Flow

Outpouring

Resthi's stock of patience has run out, he is not out of thought with people beside him, why just told to smile already. Resthi's gnarled cupped onto Rico's two sleeping cheeks, a moment later he pulled both ends of Rico's lips together to form a smile.

Not to be missed by Fedri as a photographer, he focused his camera on the two humans. The result was very good, he showed it to Ila. And Ila admitted the photo Fedri took was amazing even though it was a candid.

Rico releases Resthi's hand from his face, he immediately gives his forced smile towards the camera, then he pulls Ila's wrist for her to follow him.

Ila who is not used to wearing high heels makes her legs somewhat stagger in holding her own body. Because he roughly turned his body and made it twisted by his own feet.

"Hihh slowly anjer, I wear this flip-flop, not a swalloe's sandal" The speech was accompanied by a hard blow to Rico's back.

Previously, Ela tidied up her skirt that was a little messy, She felt a little difficulty walking because the skirt she wore fit to shape her body. Ila returned to walk to Love and Aertha who were busy watching their photos today.

The show went well, although some of the poetry and song offerings performed by their underclassmen made the people who were paying attention to tear up.

A friendship that they just lived, they were forced to end because they had to choose their own path for the future.

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The graduation ceremony this afternoon has ended, everyone has returned to their homes. No different from Ila and her mother.

Ila was pensive in the room with a cellphone right in front of her, Seventeen content continued to spin without being watched. No laughter this time, he was busy with his own head. Even his face completely bum he cleaned from the makeup polish. His hand was already holding the cotton that he had wet with micellar water, but he did not immediately use it to clean his makeup.

Precisely 2 Weeks ago, SNMPTN has been done, Ila did not follow the selection because of his concern in taking the decision to continue his education. The selection is a selection of admission into the State University, which is most likely he must always take classes every day, while the burden on his shoulders is now increasing after the departure of the Father.

She could not bear to let her mother work too hard because she had to pay for Axel's school. The tuition that must be spent is not a little, although it does not have to pay every month, but the amount is quite large for their families. Even so, he could have pursued it through the crosshairs of the mission or other scholarships.

But his feelings were always worried even though he had gotten a bright spot in his heart, he was so unbearable to see his mother who drenched in sweat every day to support them.

How could he focus instead on his dreams compared to the needs of his family. He does not want to be selfish because it is too selfish, maybe it is not his destiny to pursue the dream.

His work as an influence can not be expected, especially he will rarely do his streaming activities now.

Ila took a deep breath and exhaled it through her mouth, a tired day plus her unguided thoughts.

Ila started rubbing her face to clean up the rest of the make-up. The door of the room opened violently, it was seen that Axel entered in a hurry to shock Ila.

Axel knew that Ila was still worried about his thoughts, because yesterday fitting Axel asked will continue the study where, Ila only replied by raising his shoulders sign yet to know.

"Uwaallahu Akbar" Ila's screams echoed throughout the house, and even the next-door neighbor might have heard the loud scream, as well as their homes are not large and the environment is close to the houses of other neighbors.

"Anjir hihhh" Ila tapped her only sister's ear, she was very anxious because Axel often surprised her when she was daydreaming about something.

"It hurts njir... I just want to make Lo pray together, even Lo jewel Gw's ear" Axel pushed his lips a little because he was upset, he rubbed his ears are still hot due to the actions of Ila Brother.

Not the intention to interfere, Axel did so solely to divert Ila's thoughts from the endless thoughts. After approximately 1 month of learning all the lessons ranging from 10th to 12th grade, Ila also learned a lot about the difficulties of life without a father figure. Although the presence of the figure of the father is very little in the life of the child, but his role is not to be underestimated.

Every night after performing the Maghrib prayer, Wati will start cutting the ingredients for tomorrow he sells, Ila help him only until the adhan Isya reverberate, he said, after that he had to learn to face the Exams that were in plain sight.

In the morning, Wati will wake up once in the morning, even the dawn adhan has not been proclaimed, the neighboring chicken is still calm in the cage. He began his activities so early that it was not too late to sell his merchandise, and he had to go to the market to buy his sales needs for tomorrow again.

The routine they have been doing for approximately 3 months, the absence of the figure of the father as the backbone, forcing Wati to work harder in order to meet daily needs.

In the past, no matter how small the salary earned by the late Bambang, can meet their needs, even they can still save every month. But now? Saving 200 Thousand Rupiah per month is very difficult they do, even almost said to be less even though their simple lives have not changed from the past.

How is it possible, amid economic pressure on his family, Ila even spent his money just to pay for college? His family is still very lacking at the moment.

If life is like a spinning wheel, which is sometimes under or above, then when is the time for the Servant to be placed upon it O Allah

You have always placed the Servant and the Servant in the lowest position, what plans have You prepared for the Servant and the Servant's family in the future, so that You may give us a very severe ordeal? The Servant believes You are the Most Just and Wise, the Servant is only tired, O Allah, the Servant only wants to tell about the tiredness of the Servant, it does not mean the Servant wants to give up. If not to You, then who can the Servant believe, they are friends of the Servant, but he also has other friends besides the Servant, O Allah. The mouth of the Servant feels so heavy when it will tell everything, while your creatures have a story that is no heavier than the Servant. Only you who understand the Servant best without the Servant must tell the story.

The line came out of Ila's mouth, when she had returned to her room. He prostrated himself again and managed to shed all the burdens on his heart, this was a hard life, but he would not ask to be picked up by the Creator.