Give Me Space

Give Me Space

December 11th, 2021

My story for you, Hans.

Word by word that has now evolved into one sentence, it has now become a story that you are ready to listen to. If the question is why I didn't expect you to realize all this, because the most important thing for me is to admire you in silence that is enough to make my heart feel happy.

The night was so very bright that it was decorated with the moon and grains of stars that enliven the atmosphere tonight. It feels cool to look at and enjoy the cold wind at night. For a moment I fell silent and realized that I was here alone with no one by my side. Everything went missing, what was going on. Is this just my feeling or is it the reality that I have to face in the future.

This story started when I was in the hospital. But before continuing my story, introduce me Anggita Anastasya. But everyone calls me Anggit. I am 17 years old and now I am in High School. Being an active student in the realm of organization is one of the most important things for me, eitssss.

“Anggitttt, you have an acquaintance with the chairman of OSIS in some schools? Very confused to know because the webinar participants are still lacking,” muttered Wel.

“Wait-s.. I have a few friends who are members of OSIS also at school. How do you know he wants to help us,” I replied to Wel.

I've been relentlessly following some of my friends who might be members of the OSIS. But accidentally there was an incoming message from wa, which turned out to be a message from Devan. “I don't know what else to say to you but the point is enough to just get here. You're good but maybe we can't like the old one anymore.” Seeing the message I fell silent and unconsciously a drop of tears began to wet my face. I don't want any of this to happen, but it's okay for the rice to be porridge. I can't help but hold this cry. I let them wet my face. Wel was surprised by me who suddenly shed tears. Unable to see it, Wel immediately hugged me and said “Whatever the problem is faced with a tough, sad and disappointed it is natural but do not fall asleep in sadness.”

The atmosphere of a beautiful and hopeful night had now turned into a vacant night. For a moment I forgot my original purpose. Heartbeats that began to be unstable exhaled one by one making people around me start to panic with my condition. Without thinking, Wel rushed to call the doctor. Shortly afterwards Wel came with a doctor.

“Give Aggit break time don't let him stress yes,” doctor murmured to Wel.

After being examined Wel immediately delivered the doctor to the front door and accidentally there was my new mother coming. Suddenly speechless, my mother was confused why it was jam so this time there was a doctor who entered her son's room. What happened until this happened. My mom went straight inside.

“Sayangggl... You why, just mama stay a while and you immediately like this,” asked mama Anggit with a hysterical face panic.

“Glow gpp ma, it was just ordinary tight aja kok ma, mama don't worry ya. I'm fine, if you don't believe ask Wel,” he replied with a smiling face.

“Yasudah mending you now rest and do not play hp again,” said mama Anggit.

“Tan, Wel go home first because papa has been back and forth nanyain Wel when to go home.” Said Wel while saying goodbye.

“Hearts on the road yes Wel, thanks already keep Anggit pas aunt gada at rs say hello to aunt mama papa you yes,” message mama Anggit.

Wel went home soon and I finally fell asleep.

Bedug dawn was heard too late, the sound of the adhan reverberating signifies for Muslims to carry out dawn. The birds are starting to sound beautiful. It seemed that the night was over and the dawn was about to break. Open your eyes so that the sun can rise, flowers can bloom because all are waiting to see your beautiful smile. New hopes and opportunities arise every day. Sometimes we are always grateful for the blessings we give. Starting a new day should be with passion.

Mom opened the window so I could breathe fresh air. Stare out and for a moment I remember the good memories with him. The laugh I had with him would now turn foreign. I wondered if this was God's way that he and I could just as well improve ourselves and be a much better person going forward. God knows he is not a good person.

Kringggg.....

The incoming message from one of my friends' saru that I chtt last night.

“Git, this is my OSIS chairman number yes. Earlier sorry long bales because last night I quickly slept. Sorry banger yes Git.”

I immediately took my phone and invited the OSIS chairman.

“Assalamaicum Wr.Wb bg.... Sorry to interrupt earlier,” I said inside the chatt.

“Wa’alaikumsalam Wr.Wb for a moment, who is it with?” the response was so quick.

