Flow

Lupa

Today is a day I hate. He just wants peace but all he gets is anxiety.

He had not seen Resthi and his minions for a long time, of course, because of this life Ila became much more peaceful.

However, why did the gloomy day he had once experienced now happen again?

Does God want to test it once again by bringing Resthi back into his present life?

Does God want him to be a little more courageous?

Does God not want her to be a quiet, trampled woman?

God, actually Ila just wants to live normally, Ila wants to live Ila peace

Perhaps, this has become the way of life Ila became a person who is often used as bully-an material

God, I'm really tired of facing the world. If suicide wasn't a sin, I would have done it a long time ago. I need God's rest, please give pause to all your trials. I really want to give up, but there's a dream of my parents that I have to achieve, it's very difficult but I'll keep trying, so please give me some peace so I can take a break.

After returning from the library earlier, Ila became a lot silent. Usually during break time, Ila will watch some content from her favorite K-Pop idol group, Seventeen along with Cinta.

However, when Cinta invited her to watch together, Ila did not refuse but her eyes could not focus on the content they watched, Ila was just dumbfounded.

Love has asked the situation several times Ila. He was worried because Ila was not usually like that and he decided to deliver Ila when he returned to school later.

At first Ila refused, but after various persuasions and also coercion from Love, he finally wanted to be delivered home.

Ila's eyes kept moving, cold sweat coming out of her body, with all her might holding her body back from shaking from the trauma of the past. Those traumatic memories kept spinning in Ila's mind.

In the car, the atmosphere was so quiet. Love tried many times to invite him to chat but there was no reply at all from Ila, Love who does not know anything it can only let Ila along with her world at this time.

Maybe if Ila's mood improves, Ila will come back cheerful and tell her everything, Cinta thought.

The car stopped right in front of Ila's house, but she still did not move from her position, her gaze now turned blank. Love made Ila realize that they had arrived at Ila's house. Love waited for him until he actually entered the house to make sure that Ila was safe.

He entered the house without saying hello. He was alone at home because his parents were out of business. This kind of quiet atmosphere was what Ila had wanted from earlier. No one bothered him this time.

He was now in his room to calm down, the tears he had been holding back from earlier finally sliding very fast. His body trembled feeling how painful he was today. Only her crying voice accompanied her this time.

The tightness in his usual chest he felt was not as crowded as he felt this time. He desperately wanted to dispose of all his pain by hitting his chest hard hoping that it would all come off quickly.

His mind was already controlled by the whisper of the devil, he then took the razor that he had long stored, no one knew that Ila often did self harm.

He slowly scratched the razor into his left upper arm. He scratched in that section so as not to be caught by people.

Blood started to drip from his arm, there was no pain he felt as the razor scratched into his hand. He smiled, this is what Ila longed for.

This calmness helped him, seeing that blood was peace. The clothes Ila was wearing, were now filled with blood.

It took a long time to get back to Ilayabg now and usually. Moreover, Ila is a girl who has a sensitive nature and is also a thinker.

Ila was enjoying the cool air near the window of her room by occasionally paying attention to her arms.

Ila's daydream was broken when someone was knocking on the door. But it can be ascertained that it is his mother, because rarely there are others who play at his house. He quickly cleaned the floor with traces of blood and also gave some perfume spray so as not to smell the blood fishy. After the floor was clean, he then wiped the blood on his body and immediately changed clothes.

He opened the door for the man. The assumption turned out to be true, which was behind the door not only his mother, but there was his Father also behind. Ila pretends to scratch her head that does not itch so that her hair back messy and also does not make her mother suspicious of him.

"Just woke up? Let's eat, I buy your favorite food"

Ila nodded in response. Ila then calls Axel to eat together. Now a family has gathered around the dining table. With the spirit of Ila opened the food. However, he was surprised by the food brought by his mother. Salty spicy calamari? It is the food that Ila avoid the most because Ila is allergic to the food.

Did his mother forget?

Rambok

The voice came from Ila who accidentally hit the dining table. His waist was in pain from colliding directly with the end of the table.

His mind was unfocused, how could his mother forget about him?

This was very dangerous for him, because he was acutely allergic, he could experience shortness of breath even it was very threatening to his death.

Ila was crying in silence, her tears were resistant to falling, she had enough tears to shed today, she was tired.

Axel and Bambang gawked at what Wati presented. How could Wati forget this.

As Bambang was about to open his voice, Ila held her hand and shook her head. He did not want to disappoint his mother to himself. With forced Ila keep eating the salty spicy squid.

And sure enough, after eating a few mouthfuls of squid, Ila's body flushed red from the heat.

He put all the remaining food into his mouth. With his mouth full he then ran into his room. However, before he said goodbye to his mother with alesan get a phone call.

Everyone stared at Ila with Iba, except for Wati. He completely forgot about Ila.

Arriving inside the room, Ila spits out all her entrails in a plastic bag. His face was already flushed red, his breathing was also already irregular.

He hurriedly sought his allergy-relieving medication, but nil. He did not stock up on allergy medicine anymore because he thought everyone knew about the allergy.

But it turns out wrong, not someone else who does not know it was his own mother who forgot an important thing in Ila.

It had been 20 minutes Bambang and Axel waited for Ila to come out of the room, but there was no sign of going out.

