are still my cheerful little Fei and I am sure in you there is still a Fei Soul that has been lost because of the figure of Yu An that should not exist "

" you're wrongly named Yu An is very valuable to me because with that name I can forget about myself and my old story"

" then why did you come back, if you don't want to come back from your past"

Fei was speechless, I felt sorry for him who seemed to be depressed with a thousand questions from me, I hugged him who needed support  

" forget it if you want to forget everything, but never forget your old self, because that has become your identity Fei"

Fei may have turned into Yu An but not with his soul, no matter how much he tries to be that strong, I want to realize that he cannot escape the past and the old self,I took him to walk and enjoy the green pine trees and heard the collaburation of crickets and birds around the river so that his heart was calm, I saw a flower that Fei had whined for but I could not pick for him first

" fei this is a beautiful flower for a beautiful girl like you"

" no, didn't Koko forbid me to touch that flower"

" you forbid it because you think this flower is poisonous, take Fei I make sure it's safe for you "

"beautiful and wanggi"

"how? did you fall asleep after kissing her "

" hahaha, I'm not a princess in fairyland"

Her gleeful laughter was again present and it was nice to see her face growing beautiful happily in her laughing line, this was Feiku I was waiting for, she said, I promised myself I wouldn't let him go and always kept it as I promised Jiang my sahaba, after calming him down and then coming back I delivered him home and in front of the house he was a little bit condolent to me,Fei was a little embarrassed to look at me

" thank you for today "

" yes deck together, brother go home first yes "

" but not enter first "

" no thanks you have a job"

"mmm bang Adit's.."

" yes what is Fei "

"  maybe my friend tomorrow find a house, I want to buy a house for buk Nuri but do not tell buk Nuri first"

" yes, please just meet your brother in the codim"

"  yes bang, thank you bang"

What this feeling is like is a sense of pleasure along with a pounding heart, is this my sense of happiness after meeting Fei-, Fei- , yes maybe it is but why is it so strong my happiness and I can't wait to meet Fei tomorrow.