“Previous I Anggita Anastaysa as Treasurer General Core OSIS SMA 3 Karawang. My purpose and purpose here is to invite you and your Osis colleagues to work with us. I let you share wa you to my division secretary ya” I was a little groggy when ngchatt him, it feels something strange.

“Oooooo yes-iya, I wait ya hehehe, introduce me Hans as Chairman of OSIS ALFIT Karawang” SMA so fast response.

Without realizing it almost every day I chttn with him. Hans, yes that name is so short that it's always on my mind. The way he responded to me made me forget Devan all the more. Hans made me feel comfortable with him. Although I have never met him but at least I can feel that he is a good person. Today I feel happy, because the doctor let me go home from rs. Strange things that arise in my heart, I feel comfort, I want to know deeply about Hans. Until I told him there would be messages coming in every day from me. No matter what he thinks.

To the point where I started to feel that I liked him. This is one of the histories for me to be able to like someone for almost a year without telling him. Well, sometimes this is normal but for me this is one of my history in adolescence. We give each other news and sometimes I keep waiting for his space, waiting for him even though now he and I have rarely rebuked each other in cyberspace.

I didn't think there was a message coming in from one of my social media accounts and it turned out to be from him. It looks short, but it has meaning to me.

“How are you, how is your fast?” –notif from her.

“Ehhhh you, tumben really ngechat I news alhamdulillah well. What about you, sister?” I answered for 2 minutes.

“Hahahaha yes brother, I will be diligent school. Sister is also diligent in college, remember you can not play because of her new sister just so maba. Doain ya sis hope I can be an independent girl hehehe” reply me quickly.

So long time no reprimand each other on social media now the topic of conversation began to open. Good conversation, the response that always gives a positive thing that has always been one of my support systems in terms of learning makes me more eager to pursue my dreams. Well, sometimes Devan's shadow bothers me. Sometimes it's hard to control my heart. This unbecoming feeling caused me a dilemma about Devan and Hans.

Just as I had a hard time forgetting Devan, now Hans also has a past where he also has a hard time forgetting someone who once stopped in his heart. Now we both look forward to this space. Sometimes I wonder if Hans can make room for him. And instead he thought about whether I could give him space in my heart.

Love, listen to the heart

Conscience

I just realized

I am now

Lose you

Night, the moon passes

The heart is still broken

Be happy with you

Quiet now

The soul is no master

Without saying goodbye to you

Disappearing is like being swallowed by the ocean

I remember if I was wrong

And offend you

Even though a million dusk me

Crying misses your shadow

But my life must go on with my heart

Unamusedly

Songs that made my haiku even more hurt. Slowly, a single tear began to wash over my face. I'm helpless with all this. Well Hans is a good guy, he can make me comfortable. Exchanging stories, laughter began to cool us through. We're two of the same people who haven't been able to forget the past. But, we also need a new space to receive new people. Well, sometimes we want to be together, but we don't want to be selfish in making decisions. We realize there are still shadows of the past approaching each other.

“Hans, we're two of the same people looking forward to a new space, but we haven't been able to fully accept this situation either. Your story is the same as mine” I told Hans.

“Kakakak know this is difficult to face but it does not mean we forget our purpose. Maybe now both you and I have a hard time giving space but we are the same face it all and support each other.

Seeing this message made me even more relieved and for a moment I was sure with Hans that someday both me and him could make room between us, and I always asked God for good things.

“God, I don't know about any of this. You created my feelings and logic to feel and think what I was really going through. This feeling is difficult to control, on the one hand I have to focus on my career and on the other hand all this is an obstacle for me. If one day I am given a chance to meet her, then allow me to meet her in a situation where I am ready to be that woman

independents. Hans was a good man, never once was he sad. Make him always smile and never feel sadness.”

Hey Hanssss...!!!

Finally I can tell you our history, the history we originally knew and until now we are close. It's hard for Hans to put in a piece of paper, but I don't know how to remember about us anymore. I just wanted to say that later you can read the story I made. So I will say thank you, thanks for being there for me, thanks for being my support system. I'm here to be diligent in learning, hehehe I will also always remember what you said, if I had to be an independent girl. Hansa... Take care of health, and the spirit continues college yes.

I keep you in my heart

Greetings from His Angels Hans !!