Feeling that it was long enough, they finally decided to go to Ila's room to check her condition. And right, with a reddened face, Ila lying on the floor was already unconscious. Bambang and Axel immediately carried Ila to the Hospital.

Arriving at the Hospital, Ila was immediately rushed to the ER room. Bambang waited for Ila with pacing and feeling unreasonable. While Axel, he was picking up Wati at home.

Axel arrives at the hospital with Wati. He ran towards where Bambang was standing. Wati still does not know what causes Ila to enter the Hospital.

With bulging eyes and a crimson face, Bambang approached Wati.

"Mas, Ila why? Wasn't it still healthy when we came?"

" DID YOU FORGET? YOUR SON IS ALLERGIC TO SQUID!!"

"HE COULD HAVE DIED JUST FROM EATING THAT FOOD YOU BOUGHT!!"

"WHY CAN YOU FORGET SOMETHING IMPORTANT LIKE THIS?"

Bambang's chest was very rumbling to hold all emotions, He was eager to vent it, but when He vented of course it would cause great problems.

By evaporating his emotions, could He make Ila wake up immediately?

Would it be that if Ila had woken up and found out what He was doing Ila would not have been disappointed in him?

Wouldn't he also be able to lose Wati if he vented his anger?

He cupped his hands and rubbed his rough reddened face.

"Watiii, my son"

"She's my only little princess"

"I don't want to lose any of you"

"His love, all this time he has harbored all his own problems, He never shared them with anyone"

"He was always crying everyone was sleeping"

"He never really takes a break during the day, when you tell him to take a break, he doesn't break but he creates and edits content so he can watch a lot of people and make money"

"I know it's Wati, I saw for myself that she's been working so hard at her current age"

"I feel like I failed Watiiiii, my son who should still be enjoying his time with his friends and school focus, but he chose to make money for his needs"

"Axel, if you feel less or need something, just say the same to you, do not just shut up, son"

Bambang told everything with a trembling voice and tears, his heart was broken every time he accidentally saw his daughter was working so hard but no one knew it even praised her. They are too focused on their school grades.

Wati's legs are not strong enough to accumulate his body after hearing the explanation from Bambang, how can he always be at home with Ila but why He does not know anything about Ila and what Ila does.

Wati's tears fell no less swift with Bambang's tears. How could he be the one who was with Ila longer at home, but why Bambang who knows more about Ila than he does.

What kind of mother she was, not knowing the slightest bit of difficulty from her son. Or maybe Wati is not a comfortable place for her children?

Ila's bed vault is now being moved to the Inpatient room. An oxygen hose is attached to help Ila to breathe.

Wati clasped Ila's hand tightly, she felt really stupid. Why can he forget the things that could hurt his own daughter?

Tears continued to flow, even until the hands and also the blanket wrapped in Ila's body now became wet because of it. He could not calm down before seeing that his daughter was fine.

Axel had just looked at his parents, honestly he was just as devastated to see his brother had to be hospitalized. He also felt sorry to see his parents who were sad, but he could only calm them down by patting them gently on the shoulder so that they felt a little calm.

It was like wanting to cry just to see the pale face of his brother, what else after hearing the facts revealed by his Father.

But after thinking back, he also understood the position of Ila. He knew exactly how stubbornness and tough stance Ila had.

If Ila already wants something, then He must get it even though He has to work so hard as now. He does not care about the judgment of others to him, as long as what He does is lawful work.

Seeing the struggle of Ila, Axel was actually proud and moved by the establishment of Ila that was not easily swayed.

Now both of his parents have fallen asleep, while his eyes are still too reluctant to close.

At 02:00 WIB

Axel who had not fallen asleep, saw there was a little movement from Ila, thank God he said in his heart. Her smile expanded as Ila began working on her eyes to adjust the light.

Axel immediately wakes up his parents to tell them that Ila is conscious.

All thanked God for giving Ila the opportunity to remain in this world.

Wati kissed Ila's hand repeatedly with dozens of sorry words with regret.

Regretful for forgetting something important, regretful for not knowing his daughter's predicament, regret for not being the place of his daughter's story and other regrets that he could not mention all.

Hearing the words of regret from his parents with tears, it made Ila's heart very sick. How could his parents apologize when everything was his own choice.

He could not see those tears.

"No ma'am, this is Ila's fault. Ila who didn't ngingetin mom about squid"

"Ila who deliberately did not tell Mom that Ila was having difficulties, this is Ila Bu's fault. You don't have to apologize for mistakes you didn't make"

Still not blaming her mother? Why is his daughter's heart so good? Though it is clear here is the fault of Wati.

"No, it's Mom's fault. I should have been a little more sensitive to you and I should have been"

Ila could not hear the sound of shaking from her mother, it hurt so much to hear it.

"Already Mom, already. Don't beat yourself up and don't cry anymore, it's okay now. Already yes, Ila does not want to hear Mom cry especially because of Ila"

Wati hugged Ila's body warmly, really she was grateful to have a daughter with a heart as good as Ila. In the arms of the mother, Ila spread her arms to welcome Bambang and Axel.

But all that came was Bambang, Axel was too prestigious to hug like that. Although in his little heart he was eager to hug and give spirit to his brother.

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